Make Me Skin And Bones

The wind blew bitterly today. I stood on my front porch looking out into the brisk winter sky.

I was not ready for today. I saw the guy from yesterday, with the skunk hair, walking up Alex's porch. My eyes widened and I decided I wanted to get to school early today.

I through my hood on and walked with my head down, completely forgetting my headphones.

Unfortunately, Alex was now on his front porch with the guy, I walked quicker, my heart rate picking up, I felt sick... Please no.

"Alex you'll never guess" The guy laughed "You're right, Jack. I won't. So what is it" Alex laughed "Brooklyn is back" "BROOKLYN?!" Alex shouted, My eyes widened and I started to shake. I heard two sets of feet walking quickly behind me.

This was it. I wanted to smile but I knew it wouldn't be good. I braced my self.

"Alex wait!" Jack, I'm assuming, called out "Alex!" Jack called.

My heart all but stopped when I was shoved out of the way "Move" Alex spat and kept walking.

"I DON'T CARE JACK!"

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I sat down In my first class and sighed, I wasn't ready for the interaction I was going to have with him. I knew it would be coming...

Alex walked in right after me and flopped down in the only other empty seat, which happened to be the one next to me.

The teacher went theough roll call.

"Brooklyn Gagnier" I saw Alex stiffen beside me, and start looking all over the room.

Slowly I raised my hand... "Here..." My voice was small. I saw out the corner of my eye that Alex had turned his attention toward me. eyes wide "Alex, Gaskarth" The teacher called. He just kept staring at me. But not in the 'oh my best friend, I missed her' kind of way. more or less like a 'who the fuck have you turned into, fat cow' kinda look...

"Gaskarth! I would like it if you'd acknowledge me" The teacher scowled. You have lunch and time in-between class to gawk at the new girl but please, the class is for learning, not undressing students with your eyes.

I saw his face turn red and the class started laughing.

"Don't think of talking to me." Alex snapped.

My face fell more.

Once the bell rang I was quick to get out of there. Alex again pushed passed me in the halls "Fuck you, Alex!" I shouted. He spun around "What happened to 'I promise we will be best friends till one of us are dead' last time I checked were both pretty much alive!" He shook his head "You left me. Brooklyn. People change." I sighed as he walked away...

It's because you're fat... you need to lose weight!

I let some tears fall.

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I stepped on the scale once I got home and nearly broke down. 135 and that was it. No wonder no one went around me... I walked back to my room, tears falling down my red blotchy face, I walked over to the treadmill that I had bought and started running.

I saw a light turn on in a room over in Alex's house. Realizing that was his room. He looked over at me and I quickly hopped off and closed my curtains angerly.

Then I proceeded on with my sit-ups and Jumping jacks.


The next day was no better.
I was never touched or pushed, but I got dirty looks.
No one could see my fat, I wore baggy sweaters.
But maybe that enhanced the fatness.
One day soon I'll be thin.

I sat down with my tray of food at lunch, because I was feeling light-headed.Alex walked in and smirked at me before walking over.

My heart started to beat faster... Fuck... Fuck...

He let out a breath of a laugh before sitting down. "all alone I see" I shrugged ignoring him, taking another bite of the pizza.

"You're seriously eating that?" He said, quite disgusted to say the least. My face fell and I pushed the tray away... His face was the next to fall, he looked like he was about to say something but I gave him no time before I was up and headed for the bathroom.

Do it. Even he thinks you're fat!
STICK YOUR CHUBBY FINGERS DOWN THAT FAT THROAT OF YOURS AND GET RID OF IT!

It was disgusting but had to be done... I didn't want to be fat anymore. I couldn't be fat anymore. I let out a small sob but covered my mouth quickly... I couldn't let anyone hear me.

I popped a piece of gum in my mouth and walked out just as the bell rang. I headed to my last class.

Art.

Happily, I sat down and took out my sketchbook.

"Ah, Mr. Gaskarth you're late" The teacher scowled. Fuck. "Sorry, Miss."

And Again he sat down next to me.

"Now class. We're nearing the end of our term, Time to start our FSE's, Now. You will get partners for this project'' the class erupted into sounds of approval "But" The class groaned. "It's based on your seating arrangements" My heart stopped. "It will be simple, I'll give you guys an artist and you have to recreate one of their paintings."

My hand flew up "Yes, Brooklyn" "Could I do this on my own, possibly? Nothing against anyone I just work better on my own" SHe frowned "No sorry."

"fucking great" I mumbled, causing Alex to give me a look I didn't care to read into.

"Move fat ass" A girl who was walking with Alex, spat "Lisa." Alex spoke, with slight aggravation in his tone "Don't defend the pig, Lexi" She scoffed, I saw something in his eyes that looked almost apologetic "She's not worth our time." Alex mumbled "She's not worth anyone's time, No wonder she has no friends. Let's go" She pulled on his arm.

I walked out of the school feeling sick.

"Hi honey, How was your day?" I shrugged, "I don't feel too good" I mumbled, leaning against her "Oh sweetie, You're burning up," She said worriedly "I'll be fine, Just need a nap... Or some fresh air..." I mumbled "Go take a nap sweetheart" I nodded and stumbled into my room "And please, take your sweater off." I nodded though she couldn't see.

I stripped my sweater off leaving me in my fitting tank top, I hadn't realized my curtain was open till I again saw Alex. I groaned and angerly walked over and yanked my curtain closed before collapsing on my bed.

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