To the Moon and Back

Alex's POV
She looks at me and it feels like she can see right through me.
There is a moment of silence and just when I take in a breath to start to speak, she shoots. "Something happened at the party last night, right?"

I am taken by surprise and just nod staring at the table. I can't look into her eyes, I am so ashamed but I have to get it off my chest, I don't want to go on lying to her.

She says nothing more and I look up to see her sitting there looking at me with one arm hugging herself and the injured one resting by her side, she looks so fragile and the expression on her face is so sad, I want to shoot myself for hurting her.

"We were all at this club partying and I was drinking with Jenna from Tonight....."

"Jenna? As in Jenna McDougall?" She interrupts.

"Yeah, you know her?" I say surprised.

"Well, we met once, Australia is a pretty small world in some way." She waves it off with her hand. "She is really nice and beautiful." She adds sadly after a second and takes in a deep breath.

"No, no, Baby, that's not why it happened. I was totally drunk by the end of the night and I kissed her, but only because she reminded me of you. It was you I wanted to kiss. And when I realised I stopped immediately. I am so sorry and I do understand if you hate me but please Charlie don't leave me. I love you."

My tears start falling again and I wipe my face with my sleeve.

Then I look into the eyes of the woman I love and like a deer in the headlight I meet my fate.

"You are a stupid fucking asshole, Alex Gaskarth." She curses at me making me gasp with shock then I see a sad smile spread on her face and she breathes out heavily. "Gotcha ! Good ! You deserve it. I am not gonna lie and tell you it doesn't hurt. It hurts a fucking lot."

"I can understand this but please don't leave me, I am sorry." I plead.

She snorts and shakes her head. "Alex, don't be silly, I would never leave you because of this, my love is bigger than that and at the end of the day it was just a stupid kiss. Not that I am okay with you kissing other women but I will get over it."

I feel a weight falling off my shoulders and I dare to smile at her.

"Charlie you are by far the best wife a man can have, I am so proud to be your husband and I want you and need you with me forever and always." I know it is stupid but I caress her face on the screen and I realise again how far away she is and that I need to feel her close to me.

"Oh, that reminds me" she says pulling a piece of paper out of her back pocket. "I got this letter from the embassy today they want to see me in their office for an interview the day after tomorrow concerning my visa application but it doesn't state why."

My head snaps up "But that is a good sign, right? It seems they finally have processed the visa, maybe they just need some additional information." I get my hopes up.

"Do you really think I should go there?" She asks me as if it would be too much effort for her.

"What? WHAT? Is that honestly a question, are you kidding me? Of course you have to go there. Charlie, are you crazy or what?" I practically scream at her. I am totally confused, what is going on?

"Well, I don't know, you see all this going overseas and stuff is really a big hassle and I think the US are like totally overrated, I've been there, I've seen it, why go there again?" She doesn't look at me but gives her full attention to her fingernails.

"Why? But Baby?... You can't just..." I panic but then my brain starts working again. It's a pay-back.
"Wait, Charlie, I see what you are doing here and it is totally unfair but I guess it is my punishment so I am okay with that." I sigh and hold up my hands in defeat.

She looks up at me with a mischievous grin. "Yup, I guess it is."

Notes

See, wasn't so bad!