To the Moon and Back

Alex's POV

Our next stop on tour was San Francisco and we were looking forward to it, up to now the shows had been sold out and the vibe was awesome. We were now joined by Tonight Alive and decided to throw an after show party for them.

Because of the recent arguments we went through we hadn't partied in a while but now that we were all back on good terms with each other we wanted to have a good time.

Of course Jack was really excited about it, despite what you might think about him he hates when we guys fight and it makes him really uncomfortable when people are holding grudges against each other.

He has this ideal of us being a big happy family and I like to tease him because of it when in fact I think it is sweet. I agreed to party because I wanted to show the guys that I am part of our band and I hoped it would get my mind off Charlie and me missing her for a while.

So the concert went really well, nobody fucked up and the crowd was amazing, we all had a shower afterwards and went out to this club downtown.

I was in a really good mood and took a few shots with Jake from Tonight Alive when Jenna came over to us and we continued drinking together.

There were some girls around trying to get my attention but I basically ignored their flirting to not encourage them in any way.

At some point Jake disappeared with one of them but Jenna and I really had a good time and started dancing.

By the end of the night I was wasted and Rian announced he had called cabs to get us back to the buses.

We walked outside and waited for the cars to arrive and Jack and I got into the back of the taxi with Jenna in between us.

Jack seemed to fall asleep instantly and I rested my head on her shoulder. She was talking to me but I didn't really get what she was saying, I only listened to her accent that reminded me of Charlie and her blonde hair that had the same colour as hers and I stared at her lips and before I knew it I kissed her and she kissed back. We kissed for awhile when she opened her mouth to let my tongue slip in.

Without thinking I grabbed her waist under her shirt and started to caress her skin, it felt different, that's when it hit my drunken mind, stop this! This is not Charlie!

I broke the kiss and sat up straight gasping for air. "I am sorry" I mumbled and hid my face in my hands.

She chuckled. "Don't be, Alex, I think you are really attractive."

"No, no, you don't understand." Apart from our band nobody knew about Charlie and me, we hadn't made it public yet. I groaned and hit the seat in frustration. "Fuck, I am such an idiot."

"Okaaayy, if that's what you think." Jenna said slightly irritated leaning back into the seat crossing her arms and the rest of the ride passed in an awkward silence.

When we arrived I practically jumped out of the car mumbled a goodbye and went inside our bus immediately, not even bothering to wake up Jack.

I went straight to my bunk and hid my face in the pillow, I was too drunk to be able to clearly think but I felt awful. What the fuck did I do?

I heard Rian and Matt carry a drunken Jack onto the bus but then I must have fallen asleep because the next thing I know is waking up the next morning with a throbbing pain in my head.

I roll out of the bunk and walk to the fridge to get some water because I feel totally dehydrated when I see that Rian is already up and sitting on the couch with his phone out texting someone.

He looks at me with a grin when I open the fridge door but then he frowns. "Uhm, Alex what happened last night, you have lipstick all over your face."

"Shit" I try to wipe my face with the sleeve of my hoodie, then the memory of last night comes back and I collapse onto the couch next to Rian. "Damn, Rian, I made out with Jenna last night, I mean I was totally drunk and when I realised I stopped immediately but I feel like a piece of shit. How could I do this? I mean I am married! Fuck."

He pats my back and sighs. "Are you gonna tell Sharky?"

"I think so, but not now when she is so far away and alone. I want to tell her when I can hold her so she can't run away and leave me. Oh god, Rian! I am afraid she will hate me." I run my hands through my hair in despair.

"Hey, Alex, calm down! you know Sharky is a not like other girls and she loves you, I think she will understand and forgive you." He nudges me. "Maybe you should wash your face, get dressed and call her and try to make her happy." I give him a hug and am so glad that we are friends again because I needed someone to talk to.

Then I get up and go to the bathroom to get ready.
An hour later I sit down in the back lounge, showered and clean with a cup of coffee, take a deep breath and call Charlie on my laptop.

She answers the call and when I see her beautiful face I nearly loose it and have to look away to hide my feelings. I pretend to adjust the cables on my laptop and try to pull myself together then I face the screen again. "Hey Babe" I say and can't look away from those eyes. I swallow hard.

"Hey, lovely, you look tired today, have you guys been partying last night?" She winks at me.
Oh god, I knew it, I bet she can see it in my face.

"Yeah Babe, I got totally plastered last night. But you look beautiful as always and I love you, I hope you know that."

"I think I do Alex and I hope you know I love you too." She answers slowly with a little frown tilting her head to the side.

I notice she sits at an awkward angle to the screen and just turns her head towards me.

"Charlie what's wrong with you? Why are you sitting so weird?"

She let's out a sigh and turns her torso towards the screen and I see her right arm is completely bandaged.

I jump up and shout. "Charlie what happened, what's with your arm? Oh my god, did you have an accident? That's it. I quit the tour, I'm coming to see you." I am about to pack my things but I don't want to leave the screen, so I just stand there and hesitate for a moment, when she calls me back.

"Alex, don't be ridiculous, I didn't want to show you because I knew you would flip out. It is not as bad as it looks, the arm isn't even broken just bruised and scraped. No need to worry. Please sit down again." She pats the space beside her and I sit down on my side of the camera again. I am close to tears. My wife is badly injured and I go partying and kiss another woman, what kind of husband am I.

"Please Charlie, tell me what happened."

She sighs. "Okay there is this guy that lives next door, he is doing Parkour. That is when you jump over things and climb roofs and shit. It is really cool and he said I could come with. All went well but there was this mossy patch on one of the roofs and I slipped and fell."

"You fell off a roof? Oh my god!" I interrupt nearly yelling.

"It was only a one storey building and I did not really fall but slide down, that's where my arm got scraped. But there is nothing to worry about. It will be fine in a couple of weeks. Please don't be mad at me." She is close to tears, oh no, now I made her cry. Fuck!

"Baby, I am not mad at you, I am worried and the fact that I can't be there to protect you makes me sick. Please promise me to not do this again. I am terrified of losing you." I can't hold back my tears anymore and completely break down in front of her.

"Alex? Why are you so upset? It's not just because of my arm, is it?" She looks at me closely and I nod.

"Charlie, I have to tell you something."

Notes

Confession time....