Alex


Okay, so I thought that Jack was in a weird mood this morning, but now it’s just confirmed.
I think that I definitely did something to piss him off because he’s never acted like this before.

We were snuggled up on the couch watching TV, and Jack was just on his phone texting Rian the entire time. It was getting pretty annoying after a while, because I wanted him to pay at least a little bit of attention to me, I’m surprised his phone hasn’t run out of battery he’s been on it for so long.

I’ve tried all my lame attempts of getting his attention like scooching closer to him, taking off my shirt saying that ‘I’m too hot’, even trying to take away his phone but he held it out of my reach.

Maybe I am just being dumb, and he’s just in an important conversation with Rian but I thought he wanted me to come over so we could do something! At least talk to each other!

It’s been 2 hours of me being bored, and him not caring. Oh well, I guess I haven’t tried this.

I sat up and climbed into his lap, wrapping both of my legs around him, and my arms around his neck. When he still was staring down at his phone, I started to get really really annoyed.
I took his phone and tossed it onto a nearby chair.

Jack finally looked up at me with an annoyed expression, and I pressed my lips to his.
I was in a good mood, and I wanted to make out with my sexy boyfriend, but Jack wasn’t having it.

I attempted to push his mouth open so we could really make out, but Jack kept his mouth closed and rejected my tongue, only giving me little kisses.

I automatically felt guilty. I must have done something wrong.
Jack is obviously really pissed at me because he won’t even make out with me.
Even when he gets a little angry with me, if I kiss him he always kisses back!

He’s never rejected me like this before.

Maybe he thinks I’m ugly. I knew this would happen, he would get to know the real me, and think I’m horribly disgusting inside and out.
What if he wants to break up with me? He can’t break up with me, I need him. I can’t imagine life without him, he’s everything I need. This can’t be happening.

I pulled away from the unsatisfying kiss, and Jack still avoided eye contact with me.
This is it, he’s going to dump me.

“Jack, why won’t you kiss me?” I whined softly, and he finally looked up at me when he heard my upset tone.

“W-What do you mean? I’m kissing you.” he protested, raising his hand to cup my face.

“Did I do something, or say something that got you upset, whatever it is, I’m really really sorry-”

“No! Alex, you did absolutely nothing wrong. You never do anything wrong. I’m sorry, I’m just in a weird mood lately.” he answered, which made me a little more relieved.

I hate when Jack is upset, it just gets me upset. But he obviously doesn't want to talk about it.
I’m sure he will want to soon, and I will be there for him when he’s ready.

“Okay,” I nodded, and he reached forward to kiss my lips softly.

“I love you so much baby, I’m sorry I haven’t been treating you the best lately. I have a lot on my mind.” he told me honestly, which was all I wanted to hear.

Jack usually treats me like a total prince, 24/7, all hours of the day, so it’s unusual to have him focused on other things that aren’t me, but this is what regular relationships probably are.
He can’t give his undivided attention to me constantly, and that’s part of being a couple.

“It’s understandable, I’m here for you if you want to talk about it. I love you.” I nodded, kissing his cheek before climbing off his lap, and getting up and walking to the kitchen to find something to eat.

“You’re perfect. Thank’s Lex.” he breathed, seeming a lot mroe sincere and serious that he usually is.

Wow, he really is in a weird mood.


I was also in a mood, but an entirely different mood than he was.

This honestly had to the be first time ever that I was horny, and Jack wasn’t. We haven’t had sex since before the party, which was an entire WEEK AGO. We’ve been having sex at least 3 times a week for a long time now, so I’m going a little insane.

I don’t understand how he isn’t just as horny as I was though.

The both of us haven’t had sex since before Rian’s birthday party.
But Jack doesn’t want to do anything, so it’s not like I can just go off and sleep with someone else to be satisfied.

That’d be disastrous.

“Lex, what are you hungry for?” Jack asked me what I wanted for dinner, as he scavenged for food in the kitchen while I laid on the couch.

“You,” I mumbled, so only I could hear.

“What?” Jack asked.

I groaned loudly in response, rolling onto my stomach, trying to find a comfortable position so be in.

“Babe, what’s wrong?” Jack chuckled as I rolled around awkwardly.

“I’m horny!!!” I exclaimed, watching as his eyebrows raised. Usually my outburst would have excited him, but he practically looks disappointed right now.

“Oh-”

“I’m sorry, I know you’re not in the mood. I’ll get over it.

“No Lex, it’s fine.” Jack told me, sounding like he was trying to convince himself. He sat down on the couch next to me, running his fingers through my tousled hair.

“Jack, I don’t want to force you to do stuff when you don’t want to.” I told him, but he grabbed me suddenly and lifted me into his lap, making me giggle.

“Who said I didn’t want to?” Jack whispered seductively in my ear, sucking on my earlobe before pinning me down into the couch.
I grinned as he started attacking my neck with kisses, my eyes fluttered as he nipped a sensitive spot.
Wait, where did all this come from?

“But you said-”

“Lex, you’re my boyfriend. I want to make you feel good, so relax.” he interrupted my worried outburst.

I blushed, and nodded, making him smile and connect our lips once again.
I tried to hold back a smile as he pushed my mouth open and we made out like I’ve been wanting to all day.
I missed this Jack, hopefully this puts him in a much better mood than before.

I watched him pull off his shirt and toss it on the floor, I ran my hands down his bare back in awe.

He placed wet kisses down my jawline and neck, sucking a spot behind my ear making a moan pass my lips, Jack’s breath hitched at the sound of me.
I felt his hand gliding down my chest and now over the bulge in my jeans. I gasped as he started to palm me through my pants, trying not to choke on my breath from the overwhelming feelings I was going through right now.
Our lips moved together perfectly, the simple act of kissing him still got me just as excited as when we first became a couple.

Jack started to grind his hips down onto mine, the both of us released a loud moan in pleasure. I watched in awe as he unbuttoned his jeans and slipped them off his body, right after doing the same with mine.


Jack


“Whoa,” Alex panted.

I grinned at the sight of Alex out of breath, naked on my bed, wiping sweat from his forehead with the back of his hand.

I couldn’t get rid of the pit of guilt in my stomach, from knowing that my boyfriend was not the last person I slept with. I thought that I would get used to this feeling, and get better at hiding it by now but it hasn’t gone away, if anything it’s getting worse with time.

The longer I go without telling him, the angrier he would be if he ever found out the truth.
But if he never found out, I could spare his feelings completely.

This needed to work, or else my whole relationship, and basically my whole life, is screwed.

I glanced at Alex who was already falling asleep, cuddled up next to me, laying on my chest. I pulled the blanket up to cover his body so he wouldn’t get cold, kissing his hair that was damp with sweat.

I can’t hurt this boy.

“Goodnight honey,” I mumbled, he hummed in a lazy response.

I can’t believe I just did that. I fucked my boyfriend out of sheer guilt, like I was apologizing to him without him knowing anything about it.

I wasn’t in the mood for sex at all, but he was. But, I couldn’t just deny my boyfriend sex when he wanted it. It’s not like I didn’t like having sex with him, I just felt horrible the entire time.
Thankfully, he didn’t seem to notice.

“You’re the best, Jack…” Alex murmured as he fell asleep, shortly followed by the adorable sound of his snoring.

More guilt and regret hit me like a tidal wave.

“No, I’m not.”

Notes

so i was gonna make this a whole smutty chapter
but i started to get very guilty
because ALEX STILL DOESN'T KNOW

so i just left that part out

BUT ALEX IS GETTING SUSPICIOUS BECAUSE JACK IS A HORRIBLE LAIR
AHHHH
THE SUSPENSE IS KILLING ME AND I KNOW WHAT HAPPENS

i want you guys to know what happens but then those would be SPOILERS
i need to write faster
i need the drama
im so weird, because i consider this chapter not dramatic even though it is
just because all of my chapters are usually crazy dramatic

OKAY
I HAVE TO GO CLEANNNNN
I'VE BEEN WRITING A LOT LATLY SO THERE WILL BE ANOTHER CHAPTER UP LATER
AND I CAN'T POST CHAPTERS THIS WEEKEND

since i wasn't here for like 2 weeks, and im not going to be here on the weekend there will probably be some rapidfire posting
im just excited about this story lmao

and if you havent yet please check out my new story :D


jack is sad, and he should he sad



Title Credit- Tidal Waves