Jack


Okay, the friend thing sounded okay when Alex first offered it, but now I changed my mind.

It’s fucking torture.

I don’t know what was worse, watching Alex and Kellin make out from afar while Alex refused to speak to me, or getting to talk to him but seeing them locked lips right in front of my face.

You never really think about how weird two people kissing look when you’re the one being kissed. I’m not really used to being on the other end, watching instead of doing it myself.

Especially when that other person is the love of your life, who was making out with the world’s biggest douchebag.
Kissing Alex was fucking heaven, but seeing him with someone else felt like hell.

I was sick of just watching things happen. Things that I had no control over, I was just minding my own fucking business and out of nowhere, I look up and see Kellin with a hand behind Alex’s head, trying to shove his tongue down his throat.
It was devastating to see, and there’s no way I could escape it.

I don’t want to change schools or any of that shit.

I just want the two of them to break up, and I was going to do everything in my power to make that happen. I know I told Alex I’d leave him and his disgusting relationship alone, but I can’t just go throughout my day ignoring the fact that someone is using the love of my life, while he is convinced it’s completely real.

If he seriously thought I would just happily be friends with him without trying to break him and Kellin up, then he doesn’t know me at all.

I was probably going to need a little help from the other ex boyfriend.

Mr. Victor fucking Fuentes.

I watched him walk down the hallway staring at his phone, and I couldn’t stop myself from grabbing his shirt and throwing him up against the locker beds.

I had to admit, I was pretty pissed off at him, who was literally not doing anything while his ex boyfriend tricks my ex boyfriend, all because he wants Vic begging on his knees for another chance.

Alex shouldn't have to suffer from this.
It’s none of his business.

“Whoa,” Vic lifted his arms up in surrender and gave me a weird look. He was always cool headed, especially when I ever tried to pick a fight with him.

I appreciated his composure and almost envied it, because I know I always get too angry too quickly, not that I would ever admit it though.

“Can you control your fucking boyfriend?” I questioned him harshly.

“Can you control your fucking attitude?” he sassed, gesturing up and down at my aggressive body language.

“Do you have any idea what Kellin is doing to my Alex, or are you just choosing to ignore it?” I asked, crossing my arms over my chest to keep me from grabbing him by the collar.

Vic doesn’t deserve me getting violent with him. He really did nothing wrong, I was just pissed off at everything lately.

“I saw Kellin kiss his cheek once, I didn’t think they’d actually turn into something…” Vic mumbled, looking away for a second before looking back up at me.

“Why the fuck didn’t you tell me when that happened? Whatever, just talk to Kellin, okay? Get that shit head the fuck away from Alex as fast as you possibly can, he is sensitive and Kellin’s going to ruin him.” I demanded, Vic narrowed his eyes at me angrily.

Oh, obviously he doesn’t like me telling him what to do, or talking about Kellin like that. Even if it’s true

“Hey! I don’t like this just as much as you do! I don’t want my boyfriend dating that doe eyed little thing, Alex is a fucking-”

“You better watch what you say next, Victor” I cut him off, lifting my arms up to grab him tightly by the collar, feeling incredibly more angry then I was before now that he dared to say something bad about Alex.

“Jack, calm the fuck down, okay?! I’m not going to say a word to Kellin unless you relax!” Vic scolded, shoving my hands away from him and they flopped down by my sides.

“I can’t fucking calm down knowing that Alex is dating someone else, I’ll relax when he breaks up with that asshole. If you don’t want me to put Kellin in a fucking coma, then get him to stay the hell away from Alex.” I threatened.

He narrowed his eyes at me, getting more annoyed that I kept talking about hurting Kellin.
Well he fucking deserves it.

“Excuse me, but what the fuck do you actually expect me to do? Kellin’s not just going to quit now, and don’t talk about him like that. He really is a good person, I know you don’t see him like that right now, but I hurt him and he doesn’t know how to deal with it so he wants revenge. Alex is jut as much to blame here, he-”

“That douchebag is fucking tricking him!!” I argued.

He barely knows any better, seeing as though I was his only boyfriend and I love him to pieces. Alex thinks that whenever someone pursues him, they are being honest and don’t have an alternative motive to get in bed with him.

He could be so innocent and naive, most of the times I thought it was adorable and charming but at times like this I wish he would put some more walls up like me.

“Yeah, but Alex is letting him! Kellin never forced anything, Alex wanted to be his boyfriend. I think you’re just so angry because you thought that Alex would only like you, and you’re feeling rejected that he chose Kellin instead of going back to you. Jack, I know how heart broken you must be but you can’t keep going around being all hostile. It’s not going to solve anything, and talking about Kellin like that won’t solve anything either! What if I decided to talk about Alex like that? You wouldn’t appreciate if I talk about sending Alex to the hospital-”

I cut off his boring rant as anger filled through me, I grabbed at his shirt and slammed his back painfully hard into his locker, listening to the sound of his skull collide with the metal.

I’m so fucking done with people talking shit about Alex.
I thought Vic was different.

“Ow!!! Jack fucking stop!!” Vic cried out, lifting his arms up again in surrender and staring at me with annoyed eyes.

Maybe violence didn’t solve all problems, but they sure solve a lot of them.

“Kellin is the one taking advantage of Alex! He’s not even in his right mind right now, I’m not just saying that because he won’t agree to get back together with me, he actually isn’t. Kellin’s using that and it’s not fucking okay, and why the fuck are you on his side?!? You can’t tell me to stop talking shit about your boyfriend when he’s manipulating mine. If you ever even fucking THINK of harming a fucking hair on Alex’s head, you’re going straight to where Kellin’s going.” I growled threateningly, ignoring what he said about how he didn’t appreciate me talking about Kellin that way.

I don’t give a flying fuck if I hurt his feelings, or Kellin’s feelings, or literally anyone besides Alex’s
Yet that’s the one person I hurt more than anyone I’ve ever met.

Why am I such a fuck up?

“Okay, okay. Jesus fucking christ, you’re so fucking annoying when it comes to that kid.” he muttered, shrugging me off and I let my hands go back to my sides again.

Before I could apologize for being a little too violent then necessary, he spoke.

“I thought you got over your anger issues, man.” Vic told me sympathetically.

They’ve obviously gotten a lot worse since Alex and I have been separated. He always brought out the very best of me, and make me a good person.
Now that I’m without him I’m a fucking trainwreck.

I’m trying to stick to being the kind, gentle guy that Alex loves so he knows that I’ll always be here for him to come back to, but it’s fucking hard. I’ve been slipping into my old ways, and now I’m practically teetering on the edge of becoming the exact same asshole I was before I met him.

I don’t want to be a jerk to everyone again, I started to kinda like being nice to people other than my boyfriend… or should I say ex boyfriend.

I don’t think I will ever get used to calling Alex an ex.

“So did I…” I sighed.



After quite a bit of convincing, I got Vic to agree to talk to Kellin about all this.
They have barely spoken since they broke up, and I get what that’s like, but neither of them are forward enough to just start a conversation with the other.

I can’t imagine what was going on in Vic’s head right now. How can he be so calm about everything? It’s like he doesn’t care at all!

I could see it in his eyes that he misses Kellin like crazy, but he hasn’t done anything to try to get him back.

Kellin was probably waiting for Vic to make some big romantic gesture, begging on his knees and going on that he was meant to be with him and not Alex. But Vic probably just feels rejected that Kellin moved on to another boy so quickly, and is too upset about everything to even try.

This is all such a fucking mess.

Not as big as a mess as me and Alex’s relationship, but still really fucked up.

“You know that he’s just doing all this to make you jealous, right?” I asked Vic in a low tone, trying to be cautious in case he hasn’t realized the obvious yet.

“I know,” Vic sighed, sounding defeated.

I bit back a harsh retort, and looked away taking a deep breath.

Then why the fuck isn’t he doing anything about it?!
I’ve been working my ass off trying to keep Alex from losing all interest in me completely, while Vic could do fucking anything and Kellin would be running back to him.

It’s not fucking fair. Alex and I could be trying to heal our relationship, but we can’t know that Kellin is in the fucking way. Why does this all have to be so fucking stressful?
How did I let this get so complicated?

“Well, why haven’t you talking to him about it yet?” I asked him.

“He’s always with Alex, and tells me to fuck off whenever I get near him. I’ve tried calling and he never responds.” he explained.

He should just do what I do, don’t take no for an answer.
I forced every conversation me and Alex have had since our breakup but it’s been so worth it because he tells me how he’s feeling in the end.

“I really hurt him by doing what I did, he just wants to get back at me.” Vic mumbled sadly.

“That’s not right.” I sighed, glad that Alex wasn’t like that.

“Yeah, and you think Alex isn’t dating Kellin for revenge on you? We’re in the same boat here, Jack. We’re both fucking stuck.” Vic told me, kicking a little rock that was near his shoe into the grass.

Did I mention we’re outside, behind the school smoking?

I knew that Vic was wrong though.
Alex didn’t start dating Kellin for revenge, I don’t think that sweet boy has a vengeful bone in his body.

He just wanted to feel wanted, and Kellin used his feelings of rejection and abandonment to his advantage, by showering him with affection behind my back when I couldn’t give it to him.

Alex only desired to feel like he mattered to someone, but Kellin desired the depressed look on Vic face which was horrible, but he was clearly getting exactly what he wanted.

“We are not in the same boat. The both of us are in messed up relationships, but mine is not the same as yours. Kellin wants to hurt you-”

“He just wants me to beg for him back,” Vic corrected, as I tried to correct him.

“Alex was devastated and alone, he needed someone to help him and Kellin swooped in, now he’s convinced he’s fucking superman when Kellin’s thinking about you while they’re kissing. I haven’t stopped fighting to get Alex back and you’ve just been moping around, when all you need to do is apologize or some shit. My situation is a whole lot worse than yours, I cheated twice and lied to him, and your accidentally broke up with him. No Vic, we aren’t in the same boat.”

I sighed, taking another long drag of my cigarette and stared up at the gloomy January sky.

“He isn’t interested in me anymore, he’s moved on.” Vic mumbled sadly.

“I doubt that, come on, I’ll prove it to you. Just talk to him.” I urged, pushing myself off the wall and looked down at him.

He leaned against the wall, looking completely hopeless. His shoulder length brown hair that usually framed his face covered his eyes as he looked down at the ground. Vic’s lean shoulders were slumped, and reached his hand up to take another drag of his death stick.

“Fine, only if you come too.” he insisted.

“What, why?” I asked.

“If he sees me, he’ll get pissed and leave. If you come then he’ll know something’s up.” he explained and I just shrugged my shoulders.

No matter how badly I didn’t want to talk to that fucker, I guess I had no choice.



Seeing as though they were both probably going to have a full blown argument in which I would be supervising, I thought it would be best if Kellin came outside to join us.

I texted Zack asking him if he could do me a favor, and a few minutes later, Kellin was shoved out the back door of the school with the door locked behind him. The small, dark haired boy’s eyes widened when he saw the both of us and turned around to attempt to get back inside, but he couldn’t.

I smiled, pulling my phone back out, texting Zack a quick ‘thank you,’ before looking up again.

“What the fuck to you two want?” Kellin grumbled, looking at the both of us in disgust.

“I just want to talk to you, Kells.” Vic pleaded, anxiously tugging on the edges of his sleeves like it was a nervous habit of his.

Kellin had to appreciate that Vic was finally trying to make things better, even if he’s a douchebag.

“Well, I have no interest in doing that. What the hell is Jack doing here anyway? You gonna beat the living shit out of me again? Am I going to have to pretend to be sick again to keep our precious little Alex from getting upset?” Kellin sneered, purposely trying to push my buttons and it worked.

I don’t know if it was his attitude, or the way he describes Alex, or even the way he called Alex ‘ours,’ or a mixture of all three, but I got a very strong urge to wrap my hands around his skinny neck and strangle him.

“You fucking prick, don’t you fucking talk about him like that, you piece of shit. I could-” Vic stopped me from lunging at him by grabbing my arm and giving me an annoyed look.

This isn’t what we brought him here to do, and if I laid a finger on Kellin then I know Vic would fight me off in a second.

“Jack’s a part of this conversation too.” Vic defended, Kellin rolled his eyes and scoffed as he looked at me.

What the hell does Alex see in this guy? I couldn’t think of a worse pair then him and Kellin Quinn.

“Fucking perfect.” Kellin mumbled, quieter than before.

I quickly realized as I looked at their faces more closely, that they both looked like they were on the verge of tears. Kellin’s annoyingly big eyes were shining in the daylight, and Vic was looking down at the ground shamefully.

Obviously it was hard for them to face each other, they couldn’t even look each other in the eyes.
Kellin looked so hurt yet guilty at the same time, that I almost felt sympathy for him for a split second. Which seemed impossible, but he looked so broken hearted next to Vic.

Wait… What am I saying? I don’t give a fuck if Kellin is in any fucking pain.
I’d prefer him to be in pain.

He’s the world’s biggest prick who’s using Alex like a fucking object.

“I’m over this,” Kellin spoke, shaking his head and started to walk in the other direction.

“We haven’t even started talking!” Vic stopped him, taking a few steps after his pissy ex boyfriend.

“I have nothing to say to you!” Kellin lifted his hands up in the air in frustration, turning around to face Vic.

“Yeah, but it seems like you have plenty to say, and do with you’re new boyfriend! How could you do that to me, Kells? You didn’t even talk to me about it first! Do you have any idea what it felt like showing up to school, preparing myself to pour my heart out in an apology, but you’re just making out with some guy?” Vic exclaimed.

I smiled lightly, enjoying that Vic was about to get all this stuff of his chest, and tell Kellin that he’s being terrible to everyone.

“An apology? I seriously doubt that.” Kellin crossed his arms over his chest, looking annoyed but his eyes wouldn’t stop shining with the light glaze of forming tears.

“Stop being a brat and just listen to me!” Vic begged, and also seemed to get annoyed with the other.

“I’m not being a brat, Vic! I’m fucking hurting! You broke up with me on our three year anniversary!” Kellin defended, voice squeaking in the middle of his sentence.

“I told you that was a mistake, I never intended to hurt you like I did.” Vic said in a softer, gentler tone but that just seemed to add to Kellin’s anger.

“I was just angry that our reservation fell through, I didn’t expect you to dump me like trash, and walk away from everything we’ve been through over something so stupid! I thought we were going to have a special and romantic night, just drinking fancy wine for once and saying sappy things about how much we love each other. Yet I end up bawling my eyes out on the fucking sidewalk, while you drive your shitty truck away without coming back for me!” Kellin exclaimed angrily, he looked like he was trembling as he thought back to the night.

Whoa, I didn’t know it happened like that? I gotta admit, that’s pretty fucked up.
I’d never break up with Alex, but on that impossible chance that I ever would, I would never drive away from him while he was sobbing, all alone.

“I regretted it right after! I was just frustrated and stupid, I didn’t want you to be disappointed in me, and I guess I was still a little annoyed with you from the fight we had a few days before that. I was completely overwhelmed, and caught up in the annoyingly difficult situation. I did it Kells, but I really wish that I didn’t do it. That has to mean something, right?” Vic urged, taking a step closer, looking like he was forcing himself to not reach an arm out to hug Kellin, who looked like he was about to break down.

Kellin scoffed at his words, shaking his head in disbelief. He tries to act like he doesn’t care, but it’s obvious he was feeling everything right now.

“I left you alone for a little bit, because I know you, and how angry you were at me. You always need a little bit to calm down after we fight, I was going to apologize a few days later.” Vic told him honestly.

“Sure you were,” Kellin said sarcastically.

“Yeah, I was! I didn’t expect you to find another boyfriend in the process!” Vic argued.

“My boyfriend, by the way.” I couldn’t help myself but to cut in, reminding them that I was still here.

Kellin groaned loudly and looked over at me, giving me an ‘are you kidding me,’ look.

“Jack, do you seriously think that you’ll ever get Alex back? Everyone knows how big your ego is, but I didn’t think you were that much of an idiot too.” Kellin shot back, glaring at me.

I didn’t let his words sink in because I knew they’d just get me pissed, and convinced myself Kellin was just saying these things because he’s so insecure about his own relationship.

“You have barely even met Alex, you don’t know the first thing about him.” I growled, forcing myself to stay leaning against the wall.

“I know that he’s hot, and really naive.” Kellin shrugged evilly, admitting to everything I suspected.

I quickly leaned forward to grab Kellin but Vic pushed me back, but stared at Kellin with his jaw wide open.
I knew it from the fucking start.

“What the hell, Kell?!” Vic shouted.

“You should’ve thought about this before throwing me away like garbage, on our anniversary!!” Kellin argued back.

“Kelly, I told you that I’m sor-”

“Sorry doesn’t mean shit to me anymore,” Kellin interrupted, looking up at Vic for a second and looked down again.
He knows that he’s doing a fucked up thing, but he doesn’t seem like he’s going to stop.

“I seriously don’t give a fuck if you want to date some hot guy to piss Vic off, fuck whoever you way, just find another dude that isn’t Alex. Leave him the hell out of your stupid issues, he had nothing to do with it, but you had to drag him in.” I fought, glaring at Kellin with threatening eyes and I could see a hint of fear in them.

“Nobody else would be dumb enough to fall for it, it was honestly just great timing that you screwed him up so badly that he’d be trusting in me that I actually like him. He’d be really fucking easy to hook up with, and not to mention I always wondered what he looked like under those tight clothes. ” Kellin admitted truthfully, making my stomach drop at the words.

“Kellin!” Vic pleaded, begging for him to stop.

I couldn’t stand hearing about what Kellin was planning. Just using him to hurt Vic.
Everything I predicted was true, but it was still terrible hearing about it because this asshole was with Alex.

Alex has no fucking idea what Kellin’s true intentions are, the fact that he just thinks that Kellin likes him makes me feel even more sick.

“Kellin, I swear to fucking god, you stay the hell away from him. If you don’t break up with him I’ll make your life a living hell.” I threatened.

“Aww, just like you did to Alex? How would precious little Alex react if I just dumped his ass? He’d probably be traumatized from ever being in a relationship again.” Kellin pointed out slyly.

“Fucking stop it, man!” I shouted.

“Honestly though, that kid a serious trainwreck. I have no idea how you put up with him for so long, he never stops crying. He’s always going on and on about how shitty his life is, then the tears always come next, and I honestly just want to tell him to ‘shut the fuck up-”

I couldn’t fucking take another word of it. I drove my fist into his jaw and watched as he stumbled backwards, Vic nervously tried to comfort him but Kellin flinched away.

This is barely about Vic and Kellin anymore.

I’d do anything to be the person that Alex cries to again. Kellin’s treating it like a fucking chore, but no matter how agonizing it is seeing Alex upset, I know I was always able to cheer him up.
I was always able to wipe his tears, pull him into my lap and hug him, telling him that ‘I love him’ so many times that it didn’t even sound like words anymore.

I was always able to somehow crack some stupid joke that would make that angelic smile appear on his tear stained face.

I’d do anything to just make him smile like that one more time.

“If you can’t fucking handle him then leave him alone!” I yelled, Kellin standing back up and walking closer to me.

“No, he’s fucking hot.” Kellin argued like I was stupid for even suggesting it.

“Stop calling him that, Kellin!” Vic spoke before I could argue with him more.

“Why don’t you just date Jack, if you two are just such good friends now?” Kellin turned and looked at Vic, his jealousy and insecurities shining through his words obviously.

“Just shut up for once, Kellin.” I told him, he glared at me.

“Whatever, I have to go find Alex anyway. I’m taking him back to my house to watch a movie, my parents aren’t home.” Kellin smirked at Vic, then looked over at me.

My blood ran cold at the thought of them alone, in an empty house, together.
In Kellin’s room, on his bed, kissing, touching each other, taking off each other’s clothes.

“Your house?” Vic repeated like the word hurt him.

I reached my hand forward and grabbed Kellin by the collar, pulling him harshly towards me, making him inhale a terrified gasp of air. Why does is this fucker so scared of me, yet he keeps doing and saying things that couldn’t piss me off more?

“Don’t fucking touch him. I swear to god, he isn’t like that. If you make him do anything, I will literally-”

“What? Beat me up, again? You think you’re cute, precious little Alex will ever speak to you again if you pull something like that? I won’t cover your ass and stay home like I did last time-”

“Don’t do anything to him!!!” I growled, tightening my first in his shirt making him start to choke.

“Stop it, you’re hurting him!” Vic gasped, tugging on my arm to let him go.

“Did you just hear what he fucking said? He’s going to fucking force Alex to do something he doesn’t want to do, he’s gonna-”

“Jack, Kellin isn’t a monster! He’s a shitty person but he’s not going to assault Alex. Don't e a fucking idiot! Let him go!” Vic defended, I looked back at Kellin who was trying to pull my hand loose.

I released my hand, watching Kellin inhale a deep breath and exhale quickly. Vic placed a worried hand on his face, just trying to make sure that he was okay, but Kellin pushed his arm away and started walking toward the parking lot.

“The both of you did this to yourselves. You cheated on Alex, and you broke up with me!” he shouted as he left us both, wide eyed and in total shock.

Notes

oh boYYYYY
thats LONG ENOUGH TO BE THREE CHAPTERS LONG BUT I MADE IT ALL INTO ONE YAY

i hope you guys don't get bored in the middle of it and stop reading or something because WOOOOOWWWW

why can't jack just HAVE SOME HAPPY FOR ONCE??!?
why can't jalex just HAPPEN ALREADY ?!?1

but you guys learned much more about vic and kellin in this chapter
and hurt kellin is that vic broke up with him
and THEY ALMOST STARTED CRYING
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soo much drama JESUS FUCKING CHRIST IM DONEEE
no im not
i have so much more to write lmao

good news, i started planning out my chapters better
organization is in progress and i'm thrilled

oKAY ALSO THE SONG ACTORS HAS BEEN STUCK IN MY HEAD ALL DAY I LOVE IT SO MUCH
i forgot how amazing it was fuckkk how did they never really release it
its so good

oh well
that was quite the chapter
i can't believe i wrote that much in like 2 hours
i feel like that would take me days to write all that, but I'M IN THE ZONEEE

I WANNA START WORKING ON MY OTHER STORY
BUT I HAVE WRITERS BLOCK ON IT
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i know what i want to write next and i have tons of organized plans
just whatever i write doesn't sound good and it sucks because i really really love that story and i wanna update it more
i just gotta get into it more because once i get to the middle it will be much easier to write

this story is my original baby and i very very rarely ever get writers block for it
it's so great
it's just my main story
she's my number 1

okay i should stop now lmao
but THANK YOU GUYS FOR READING THIS LONG ASS CHAPTER
I REALLY REALLY HOPE YOU'RE LIKING THIS STORY AND I PROMISE JALEX IS NOT HOPELESS EVEN THOUGH IT SEEMS LIKE IT IS DON'T WORRY

EEEEE i love you guys you're all so sweet in the comments and they mean soooooo much to me, and make me so happy cuz i get to know that your reading and liking my stuff and it's all around just great <3 <3 <3

just like this gif of alex
all around great

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