Alex


I forgot how fun it was to be in a new relationship.
Getting to know and learn new things about a person that you want to spend your future with is exciting, especially when you aren’t nervous as hell because it’s your first relationship.

Okay, so maybe I shouldn’t have rushed right into another relationship right after I got my heart broken. Sure, I may not have completely thought it through like I usually do.

I’m just enjoying the feeling of not being on the constant verge of tears. I should be able to do whatever I want, and who knows, maybe this impulsive decision of jumping into a new relationship with Kellin is going to be the best thing that ever happened to me.

I don’t feel the constant need to impress him because he’s seen me at my very worst, when I first found out about Jack lying, and countless times after that he has comforted me when I had nobody around.

Kellin really accepts me for me, and I don’t know what I would do without his hugs right now.

The only thing I was feeling bad about is that none of my friends know about us yet, and if they know they are gonna tell Jack, and I really don’t want to hear him scolding me about finding someone else.
If he can do what he did to me, then I can date someone! I’m not even cheating, or lying or anything like he did, I’m no where near hurting him the way he hurt me.
Even though that’s not the goal either. I don’t want revenge on him, because I’m still in love with Jack, and I always will be no matter how badly I don’t want to be.

I just want to be happy again.

I texted Brendon and told him to meet me by my locker so I can show him that me and Kellin are a couple now, I just had no idea how he would react.
He wanted me to start dating Kellin a day after Jack and I broke up, so I think that he will be fine with it.

“Hey Lex,” I heard a voice that was much too feminine to be Brendon, and just a little bit too feminine to be Kellin, and turned to see Cass walking over my way with a smile.

A rush of anxiety ran through me but I tried my best to control myself.
She wanted to tell me the truth… Remember that.
Whenever I thought about Rian, or Hayley or Zack I get really on edge, because they used to be some of my closest friends and now I can’t trust them with anything.

Due to all the hints Cass dropped that Jack was cheating on me that made sense to me now, and how Jack would tell me to stay away from her, and even Rian interrupted Cass before she could ever tell me anything, I knew she did the best she could to help me without hurting me.

“Hi Cass, um… Have you seen Brendon?” I asked her, looking around to check if he was anywhere close.

“Hmm, nope. Not since yesterday. You’re probably wanting to talk to him, I’ll be quick. I heard that you and Jack talked yesterday.” she told me, looking genuinely concerned.

I can trust her, I can trust her, I can trust her.

“Yeah, it was pretty dramatic… I’m not really in the mood to relive it right now and tell you,” I told her honestly, and looked down at the ground.

“No, no, it’s fine. I didn’t want the story, I just wanted to know if you were okay?” she asked me.

Alex lightly smiles, remembering the way Kellin’s voice sounded when he asked me, ‘are you okay?’

“I’m great.” I responded, not knowing if that was the truth or not.

“Really?” Cass sounded shocked.

In that second I felt long arms wrap around my waist and I smiled, looking down to see Kellin’s locked fingers with his own hands with me in his arms.
I looked back up at Cass, she was staring at me like I had three heads.

Oh god, I guess she had to find out somehow.

I turned around, giggling, placing my hands on Kellin’s chest and watching his lips turn up in a smile.
He looked really good today. He obviously just came in from outside because there were little snowflakes melting on the top of his perfect, dark hair with swept side bangs, and on his leather jacket that was layered on top of a grey hoodie, then a black v neck.

“Hey sunshine,” he greeted sweetly. Ugh, I love that nickname.

“Hi babe,” I smiled, and tilted my head up to signal I wanted to be kissed and he instantly gave me exactly what I wanted. He pressed his soft, pink lips against mine making my stomach flip.

“W-W...Whoa.” Cass stuttered out, sounding like she was in shock.
I pulled away from Kellin and turned to see her horrified expression with one hand over her gaping mouth, eyes as wide as the moon.

“You know Kellin, right?” I tried to sound confident, but I didn’t think of how she would react to this.
I felt Kellin’s hand trail up and down my side comfortingly, sensing my distress without being told.

“Uhhhh…. Ummm…. Uh, y-yeah…Ummm, very aware of umm who he is. But, uh, Alex… W-why did you guys just kiss?” Cass stumbled out, pointing one finger and gesturing to the two of us.

“He’s my boyfriend.” I told her proudly, looking up at Kellin who gave me an impressed smile. He leaned forward and pressed a kiss on my cheek, making me giggle lightly and lean into him more.
I was a little cold this morning anyway, since I only brought a black zip up hoodie, while there was practically a blizzard going on outside, and our school was too cheap to even heat the building.

Kellin wrapped an arm around my waist and I snuggled into his warm body covered in layers, leaning my chest into his shoulder, and turned my head to look back at Cass when all I wanted to do was admire how pretty my new boyfriend was.

“Wow… Umm, okay. Have you even thought about what Jack would think about this?” she asked me like I was stupid.

Ugh, what does Jack have anything to do with my new relationship?!
I don’t want to think about stupid Jack’s reaction to all this. Why can’t people think of the way I reacted when I found out about him cheating?!
Maybe for once, I can just think about myself.

“I don’t think I’d be alive right now if he knew.” Kellin chuckled lightly, Cass nodded seriously which made Kellin’s eyes widen with fear.

I thought that Jack was a stick when I met him, but then I met Kellin.
I know how scary Jack can get when he was mad, and I don’t want any of that near Kellin, because angry Jack could easily snap him in half, and it doesn’t take a lot for Jack to get pissed .

“Shh, you’re fine… I don’t care what Jack thinks about us. We aren’t together anymore, he isn’t in charge of me, he never was.” I told Cass, kissing Kellin’s cheek in the middle of my sentence.

“I know, I know, but isn't it just a little too soon?” Cass asked me in a small voice, Kellin’s grip around my waist tightened slightly and he leaned his head on mine.

“I don’t know… Kellin makes me happy.” I admitted truthfully, smiling up at him.

“Awww, babe.” Kellin gushed, and kissed my temple.

“I thought you’d be excited about this Cass.” I mumbled honestly.

“N-no that’s not... I m-mean, of course I am Alex. I want you to be happy, absolutely, you fucking deserve every bit of happiness in the world but… I don’t know… I just don’t want you to make any decisions, or um... rush into things, and do something that you will regret because… Well you aren’t really yourself right now. You just got your heart broken, so your judgement and conscience might be a little off.” Cass told me, reaching out her hand to place on my shoulder but I moved away and gave her a weird look.

“What are you talking about?” I glared, angrily.
I don’t know why she always acts like she knows everything about me.
The only person who knows everything about me is Jack, and now he’s just a stranger walking around aware of every detail in my life.

“Don’t worry, I wouldn’t let anything happen to him.” Kellin promised Cass, his words made me smile.
I reached up and kissed him again, pressing my lips to his and feeling both of his arms wrap around my waist. Our lips locked together for a few seconds before I pulled away, not wanting to make Cass more uncomfortable than her facial expression already expressed.

“Wow, uh… Alright then.” she responded awkwardly, making me feel a little bad.

Is she going to stop being friends with me now?

“What else were you going to say earlier?” I asked her, reaching over a bit to grab Kellin’s hand to hold and he interlocked our fingers together, his thumb comfortingly rubbed on my hand.

“N-nothing, I gotta go. I will talk to you later,” Cass stared at our hands, then back at us, and nervously turned around and started walking away.

“Oh um, okay! Uh, have a nice day!” I called after her, frowning as I watched her hurry away and turned the corner of the hallway.

I sighed in disappointment. I wasn’t very surprised, but that doesn’t mean it didn’t hurt.

“Don’t be sad, she’s just reacting to it. We’re new and she doesn’t really know what to think yet.” Kellin told me sweetly, raising one his hands to place on my arm and gave it a reassuring squeeze.

“You’re perfect.” I mumbled, leaning into him with my hands on his chest.

“No, you’re perfect.” he told me smiling, making me smile too.

I gripped my hand in a fist in the collar of Kellin’s shirt, and Kellin tilted his head down to press his lips against mine but stopped once there was a shrill squeal from behind us.
I flinched with surprise, and Kellin’s arms tightened around my waist protectively.

I turned around and was relieved to see that it was Brendan, who I originally intended to talk to, and who was standing with the most excited look on his face I’ve ever seen.

“Oh my god!!! I knew it! I told you from the start!!! I told you that you should date him, Alex! Yes!” Brendon exclaimed loudly, throwing his arms up in the air in excitement.

“At least one of your friends like me,” Kellin smiled, looking genuinely thrilled about Brendon’s reaction. I smiled, placing a kiss on his cheek and hugging him.

“They are all going to like you, okay maybe not all… But once they get to know you they’ll be hooked, just like me.” I giggled, Kellin ‘awwed’ and kissed my forehead making me blush.

“I might just cry, you guys are so cute.” Brendon smiled, leaning his shoulder against a locker as he gazed at me and Kellin like it was the first time he’s ever seen a couple.

“Thank you,” Kellin gushed, a light pink blush forming on his cheeks making me smile.

He’s so fucking adorable. I never realized how cute it was when a person blushed because Jack never did, but he always went on and on about how I did all the time. Now I finally get it, and I really like it.

“I’m really, really glad that Alex could find someone who ISN’T an asshole, finally you get a boyfriend that I actually like!” Brendon exclaimed, grabbing Kellin’s arm off my waist, then hugged him making me laugh.

I smiled at how shocked Kellin looked, his grey-blue eyes wide with surprise and elation with a grin on his face. Aww!!!
“That’s a good sign.” I smiled.

“R-Really good. I was afraid you would hate me because it’s too soon or something.” Kellin said nervously, hesitantly pulling away from Brendan, and grabbing my hand to hold again.

I couldn’t stop smiling.
Okay, I know I said I would stop comparing him to Jack, and this is the last time, but Kellin has been nicer to Brendon in the past 3 minutes, then Jack has in his entire life! Jack was never concerned about what my best friend thought about him or anything, while Kellin wants Brendon to know that he cares. Can he get any more perfect?

“He was really nervous about getting your approval.” I giggled to Brendan, looking back up at Kellin who was blushing harder.

“Babe, don’t tell him.” he whined, hiding his face in my shoulder.

“Sorry babe,” I giggled harder, placing a kiss on his cheek.

“Oh my god, you’re so sweet. You’re perfect for Alex, you’re practically made for him. Thank you for taking care of him because he’s seriously a handful.” Brendon told Kellin.

“A handful?” I repeated, raising one eyebrow.

“I was happy to comfort him, really, and wow Jack must’ve been a real asshole if he made you cry that much sunshine.” Kellin told me, and kissed my forehead sweetly, wrapping one arm securely around my waist.

“You didn’t even see the half of it.” Brendon muttered, looking down at the ground.

“And I just cry a lot, because I’m a crybaby.” I told Kellin, leaning into him.

Hopefully he won’t make me cry.

“You are not a cry baby, you’re amazing.” Kellin smiled, making me smile as he brushed some of the hair out of his face.

“He’s perfect, Alex.” Brendon gushed, staring at us with eyes full of happiness.

“I know right!” I giggled, wrapping my arms around Kellin’s neck.

“I’m so happy for the two of you-”

“Okay, bye Brendon…” I raised my eyebrows at him, trying to make him get the hint that I was trying to send him without having to say it.

“Bye?” He repeated.

“I want to makeout with my boyfriend in peace,” I told him, looking up at Kellin who was nodding his head rapidly.

“Oh! Yeah, you crazy kids have fun.” Brendon rolled his eyes at us laughing.

Both me and Kellin impatiently watched as Brendon turned around and left, and I looked back up at him once Brendon had turned the corner of the hallway.

“Finally.” I sighed, Kellin chuckled and connected our lips together.

Our lips moved in sync as I felt his one of his hands trail up and down my back, sending chills down my spine. Kellin dragged his tongue along my bottom lip, asking for entrance and I gladly accepted, opening my mouth and feeling him push his tongue into my mouth.

Kissing him was a lot different than kissing…. No… Don’t compare him to Jack.

Kissing Kellin was easy and simple, like I’ve been doing it every day of my life, and I would keep doing it everyday in my future. They were gentle and sweet, just like him.

But, kissing Jack was intense. His kisses were passionate and hot, leaving me begging for more with my knees quivering from the feeling he gave me… just like Jack. The way that one of his hands squeezed my ass and the other was cupping my face made me feel so safe and aching to rip off all his clothes as every second passed. Our lips melted together like they were made for each other, both of us kissing hard enough to leave each other with puffy, swollen lips but we didn’t care. We devoured each other and nothing else but us mattered in that moment. My heart would beat faster than I thought it could, but I knew that there was no place I’d rather be in the world other than being pressed up against a wall with Jack driving me crazy.

Don’t compare…

Is Kellin ever going to have that effect on me?

“I really like kissing you.” Kellin breathed, waking me up from my daydream, realizing that I was imagining I was kissing Jack instead of my new boyfriend.

“Me too,”

Notes

yayayayyyyay AN UPDATEEE
ughhh

i update as often as a i can
which is definitely not as often as I want to update

i dont know HOW i did the daily updates but I MISS THEM
im sure you guys do too, they were so fun

why does school have to ruin everything

there is wow much drama in this chapter WOW
CASS'S REACTION IS ME
IF THERE WAS A WAY TO INSERT MYSELF AS A CHARACTER INTO THIS STORY, CASS'S REACTION IS ME

i dont think that many of you can relate to Brendons reaction, maybe if your a hardcore kellex shipper, who knows
and ALEX THINKS ABOUT JACK WHEN THEY KISS AAAHHHH

i've been having a bit of a writers block latly, mostly with this story which really sucks

all my writing energy is going to my other story, which even though im not updating im constantly writing scenes for it.
usually what happens is i get an idea, and i write it down all down on the notes of my phone, and write it later, that's how i wrote this story
but now i'm super super unorganized, i dont know how i managed to organize things for this story but i did, but now for my other story all diffrent parts of the story are all mixed up

UGH WHY AM I SO UNORGANIZED
i've been trying to spend this weekend to organize but i've been distracted because homework and friends and also i've been watching glee and its amazing
DONT TELL ME ANY SPOILERS IM ONLY JUST STARTING SEASON 2

i need to stop rambling
i promise you guys i will update as soon as i can, i'm sure it's going to be during this week but I can't promise what day

JACK FINDS OUT ABOUT KELLEX IN THE NEXT CHAPTER
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crying at this gif how can someone be so beautiful


Title Credit- My Only One