Tay


Oh shit.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.

That can’t happen.

I felt numb as I walked away from the sight I just saw, my eyes wide as I stared at the ground trying to comprehend what just happened.

Okay, okay. I know I went off on Alex, that was fucked up. I know that.
He didn’t really deserve to be yelled at like that, but I couldn’t help myself.

He walks around like the saddest person on the fucking planet when he has everything I’ve ever dreamed of. I think that Alex is being a selfish brat, he can’t even see how lucky he is to have a guy like Jack in his life, worshipping the fucking ground he walks on.

But... Alex is just a sad kid in general.
He always has been, it was hard to tell when he was with Jack but now that he’s alone it’s obvious he has some issues.

Jack was the person who made him happy and I took that away from him.

He’s just trying to deal with the fact that his boyfriend cheated then lied to him for a month, and I had to rub it in his face then scream at him for being upset.

I literally told him to stop being depressed and selfish. What the fuck is wrong with me?
Jack’s going to murder me if he ever finds out that I did that.

I would worry about it more but there is a much, much bigger problem on my hands.

Alex and Kellin.

This whole problem that we had just got a whole lot fucking worse.

I spotted Hayley checking her makeup in the camera of her phone, grabbed her wrist, then walked over to Rian who was by his locker.

“Hey! How did it go with Jack?” Hayley asked me enthusiastically, Rian gave us both a weird look.

He’ll understand in just a second.

“Not important right now, both of you, come with me.” I told them urgently, and walked down the hallway to where I just saw Kellin and Alex being all cutesy.

I glanced over my shoulder to make sure they were following me, and they were.
Good, that would be embarrassing if they weren’t.

“What’s going on?!” Rian exclaimed. We never talk to him, he must be really confused.

“Did something happen?” Hayley asked nervously, tucking some red hair behind her ear.

“Something definitely happened.” I mumbled, with my eyes wide.

“Okay, so what does this have to do with me?” Rian rolled his eyes.

I know he doesn’t like me because of all this shit I’ve put Jack and Alex through, but whether or not I annoy him is not important right now.

“Because you are Jack’s best friend and…. Does Jack know about that?” I asked.

I pointed over to the two boys, both Kellin and Alex were together and being flirty as hell.

Alex was giggling, leaning against a locker with a bag of grapes in his hand, feeding them to Kellin. Kellin had his hand on Alex’s upper arm, both of them smiling and laughing, in very close proximity to each other. Kellin opened his mouth making Alex giggle as he fed him a grape, Kellin giving him playful smirks as he ate it, which made Alex smile.

“Oh… shit…” Rian’s eyes were bugging out of his skull in shock.

“It’s nothing right?! It won’t actually turn into something… right?” I asked them nervously, picking at my chipped nail polish on my index finger because it’s just something I do when I’m scared.

“Jack is going to go fucking APE SHIT on Kellin if he sees this,” Hayley chuckled even though it was not funny, at all.

“They could just be friends.” Rian commented hopefully, but it sounded really unrealistic.

“Oh come on, no single, gay guy is just friends with Alex. I thought you would get this even though you’re straight, but Alex is really really hot. That’s why we call him the gay guy magnet, remember?” Hayley reminded him.

“That doesn’t mean that Alex even wants to date somebody else yet, it’s only been like a week!” I exclaimed. He can’t get over Jack that fast!

“Don’t you think it’s way too soon?” Rian asked Hayley.

“Of course it’s too soon, but we can’t do anything about what Alex wants to do, or what he wants to do him.” Hayley shrugged, chuckling lightly at her own joke.

“Ewww, Alex isn’t like that! He’s one of my best friends! He doesn’t just go from boy to boy!” Rian defended.

“He’s pretty conservative in the first place.” I commented, remembering all the times hearing Jack complain that Alex wouldn’t let him make out with him in public.

“I don’t know, but guys like Alex, especially in this school, are not single for long.” Hayley said.

“I thought that Kellin was with Vic!” Rian exclaimed, glancing at the couple in discust.

“They broke up a month ago.” I told him.

He nodded.

“Are we going to tell Jack?” I asked the both of them, gesturing to the flirty boys who were gigglig and touching each other.

“No,” Hayley and Rian spoke at the same time.

“I thought we were all done with this lying stuff.” I muttered.

I was sick of keeping so many secrets.

“She has a point,” Rian told Hayley.

“No way, we have to pretend we didn’t see it. It could be nothing! If it’s a big deal, then Jack will find it out on his own. He needs up right now, especially now that Kellin’s all over his ex boyfriend.” Hayley told the both of us.

She had a point, but it still felt wrong not telling Jack what we say, knowing that he would explode if he ever saw another boy lay a finger on Alex. He has some anger issues… He’s just protective over Alex which is cute, but he really won’t be happy with Kellin if he finds out.

“Do you think they are for real?” I asked them.

I looked back over to the couple, watching Alex scrunch up his nose looking disgusted as Kellin was trying to feed him a grape. Obviously he didn't like grapes.
Kellin was laughing as he pressed the grape to Alex’s lips and once he didn’t eat it, Kellin ate it himself. A pink blush formed on Alex’s face, and he muttered something that made them both laugh.

“I don’t know, I sure hope not…” Hayley sighed.

“We really never know, they could just be friends.” Rian said hopefully.

“Like I said, nobody is doing THAT to ALEX unless he’s trying to get in his pants, and it looks like it’s working.” Hayley looked over at them again.

I watched Kellin place a small kiss on Alex’s cheek and walked away, Alex placed a hand where Kellin had just kissed him and smiled at the ground, Kellin glanced back at him with a bright red blush on his face.

I had to admit, they were fucking adorable.
That was some classic, ‘not a couple yet but we both really want to be,’ flirting going on.

I feel horrible at this whole situation though, I mean at least Kellin was cheering Alex up after I literally made him cry.
But if Kellin and Alex are together, that mea
I fought the urge to be happy about this situation, Jack being single.
I knew I couldn’t be happy about this.

Jack doesn’t love me, I can’t force him to.

I need to move on, and I guess I can help him move on from Alex in the process.

I can’t just sit around feeling sorry for myself when everyone else is going through worse shit.

Most of all I feel bad for Kellin, for what Jack is going to do to him once he finds out that he’s into Alex.

Notes

kellexxxx

im sorry this chapter is lame, its all diolauge, it's just a filler
BUT AT LEAST IT'S UPLOADED!!

i don't know what happened to my auto correct and i type very fast so i make mistakes a lot so if there are some typos iM SORRY

BUT TAY'S POV YAY
its pretty boring, i try to make her point of views more intresting but they never are lmao

OKAY
IVE ALREADY WRITTEN THE NEXT 2 CHAPTERS AND THEY ARE SUPER LONG AND SO SO SO SOSO SO FULL OF DRAMA
like really reallly really dramatic

but i'm gonna post the next one on wednesday, then the next one on friday
because i gotta space them out because im posting less but i might be posting chapters of my other story on tuesdays and thursdays, maybe, possibly, hopefully

okay guys
is this a spoiler? should i even tell you this? im telling you anywhere
theres jalex in the next chapter
AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I MISS THEMMMMMM

i underestimated how badly i would miss them and i do i really do
but like the next chapter is A LOT
so many feels
but i think i wrote it pretty well, which makes me happy

but kellex is getting more cutesyyyyy
and NOW TAY AND HAYLEY AND RIAN KNOW THAT THEY ARE CUTESY
ohSHIT

what do you think jacks gonna do when he finds outttttt??
im v excited to write that part lmao im horrible

I GOT ANOTHER SUBSCRIBER WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WELCOMEEEEE
I LOVE ALL OF YOUUUUU

I HAD A REALLY CUTE GIF OF ALEX BUT I LOST IT DAMMIT

oh well

me @ all time low


Title Credit- Keep The Change, You Filthy Animal