Jack


Okay, you’d think that I’d feel better now right?

Everybody knows, Rian, Cass, Hayley, Zack, Brendon, even Vic.
All the people that would possibly tell Alex, are keeping my secret for me.

They are all lying directly to his face whenever they see him.

I just can’t help of thinking of the worst. I’m usually the optomist in these situations, most of the times I’m the only one who is able to keep a good mood once shit happens.
Not anymore.
This guilt was eating me alive. I could barely look at Alex in the eyes, I could just picture the tears running down his perfect cheeks and I instantly feel like throwing up.

I don’t want to feel this guilty! It’s not like I’m having an affair.
I just cheated once, when I was drunk. It meant nothing.

Everyone seemed to understand, even Brendan now, but my heart still couldn’t grasp the concept.

Lying, to my beautiful boyfriend.

In my head I knew this was better for everyone. Who knows what could happen to him if he found out I cheated, but what if he finds out now?

What if he figures out I’ve been lying to him this entire time?
Just imagining makes my knees weak.

No, it’s going to be okay. I have to keep telling myself this.

Nobody would have the heart to break his spirit, especially not me.
It’s not going to be known.
It’ll be okay.

Except my nose, was very much not okay.

I went to the school nurse, and I went to the emergency room by ambulance which I thought was completely unnecessary. They wanted to scan my head to check if I had a concussion or something, but obviously I didn’t.

I hope my parents don’t look at the bills too closely, I’ll have a tough time explaining this one.

It was pretty obvious that I had broken my nose, I knew it once I heard it crack.
It was extremely swollen, and tender when you touch it.

I also had two beautiful looking bruises forming under my eyes, that make me look even more ugly than when I looked in the mirror when it first broke.

Hopefully my face will eventually go back to the way it was, Alex liked it…

I stopped by the pharmacy on the way home to pick up my pain medication, which was hopefully pretty damn strong. I would rather my whole face be numb then be in this pain right now.

The entire time I was contemplating in my head whether I should just tell him or not.

Would it be better off if I just sat him down, and told him gently? Or not at all?
I’m so sick of pretending, but this isn’t about me, it’s about Alex’s happiness.

I’ve made it this far, I can fucking see the finish line. In a week, everyone will forget this happened, including me. It’ll be alright.

Once I got home, I popped two pills in my mouth, and flopped down onto the couch. It was only 12:30, school still hasn’t been let out yet, because it ends at 3.

Alex insisted on coming in the ambulance with me to make sure I was okay, and that I didn’t have any kind of brain damage or something, but I forced him not to.
It was incredibly sweet of him, but unnecessary. I’m a big boy and I can do things on my own.

Plus, he had his very very important classes, I wouldn’t want to be responsible to set him back.
Anyways, I wanted to be alone. I needed this alone time to think about him, think about what I’m gonna say. Or won’t say.

I laid my head down on the arm of the couch and groaned, the pain killers were working fast.
I leaned over to reach for the remote, when the my cell phone started buzzing, and blaring Basket Case by Green Day.

I didn’t even bother to look at the caller ID, I just answered.

“Hey,” I said.

“Jack, I’m so fucking sorry you got punched in the face. I’m in my free period right now, and Hayley told me that you’re nose is probably broken, I know that all of this is my fault. I wish I was there, maybe I could’ve said something to stop it-”

“Whoa, Tay. Slow down, I’m gonna be fine. It’s okay.” I reassured her, smiling at her nervous babbling that I found pretty charming.

“You don’t even sound fine. How are you feeling?” Tay asked me thoughtfully.

“Eh, like shit. That’s expected though, the pain killers are making it a little better already, so that’s good.” I reported, flipping through channels on the television trying to find a good show to watch.

Nothing’s on at noon, maybe I should just go on Netflix.

“Gosh, that sucks. This is all so fucked up. Can I come over after school?” she asked me.

“Nah sorry, Alex is already coming over. You can come too, if you want.” I offered, knowing that she’d turn it down.

They never got along before I cheated anyway, he always thought that she had a crush on me, and she always thought I was too good for him.
I wish they’d get along, but that might’ve made it harder for her to avoid him now.

“Right, of course he’s coming over. He’s your boyfriend.” she stated, kind of randomly.

“You wanna come?” I repeated.

“No! Definitely not, I’d be way too awkward.” she exclaimed, making me chuckle.

Before I could respond she started talking again.

“I’m really sorry Jack.” she sighed into the phone, making me frown.

“Why?”

“You wouldn’t have to deal with all of this if it wasn’t for me.”

“We were both drunk” I reminded her.

She couldn’t seriously be blaming this on herself.
If anything it would be my fault, not that I remember it happening...but I’m the dude.
I don’t mean to be crass, but I’m the one who shoves the penis in vagina.
It’s just how it works.

“But you wouldn’t have been punched in the face, or be sad all the time-”

“I’m sad because I’m guilty at what I did to him. It takes two people to fuck, Tay. I’m just as much at fault as you.” I explained to her, I heard her take a deep breath.

“Yeah, you’re right. Zack’s been pretty pissed at me, now that you mention it. He’s staying calm now but I feel like anytime he will explode.” Tay said honestly.

“I will keep an eye on him if you want me to. He’s probably just trying to brush it off like it doesn’t bother him, but once he thinks about another dude with his girl, he’s gonna blow up.”

“Please don’t let him hurt you though.” she begged.

I was shocked when Zack didn’t beat the crap out of me when he found out. I expected at least a punch in the face, but nothing.
He’s a pretty peaceful guy though, he’s a lover, not a fighter.
He may look like he could snap me like a toothpick, but it doesn’t mean he’d do it.

“Eh, I doubt he could give me a second broken nose.” I said lightly, making her giggle.

“I’m serious, Zack’s scary when he’s mad.” Tay told me.

“Yeah, well so am I. He’s not going to touch me, or you, or Alex, or anybody. I’ll make sure of it.” I promised her, hopefully easing her worries. I hate when people are worried.

"Thank you so much Jack. I'm really grateful to have you in my life," she breathed.
I would've smiled or something at her comment, but I was getting really tired.

“Thanks, Tay."

"It feels so good talking to you Jack," she admitted, making me smile.

"Aww, Tay you're so cute. You can talk to me anytime." I told her.

"C-Cute?" she repeated in disbelief. I chuckled at her response.

"I gotta go, okay? I’m gonna take a nap before my boy comes over, I’ll talk to you later.”

“O-Oh, okay. Bye, have a nice rest.” she told me sweetly.

“Kay, goodnight.”

Notes

JACK AND TAY
TAY AND JACK
AHH


hey i just realized, when was the last time i posted a chapter in ALEX'S POINT OF VIEW
WHAT EVEN
idk who's point of view i like writing in better
i think i like to write alex's pov better, but im better at writing jack's

DONT WORRY
I KNOW THIS CHAPTER IS BORING
IM WRITING THE NEXT ONE NOW, IM GONNA TRY TO POST AS OFTEN AS I FINISH A CHAPTER BECAUSE IM IN SUCH A WRITING MOOD, AND IT'S EARLY

plus i have been being lame on updates, so i will be CRAMMING in some chapters tonight
well honestly i will probably post one more tonight and other ones tomorrow

im still unsure of my whole plan for the next chapter , but it's gonna be a little different
you'll get it once you read it I think

i love your guys's comments <3 you all have so many different opinions I AGREE WITH LITERALLY ALL OF THEM IDK ITS SO HARD TO CHOSE SIDES

I LOVE MY CHARACTERS SOMUCH
AND MY SUBSCRIBERS
AH

i keep forgetting i can change the size of the gif, lets make this one huge