Can I Say I'm Sorry?

"Go see if Matt needs help with everything. It's the least you can do since you were late," Rian said.

"Fine, where's Jack, he needs to go as well," I asked.

"I think he was heading over there already," Zack called from the back lounge.

"Ugh fine, I just hope Matt actually needs help otherwise I'm just going to be walking around aimlessly," I muttered.

I grabbed my pass and hooked it onto my belt before walking outside. It was a nice day and I really regretting not grabbing my sunglasses. I sighed and walked back to the stage we just finished playing. I would love to shower because I felt absolutely disgusting because I've been sweating for days.

It was nice to walk around in the connecting grounds back stage because you could easily run places and no one cared who you were so you were rarely stopped. I saw Shay and Jack in the distance and I went to run up to them. I saw Jack wrap his arm around her waist. I saw him press his lips into hers. I stopped dead in my tracks.

"Oh," I whispered.

I decided against saying anything, I could act like it never happened. I could just push it behind me. It's not like it bothered me anyway, I loved Layla and I was lucky to have her. I looked down and walked over towards them. I wasn't going to say anything at all, it just wasn't worth it anymore.

"Oh, hey Alex, when'd you get here," Shay asked.

"Rian and Zack convinced me to come down here and help pack up," I explained.

"They told us to go back."

"Oh alright."

I walked back with them, taking note of the awkward situation between Shay and Jack. I couldn't help but notice the looks they were exchanging. They were good for each other, they should try to be together. It probably wouldn't last long because neither of them date but they're cute together. They're good together. They're better together than she ever was with me.

"Alex, are you listening," Shay asked.

"I'm sorry what," I asked.

"Are you hitting the party tonight?"

"Yeah, probably."

"Sweet."

I looked over at he rand she was smiling. I also saw Jack manage to slip his arm around her waist. That was yet another thing I was going to ignore because that was just easier than saying anything. I watched as they got into the bus and walked in after them. I listened to their conversation of absolutely nothing. As much as I wanted to miss her it came to my mind that she wasn't mine to miss.

Notes

Uh oh, Alex knows and he's actually very understanding, or is he? So, I'm going to see Weezer and Panic! on Monday which I'm really excited about. I also get to see one of my best friends in two weeks and I've missed him a lot so I am so ready to see him.

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Title Credit: Nicotine - Panic! At The Disco