Can I Say I'm Sorry?

"You ready for tour," Jack asked me.

"As ready as I'm going to be I guess," I said.

Going on tour was going to be nice, I hadn't done that in quite a while. The only downside was I was going to be leaving for another tour about three days after I get back but that was the only thing that really saddened me. I sighed as I climbed into the passenger seat after throwing my bag in the trunk. A part of me was regretting agreeing but even now I felt obliged to. Not even because they're friends but because I felt like I had a lot to make up to them.

"Look, I think it's best that you just stay away from him whenever that's possible," Jack said.

"I never wanted to cause problems," I said.

"It's not your fault, just things happen in life."

"You always struck my as a 'shit happens' kind of person not a 'sometimes things happen' kind of person but whatever."

"You know, when you were gone I missed having someone exactly like me around."

I smiled at him and turned back to the front. The band knew that I was going to go with them on this tour and all of them except Alex were thrilled. He was also bummed that Layla couldn't go as well because she had a lot to do back at the studio. Rian had told me that he was glad that I was going to be the drummer since he couldn't be so that actually made me willing to do this. The second Jack had told everyone I was half tempted to just get the fuck out and turn tail, claiming I was needed in a studio. Any studio.

We pulled up at the rendezvous point where the guys were given the thumbs up to leave their cars. Once we got there I saw Mr. Dark and Dreary brooding near the luggage load in with his hood up, sipping on coffee. I decided to try to listen to Jack's advice and stay as far away from him as I could. In theory he shouldn't still be angry at me, there was nothing else I could've done. In my shoes he would've done the same thing. He knew what he was getting into in the very beginning. I was an electric fence with a "Do Not Touch" sign but he dared to reach out and was still surprised when he got shocked. That is not my fault.

"Let's fucking do this shit," Jack yelled while getting our bags.

"Whoa, turn the fuck up Jackie boy," I yelled in response.

"Are you two a thing," Alex muttered.

"Why do you care? I don't remember the part where you owned me," I shot at him.

Jack stared me down and I backed down and walked with him to put our luggage away. He turned and looked down at me, him being almost a foot taller than me. He had a look in his eyes that looked similar to that of a parent about to scold a child.

"Is it going to be impossible for the two of you to even attempt to act civil," he questioned.

"Well, he started it," I muttered, crossing my arms over my chest.

"Wow, you're such a fucking child."

I grumbled and followed him onto the bus. My duffle bag was slung onto my shoulder. It had a few days worth of clothes as well as the few things I would need for the first week and a half. It also had a stuffed deer that I slept with every night because it didn't matter that I was an adult, I needed stuffed animals. I threw the back in one of the bunks by the back lounge and just sat there on the bunk. Jack took the one underneath me by throwing a bag there and then he sat next to me on my bunk.

"Sorry I snapped at you, just, I want things to be how they were," he said.

"I want things to be how they were at one point too but I don't think they ever will be. I screwed up everything okay. It doesn't matter that I regret it, nothing can be done. The present can't change the past okay. All we can do is learn from it and hope the future is better. I know that he is hurt by my actions and, you know what, as much as it pains me to say, if it were possible I would undo everything. All of it. Except I can't. What's done is done," I said.

"Wow, I never thought you'd say that."

I curled into Jack's side and he wrapped his arm around my waist. I rested my arm on his shoulder and he leaned over and kissed my forehead softly. I smiled and pressed myself closer into his side. I heard Alex walk in and he stared at us. He scoffed and rolled his eyes. That's when I saw the pain that were hidden in his soft hazel eyes. I hadn't meant to hurt anyone.

Notes

I got sent home early from work because I got fillings today so I decided to update because I actually got really bored having nothing to do. I'm also super ready for July because I get to see one of my friends that I see only once a year and I'm so excited. We're also gonna go to Warped Tour together and he's gonna attempt me to skateboard so that'll probably end horribly. Anyway, I hope y'all are enjoying this story, hope this helps to prove they don't hate each other.

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Title Credit: Best Of You - Foo Fighters