Can I Say I'm Sorry?
The city lights shine for her
Alex
"Where do you know her from," Layla asked.
"She used to be my best friend but she abandoned me. This is the first time I've seen her in four years," I replied coldly.
"Do you still love her?"
"Where did decide that I ever loved her in the first place?"
"Because I'm not stupid?"
I turned away from the striking brunette and looked down at my phone seeing a text from Jack. In the picture Shay was next to him kissing his cheek. Something in the pit of my stomach ate at me. To say I wasn't attracted to her was a bold lie but she was something that I could never have. She changed her appearance a lot. She looked younger than she had years ago. Time had done her well and that was obvious. She was the right mix of sexy and cute, I still didn't know how she did it.
"She's cute ya know," Layla said.
"Shut up about her. We all make mistakes," I grumbled.
Layla shook her head and stood up from the couch. I watched as she walked away, probably going towards her desk. I sighed, I wanted to go with my friends but instead they were out with some girl who left them after swearing she wouldn't. She had no reason to walk out of our lives. She wasn't some holy being but instead a demon on this planet. I went into the recording studio that they had left from a while. I looked around what was left. Many of the things were the guys things but the one thing Shay left was her phone. I picked it up absentmindedly and looked at it out of habit. She had quite a few texts from a guy named Mark and absolutely none of them were appropriate. I wanted to text him to back off but there were several reasons as to why I couldn't. I put the phone back on the table next to one of the stools.
I texted Jack to tell him to let Shay know she left her phone. I grabbed my guitar case and left. So many songs I had written about this girl and she just walked into my life after so many years. So many of our biggest hits were about her but still she didn't know and she would never realize how much she meant to me. No, I didn't love her, there was no way that I loved her. I didn't love the things that hurt me. Whoever this Mark was though, she deserved so much better than.
Shay
I was currently dancing on the table that we had been drinking at. I pulled Jack up here and he joined me. I was grinding on him and to say the four of us were having a good time was an understatement. Rian and Zack were having their own fun with their bromance. I smiled up at Jack and he wrapped his arms around me in a giant, bone-crushing hug. I jumped off the table and went to catch Jack as he did the same. I kissed his cheek as he took a picture of it.
I was doing more shots as some guys that were there were buying me drinks and I wasn't one to complain or deny them. I wasn't driving anyway, I wouldn't be drinking if I was anyway. I smiled at my friends and it finally hit me about how much that I had abandoned when I left. It wasn't really my choice to leave. I was given a choice but not to the extent that everyone assumes. I was completely free to pick my schedule but I had to do what I did for the money.
"Sha-Shay," Jack practically yelled, "you left your phone at the studio. Alex has it."
"Make sure he doesn't find my porn," I yelled back.
I snuggled into Jack's side, I was really tired. I yawned and curled further into his side. He pulled out his phone, I assumed to call an Uber. I could tell that he was taking some of my free drinks because free drinks are better than the type that you pay for. I don't know how much time passed, it was impossible to say. I felt Jack pick me up and his face next to my hair.
"Let's go, I'll bring you to your apartment" he whispered.
I curled into his chest when he picked me up. I got really tired when I drank and that wasn't really a bad thing. He put me in the car and I curled into his side, I just wanting attention and I didn't care about the person who would give me attention. Maybe that was one of my fundamental flaws. We stopped by the recording studio and I felt Jack leave from beside me. I assumed he was getting my phone among other things.
I felt Jack move me as he got back into the Uber. I felt his eyes on me as I assumed he looked at me. How he got my address I had no idea, maybe Layla had it in her computer system or something. That's all I could assume considering there was no way that I could coherently speak at this point. Jack was comfortable to lay against though.
"You know, he misses you," Jack whispered.
"Stay with me," I muttered.
"Where do you know her from," Layla asked.
"She used to be my best friend but she abandoned me. This is the first time I've seen her in four years," I replied coldly.
"Do you still love her?"
"Where did decide that I ever loved her in the first place?"
"Because I'm not stupid?"
I turned away from the striking brunette and looked down at my phone seeing a text from Jack. In the picture Shay was next to him kissing his cheek. Something in the pit of my stomach ate at me. To say I wasn't attracted to her was a bold lie but she was something that I could never have. She changed her appearance a lot. She looked younger than she had years ago. Time had done her well and that was obvious. She was the right mix of sexy and cute, I still didn't know how she did it.
"She's cute ya know," Layla said.
"Shut up about her. We all make mistakes," I grumbled.
Layla shook her head and stood up from the couch. I watched as she walked away, probably going towards her desk. I sighed, I wanted to go with my friends but instead they were out with some girl who left them after swearing she wouldn't. She had no reason to walk out of our lives. She wasn't some holy being but instead a demon on this planet. I went into the recording studio that they had left from a while. I looked around what was left. Many of the things were the guys things but the one thing Shay left was her phone. I picked it up absentmindedly and looked at it out of habit. She had quite a few texts from a guy named Mark and absolutely none of them were appropriate. I wanted to text him to back off but there were several reasons as to why I couldn't. I put the phone back on the table next to one of the stools.
I texted Jack to tell him to let Shay know she left her phone. I grabbed my guitar case and left. So many songs I had written about this girl and she just walked into my life after so many years. So many of our biggest hits were about her but still she didn't know and she would never realize how much she meant to me. No, I didn't love her, there was no way that I loved her. I didn't love the things that hurt me. Whoever this Mark was though, she deserved so much better than.
Shay
I was currently dancing on the table that we had been drinking at. I pulled Jack up here and he joined me. I was grinding on him and to say the four of us were having a good time was an understatement. Rian and Zack were having their own fun with their bromance. I smiled up at Jack and he wrapped his arms around me in a giant, bone-crushing hug. I jumped off the table and went to catch Jack as he did the same. I kissed his cheek as he took a picture of it.
I was doing more shots as some guys that were there were buying me drinks and I wasn't one to complain or deny them. I wasn't driving anyway, I wouldn't be drinking if I was anyway. I smiled at my friends and it finally hit me about how much that I had abandoned when I left. It wasn't really my choice to leave. I was given a choice but not to the extent that everyone assumes. I was completely free to pick my schedule but I had to do what I did for the money.
"Sha-Shay," Jack practically yelled, "you left your phone at the studio. Alex has it."
"Make sure he doesn't find my porn," I yelled back.
I snuggled into Jack's side, I was really tired. I yawned and curled further into his side. He pulled out his phone, I assumed to call an Uber. I could tell that he was taking some of my free drinks because free drinks are better than the type that you pay for. I don't know how much time passed, it was impossible to say. I felt Jack pick me up and his face next to my hair.
"Let's go, I'll bring you to your apartment" he whispered.
I curled into his chest when he picked me up. I got really tired when I drank and that wasn't really a bad thing. He put me in the car and I curled into his side, I just wanting attention and I didn't care about the person who would give me attention. Maybe that was one of my fundamental flaws. We stopped by the recording studio and I felt Jack leave from beside me. I assumed he was getting my phone among other things.
I felt Jack move me as he got back into the Uber. I felt his eyes on me as I assumed he looked at me. How he got my address I had no idea, maybe Layla had it in her computer system or something. That's all I could assume considering there was no way that I could coherently speak at this point. Jack was comfortable to lay against though.
"You know, he misses you," Jack whispered.
"Stay with me," I muttered.
Notes
Chapter three is out. I've started working against so I'm dog tired right now but I had an idea so I hope y'all like it. Also, I'm going to Warped Tour in Charlotte which I'm stoked about. I'm going with two of my really close friends so it's going to be so awesome. I plan on finishing So Far Away within in the next two weeks and getting another chapter for Undercover out probably next week. I really hope y'all enjoy this story so far though.
Leave a comment and rate if you enjoy :)
Title credit: Gifts and Curses - Yellowcard
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I'm happy that you got the closure you needed to move on
9/13/16