Can I Say I'm Sorry?

I looked over at the naked girl next to me, her brunette hair obviously covered in sweat. She was pretty, yeah, but I just didn't really know. I was marrying her because I was so afraid of losing her and marrying her was the only way that she wouldn't leave. I was so afraid to lose, I had been hurt too many times before and I wasn't going to do it again. I deserved to be happy.

I pulled out my phone and looked at the link that Jack had send me. It was a video on Sixx: AM's page of their back up vocalist singing a very familiar song. It was Shay, I could tell by the voice. I could tell that she had no idea that she was being filmed. She had so much emotion in her voice, she really understood the words that she was singing.

"What are you watching babe," Layla asked.

"Just a video Jack sent me," I responded.

"She has a nice voice. Is that Shay?'

"Yeah."

"She's really pretty."

"She's not as pretty as you my beautiful fiancée."

She curled back into my head and sighed softly, going back to sleep. I sighed and stayed awake like I had been doing for quite a while. I felt bad and I had noticed that Shay's messages had stopped. It seemed like she had given up on me, that she just didn't care anymore.

That really hurt, it hurt to think that she just didn't care about me anymore. I wasn't going to apologize because I had nothing to apologize for. I wanted her to message me again because I had way too much pride to do it. I had nothing to apologize for and nothing that I needed to contact her about. Anyway, why wouldn't she want to make things right? What was I doing wrong?

I climbed out of bed and pulled my underware off the floor, putting them on. I went out into the front room and dialed Zack's phone number. He was going to tell me exactly what to do.

"Do you know what time it is Alex," he asked.

"No clue, I'm not really sleeping," I answered.

"Two AM is the answer. What are you calling for?"

"Shay."

"Look Lex. You fucked up, you need to apologize to her and reach out to her. Also, you lost her the second you put the ring on that bitch. You made your bed now lay in it."

The line clicked not too long after that sentence. I threw the phone and walked up to the bathroom attached to the bedroom. I took a sleeping pill and climbed into bed next to Layla waiting for sleep to take me over yet again.

Notes

I have no idea what this is about, I'm just a little salty overall. I know the chapter is kind of short, my laptop is acting up so I had to do it on my phone and that makes it a little bit shorter. Also, who's playing Pokémon Go and what team are y'all on, I'm curious.

Leave a comment and rate if you enjoy :)

Title Credit: Misery Loves my Company - Three Days Grace