Just one mistake

Alex's POV

After a really nice and relaxing bath with Tate me and him was sat on his bed while he sorted my arm out for me.
"I've let you down haven't I?" I asked Tate and looked down away from his eye contact.
"Lex look at me." I said but i didnt look at him.
I just wanted to run away from everything but my heart just would let me, I couldnt do that to Tate.
Not after everything he has done for me.
Tate reached his arm out and I flinched away from him, which is something i have never done around him.
"Baby whats going on? Talk to me please." Tate said sounding really worried.
"I'm sorry." I whispered and moved my arm way from Tates hand and hugged my knees while gently rocking myself backwards and forwards.
"What you sorry for? Your arm? Lex you dont have to say sorry for that." Tate said.
I shook my head and whispered sorry again completely zoning out.
"Do you want me to get Jack for you?" He asked and I nodded.
As much as I love Tate, because I love him to death, I could really do with a Jack hug and some words of wisdom from him.
"I'll go and see if i can get him to come over." Tate said and kissed the side off my head and walked out the room.
Once he was gone I could feel myself beginning to cry.
I rested my head on my knees and cried.

"Please try and talk to him or whatever. I'm worried about him Jack." Tate said as he walked into the room.
"I will see what I can do." Jack said and I felt the bed dip beside me.
"I'll leave you two alone." Tate said and I heard thee bedroom door shut.
"Hey moose." Jack said quietly using this stupid nickname he gave me for no reason.
I just sniffed in response.
"What's up? Tate is worried sick about you. He was nearly crying down the end of the phone to me." Jack said quietly.
I just kept my head on my knees and didnt respond.
"Lex you have to talk to either me or Tate. It's not good or healthy for you to keep it all bottled up." He said and put his hand on my back and I flinched away from him and looked at him my face tear stained.
"Don't touch me." I hissed at him which took Jack by surprised.
"Lex? What's going on inside your head, talk to me." He said.
"Leave me alone." I whispered and looked back down.
"Lex I can't leave you not when your like this." He said.
"I have to go back to him. I need to say I'm sorry and that I wont run away again." I said and got off the bed and started to pack a bag.

I heard Jack get up and he grabbed hold of my arm.
"Get off me!" I shouted at him.
"No Alex! You are not going back to him. If you go back to him, he will fucking kill you! Do you hear me he will kill you! You wont see me or Tate ever again! Do you want that?!" Jack said loudly.
"Don't yell at me!" I said loudly back at him and pulled my arm hard out of his hold and walked to a corner and sat down and started to cry, yet again.
"Alex, you can't go back to him." He said quietly and moved and I made myself as small as I could in the corner.
"Please dont make any sudden moves." I whispered.
I heard the door open and shut again and another pair of feet entered the room.
"Babe, please dont go back to him." Tate sniffed.
I shook my head and I heard someone walk over and sit next to me and they pulled me to their side.
"We care about you Alex. What ever is going on inside your head you can tell us. We would never judge you." Jack said quietly.
I felt someone else sit next to me.
I sniffed and moved away from Jack and just sat between Jack and Tate feeling lost and numb.

I dont really know what happened after that.
All i know is that Tate picked me up and put on the bed and cuddled into my back and placing small light kisses behind my ear every so often.
"I love you Lex." He said quietly.
Jack was sat on the bed looking worried.
"Can i crash round here tonight?" Jack asked.
"Sure, you dont mind the sofa do you?" Tate said and pulled away from me which for some reason made me cry.
"I'm just getting Jack some pillows and a blanket and I'll be right back okay. Maybe Jack can cuddle you while I do that." Tate said and messed with my hair a little and kissed the side of my head as I nodded.
Jack moved and lead behind me and cuddled me.
I felt safe when I had arms round me.
"Me and Tate will keep you safe. We promise." Jack said quietly.
I was falling asleep when I felt the arms move away from me which made me wake up.
"Sh, its okay. Go back to sleep." Tate whispered and I felt his arms wrap round my waist and pulled me closer to him.
I nodded and got comfy in his arms and fell asleep feeling safe again.

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