Jack

The next week was a blur of drunkenness and drugs. I woke up, putting my hand over my eyes due to my massive hangover. I pulled myself up, it was about noon. I stumbled into the bathroom, avoiding the empty bottles on the floor. I looked in the mirror. I met the eye of a broken man, what have I become?

"Why do I even care," I muttered.

I wished I didn't care. It would hurt so much less if I didn't care. I picked up a half full bottle of Jack and drank the rest of it. I threw the bottle into my room, hearing it clank on the ground against the other bottles. I stumbled into the kitchen and saw a folder sticking out from a cupboard.

I opened the folder, it was a bunch of important paperwork. I started organizing it out on my table. I came across a piece of notebook paper, why would it be there? I opened it up and saw the song Alex had written for me. A part of me wanted to tear it to shreds. To throw it away and try to forget about the boy that had settled himself so deep in my brain.

I started reading it and tears welled up in my eyes. It spoke of a love that wouldn't break by distance. Saying that as long as I was in his mind I wasn't far away. I wasn't even far form him at this point. He lived nearby but he would never want to see me again. Why did I fuck everything up?

I had an idea though, I know I looked like death but I was supposed to be sick anyway, it worked. I grabbed the song and managed my way back to my room. I picked up my acoustic guitar and started playing a bunch of different cords, trying to figure out what sounded the best.

I pulled out my laptop and started up a live stream. I had put it out on my Twitter and within moments there was a lot of people watching. I secretly hoped Alex was one of them. I waved at the camera, my acoustic guitar in my lap.

"So, I know I missed the last few days of tour, I've not been feeling too great so Zacky, my tech, took my place and I really hope you enjoyed the concert still because he is an amazing musician. Anyway, I found a song that a guy wrote for me back when I dated him. He just wrote the lyrics and I wrote the guitar riffs today. I really hope you like my take with my horrible vocals on this song titled Daydream Away," I said.

I read through the comments wishing me good health and smiley faces. A lot of them were really excited to hear a brand new song even if sung with my horrible voice. I began strumming the cords I had just written for it. I began to sing the lyrics that Alex bad written for me all those years ago. A tear fell from my eyes as I remembered the face of the boy who wrote me the song.

"You're just a daydream away, I wouldn't know what to say if I had you," I sang as my voice broke.

I felt tears escape from my eyes as I closed the window. I didn't care about what the fans said. I just did what I needed to. I closed my laptop, putting it away. I placed my guitar back on the stand and curled up with a blanket on my bed. I had gotten really tired of sleeping alone but I knew nothing was going to change right now.

Notes

I didn't like writing Jack like that but it was meant to happen. Do you think Alex was watching the live stream?

Lyric credit: A Daydream Away - All Time Low

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- Jess