Alex

Before I knew what was going on, Jack placed his lips onto mine. It was a soft, passion filled kiss. I didn’t kiss him back, I couldn’t put myself through something like this again. I quickly pushed him away from me and held my hands between us as I took a couple steps backwards and into Rain and Cass’ house.

“Alex, I-I” Jack started, but I cut him off.

“Save it Jack. You need to leave.” I said, still trying to process what happened in my mind.

“I love you, Alex.” He said softly.

“I don’t love you, Jack. I moved on. It’s been five years, it’s time you did to. Look, just forget we ever met each other again at that fucking bar. I want nothing to do with a relationship with you. I’m thankful for you letting me stay with you for a night, but Jack, I’m not going through this again. Please leave, and never contact me again.”

“If that’s what you want.” His voice was soft, and I heard it crack. I also noticed a tear stream down his face. For some reason, it made me feel some regret in myself, but I couldn’t let him know that. I watched as he turned around and walked to the driveway to his car. I shut the door and locked it, turning around and sliding down it, as I felt tears break from my eyes.

“Shit, Alex. What happened? Who was at the door?” Rian asked as he rushed to my side.

“Jack.” I whispered. He nodded his head and brought me into a tight embrace, making me feel the only safeness that my best friend could give me. I don’t know how long we sat like this, but I still had tears strolling their way down my cheeks, but Rian spoke.

“What did he want?” His voice no more than a whisper.

“He kissed me Ri.”

“Did you kiss him back?”

“No.”

“But you wanted to?” He questioned, but more in a statement tone. I removed myself from his embrace and sat next to him on the floor.

“Why would you even say something like that? I’m not in love with Jack Barakat.”

“Yes you are.”

“No I’m not!” I said, starting to feel a little angry with my so-called best friend.

“Think about it Lex.” He said as he stood up and walked the way to his room.
I somehow made it into the living room and I was now curled in a ball on the couch, holding myself as I let my thoughts take over my body and mind. Why would Rian say I loved Jack? Why did Jack have to come back into my life at this time? Why did Jack have to just plain come back into my life?! Yes, I understand things with Andy would still be the same, but that doesn’t mean I would get mixed feelings for the boy I used to love. With his black and blonde hair, dark chocolate-down eyes, that laugh he does when he finds something cute, that adorable little side smile he always has-. Wait, what am I saying. Mixed feelings for Jack? What? No no no. Not even, not even close. I do not love Jack anymore, nor will I ever love him again. I got a strange feeling in my gut when I thought the words. Like the feeling of regret. Fuck.

I’m still in love with Jack Bassam Barakat.

Shit.

Notes

Sorry it's short! I'm running on two hours of sleep for this whole week.

Anyways, sorry I was gone for so long! I have work and shit. I am free this whole weekend though! So that's awesome. But, come Monday, I have to go back to my online classes for school. Also, that same day, I will be leave again for another full week, due to my work.
I'm sorry for the long wait! I will get chapters out for you guys whenever I can!

So, Alex finally let himself admit that he is in love with Jack!

~Jagk