We Were Born To Lose

I awoke to a soft stroking on my cheek. I felt the corners of my lips twitch because without opening my eyes, I knew who it was. I decided to pretend I was asleep so that I could feel his gentle touch for as long as possible. Alex seemed unaware of my conscious state so he continued without a care. He ran his finger down my jawline and to my chin, then I felt him grip it between two fingers and I felt him shift. His lips were on mine and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Wake up.” He murmured.
“Why?” I grumbled.
“I’m hungry, wake up.”
“Fine.” I said with a fake aggravated sigh. I opened my eyes and saw Alex on top of me, affection swimming in his eyes. I grinned at the sight of his beauty. Despite my ugly past, I’d seen some very pretty things. I’d seen the sun rise over mountains, I’d seen fields of bright flowers, I’d seen the rain torrent down, I’d seen fog hover delicately over a lake but nothing compared to this. Nothing compared to staring into his ridiculously deep brown eyes, feeling my heart flutter at the slightest touch, feeling his hand gently trace my jawline again, hearing his soft voice that called to me. “Sire you need to get off of me if i’m going to get your breakfast.” I said with a laugh. He let an aggravated noise out and rolled off of me. I laughed and sat up but the ache in my lower abdomen stopped my voice. It wasn’t like I wasn’t used to it, but it still wasn’t the best feeling in the world.
“Jay? Are you okay?” Alex’s attitude switched quickly as he placed one hand on my cheek and the other behind my neck.
“Yeah I’m fine, just…Sore.” I admitted, a blush creeping it’s way onto my cheeks. When I said this, Alex’s face went from concerned to smug. “Shut up.” I mumbled even though he hadn’t said anything. I jumped up and pulled my pants on quickly so that he didn’t have too much time to stare at my ass even though I know he did. After that, I went ahead and spent a bit more time putting my tunic on just to tease him before winking at him and striding out of the room. With every step pain flared but 1. I was very good at hiding it, I was forced to hide things like this for years, and 2. I liked it. It was weird because I’d never liked the pain before but now I did. It was a constant reminder of what Alex and I had done, not that I could ever forget anyway. I received his breakfast from the kitchen and hurried back up the stairs. Alex was in the process of slowly putting his tunic, teasing me in the same way I had teased him.
“Lex.” I whined.
“What I’m not allowed to tease you?” He waltzed over to me confidently and pulled on my tunic shirt, making my body sway close to his as he kissed me.
“I’ve gotta go.” I mumbled after a few minutes of sweet kisses. He sighed and released me after giving me one last kiss and watched me exit.

Notes

Title cred: Tenerife Sea by Ed Sheeran

aww fluff