Kiss and Sell

Alex ran out of the bathroom without looking back only to run right into someone. He gasped as he fell back on his ass and looked up to see Josh standing above him. Tears started to fall faster down his face as he stared up in horror. Josh's face retorted from anger to sympathetic as he sighed and reached down to take Alex's hand. Alex flinched -pulling his arms up to shield his face as he said, "Please don't! I-I'm sorry! Please!"

Josh stepped back slightly -as if the fear in Alex's shaky voice suddenly just hit him. Before he'd always ignore how Alex looked whenever he and Oli were messing with him. They'd always pretend it was a joke with Alex. He never really thought he was affecting the boy so bad. That is, until they raped him. That was completely different. Josh had been thinking about it for so long now. It's haunted his dreams. He's been slowly sinking into a guilty depression. The only reason he had did it was because at first it was funny, laughing with Oli like they always did as they tormented people's lives, and picking on their favorite prey was mostly to impress Oliver, but now it was going too far. Josh was getting sick of himself and Oli as well.

He averted his eyes as he felt tears weld up in them for a moment -reaching up to wipe them away as he mumbled, "Alex..." Quietly. Alex looked up at him hesitantly, scooting back slightly as he watched Josh step forward, "Let me help you up."

"Why?" Alex asked -a surprised expression crossing his face as he hesitated, "Y-you hate me."

"I don't hate you. I... I just..." He sighed as he reached down to help Alex up gently. The boy was shaking in fear. He backed up from Josh -looking up at him like he was some kind of monster. Josh was disgusted with himself, "I'm just an idiot." He sighed.

Alex's face changed from fear to anger, "You raped me." He hissed -his voice cracking, "Do you even realize what that did to me?!" He exclaimed.

"I... I'm so sorry." Josh whispered -unable to meet Alex's gaze, "I don't know what I was thinking. I... I don't know why I listen to Oli sometimes. I, I honestly didn't want to do it. I mean... I-"

"That's suppose to make it better?!" Alex cried -his voice cracking again as tears started running down his face, "What am I supposed to do when I want to get married? How am I supposed to explain to the person I love that having my pants ripped off triggers me because a couple of bullies from high school raped me? Do you actually expect that person to be okay with it?! How do I even know that he'll still love me after I tell him?! You ruined my life!" He screamed.

"Alex, I'm so sorry. I never meant any of this to happen to you-" Josh began.

"Hey!" Alex could hear Danny cry from down the hallway. He glared as he waited for Danny to run up to him -watching as Josh backed away quickly. He turned his face in Danny's shoulder as he wrapped a protective arm around his waist, "Stay away form him!" He yelled at Josh who was already jogging away. He stopped at the end of the hallway to glance back at Alex before he disappeared completely.

"Are you okay, Lex?" Danny asked -turning to him to look at his face, "He didn't hurt you did he?"

Alex shook his head as he averted his eyes to the ground, "No. He... He was actually apologizing."

"What?" Danny asked -furrowing his brow, "Apologizing for what he did to you?" He asked making Alex nod, "What did you say."

"I told him it didn't make up for anything." Alex mumbled. He was angry, of course he was, but he couldn't help but remember how guilty Josh looked. He sighed quietly and looked up at Danny, "Should I have forgave him?" He asked.

"Of course not, baby. You have every right to hate that disgusting prick." He cupped Alex's cheek while brushing a tear from his face. Alex nodded slowly -leaning into his touch as he stared into Danny's eyes. He ignored everything happening around him for a moment as Danny gently pulled him closer -the hand on his waist slipping to the small of his back. Alex was too exhausted to realize what Danny was doing as he tugged him down and planted his lips against his. Just in time for Jack to walk by, avert his eyes to the ground, and walk away.

Alex pushed Danny back roughly and glared, "Dude! Stop! I don't like you that way, okay? Just get over it!" He growled. He was fucking sick of being used for everyone's pleasure. He turned away and walked down the hall while flipping Danny off and turning the corner right into Cass. He was bumping into everyone today.

Quickly, he grabbed her waist to keep her from running off and said, "I'm sorry, but stop pretending to be mad at me. Jack already told me you aren't. I know I shouldn't have went off on you yesterday like that because you were trying to help me, but I thought it was obvious that I didn't want help. My dad beats me, Cass. He has for a long time." He said before sighing and mumbling, "I was scared, I didn't want to be hurt and I didn't want Jack to be hurt. That's the real reason we can't be friend's anymore because my dad threatened me. But I didn't think I could possibly hurt you too, but I did and I was a dick and I'm sorry. So stop. Just stop. I need you more than anything and not being able to talk to you right now is fucking killing me. Please, please, please just be my friend again?" He begged.

Cass wrapped her arms around his neck quickly and tugged him down to a tight hug, "I'm so sorry Lex. I didn't even realize... I'm so so sorry. Why didn't you just tell me?"

"I didn't want you to judge me or feel bad for me because you thought I was abused or something." He mumbled as he squeezed Cass before pulling away to look down at her, "And I've really gotta tell you something."

"What is it?" She asked.
"Danny just kissed me." He blurted before sighing, "And I think he's got a major crush on me now. Like worst than Jack." He said -chuckling slightly at the Jack reference.

"He kissed you? Oh my god, what did you do?" She gasped as they turned to walk wherever she was heading in the beginning before they bumped into each other.

"I pushed him away, duh, and you know how I'm kind of bullied by those two guys. Josh and Oli?" He asked making Cass nod, "Well before Danny kissed me I ran into Josh and he started apologizing to me and... I... I told him I didn't forgive him pretty much and I kind of feel bad because he looked really guilty... I dunno..." He sighed.

"Maybe you could go and talk to him about it." Cass suggested, "It'd probably make you both feel better, you know." She added -nudging Alex before glancing back, "I've got art so I'll see you later, okay?"

"Mhm." He mumbled before hugging her again and whispering, "Thanks for being my friend again."

"Just don't be a dick to me." She joked before smiling at him and kissing his cheek.

Alex sighed as she closed the door behind her and began to walk to his own class. He felt like everything was a domino -falling and knocking down other dominoes. Soon he'd be the last domino and his life would crash down with him -destroying everything he ever tried so hard to build up. He felt not only like a failure for being so helpless and stuck what with his father controlling everything he did and him letting him out of fear, but he also felt worthless and used. He wanted to change. He was going to change.

Notes

do you guys think Alyx shood forgive josh or naw

you guys are gonna hate me for the next chapter, but love me for the one after that maybe. I dunno. I'm not you. Halla.