Kiss and Sell

Alex knew just by the dirty looks Rian gave him during class that Cass had totally told him how much of a dick he had been to her. He regretted being so horrible, of course, and tried to apologize to her but she had pretty much ignored him even with his persistent apology and even a few stray tears which meant Alex was currently hiding out in the bathroom -trying to avoid everyone as he pathetically sobbed into his hands after finding his old stash of drinks and gulping down every bit of alcohol he could get his hands on. Usually he was a happy, giggly drunk, but because he was upset before the booze just made it worst.

He was sobbing in that disgusting, snotty kind of way and didn't care. He was drowning out the sounds by his hands and knees and was happy no one was in there because he honestly sounded like he was dying and not to mention he was sitting in something that could possibly be a stain of urine. He didn't care though not until the door opened and someone walked into the bathroom.

He looked up to meet eyes with a familiar brown pair and that just broke him even more. Another heart wrenching sob cut through Alex's sore throat at the sight of the younger boy who hesitantly walked forward.

"Lex?" He mumbled -unsure of the boy's state, "A-are you okay?"

"Get away!" Alex exclaimed in a choking sob, "Just go away, Jack! Go far, far away and never come back! I h-hate you!" He wailed.

Jack sighed -averting his eyes to the floor as he listened to Alex scream curse words and bawl towards him -every second of it breaking Jack's heart even more than it already was. To be honest, Jack was taking this all harder than he let on. He had fell into a depression again and his once only scarred thighs were now cut up once again. Thankfully, Jack had learned his lesson and made sure the cuts weren't deep and only used with dull razors. It helped more than Jack thought it would. He watched Alex slowly calm down enough for him to step to the wall and slide down beside him. Alex weakly pushed him away -still sobbing and hiccuping and being plain miserable while Jack slid closer to him and gently scooped him up in his arms. Alex allowed it because he wasn't exactly in any state of mind to think rationally and pressed his face against Jack's chest -basking in the sound of his breathing and heartbeat as he continued to cry.

"I heard about Cass..." Jack mumbled.

"I didn't mean it!" Alex sobbed, "I hate myself! I don't hate her! I could never hate her! I-I-I-"

"Shhh." Jack said as he stroked Alex's hair comfortingly, "She knows you didn't mean it, Alex. She wants to be friends again she just wanted you to feel bad for a little bit longer. I don't think she realized it'd get this bad." He sighed -breathing in Alex's scent while squeezing him a little tighter in his arms, "Don't cry anymore, okay? You guys are still friends, I promise."

"H-he-he's g-gonna ki-kill you." Alex whimpered -clutching Jack's shirt as he tried to keep Jack from looking at his face while Jack reached down and pulled his chin up anyways.

"Who?" Jack asked as he stared into Alex's eyes -giving him a sympathetic look as more tears fell down his face. He attempted to wipe them away but Alex just pushed him away stubbornly.

"P-P-Peter." Alex said -calming down slightly so he was only coughing occasionally from his sore throat and his body was shaking slightly. Jack wasn't sure what from but still he wrapped his arms around him tighter and hoped his body heat would warm him and stop the shiver he hated so much.

"Peter isn't going to kill me, Dimples." Jack mumbled into his hair, "If anything, being away from you is going to kill me, and nobody is actually keeping you away from me but you." He said.

"I-it's not me!" Alex cried -pushing against Jack's chest while the taller just drowned him in hugs. Alex liked the feeling of Jack holding him, comforting him, but he didn't want to show it so he continued to push at him and kick his legs -trying to pull away from Jack as he whimpered, "I did it for you! I di-di-didn't want you t-to get hu-urt!"

Jack sighed as he let his grip loosen slightly, looking down at Alex who moved his face so it was being hidden in Jack's chest -only occasionally glancing up through his wet eyelashes, "Peter isn't going to do shit, Alex. He's not going to hurt me. He just wants to scare you." He said firmly.

Alex turned his face further into Jack's chest -his voice muffled as he said, "Y-you do-don't know that. H-he could k-kill you. H-he even knows your n-name. I-I don't want you t-to g-get hurt. I-I l-lo-lo-" He was cut off by the door being opened and Danny walking in. He looked surprised as he noticed the two a heap on the floor and averted his eyes as he said, "Oh, sorry." But he wasn't really all that sorry. He had heard most all of their conversation. He couldn't stand hearing Alex almost confess his love to Jack. He couldn't stand that Jack was the one to comfort him when he didn't even deserve Alex.

Alex -snapping out of his miserable state -pushed out of Jack's lap and Jack's arms and stood up to run away from the bad boy who stared after him. Jack sighed quietly -glancing at Danny who apologized again while turning to use a urinal despite not really needing to piss. Jack stood up -completely ready to chase after Alex -when suddenly Danny said, "You know he's really been looking like shit lately."

"Uh, yeah I guess he has." They hadn't really not been friends for very long, so Jack wasn't sure what Danny was trying to imply about Alex looking like shit recently.

Danny turned around the lean against the wall while crossing his arms and muttering, "He's been even more depressed... He always looks so frustrated and hurt... I dunno, dude... Ever since you got out of the hospital it's like it's been taking a tole on him. He looks so battered now. I guess stress is getting to him. Since, you know, you guys always got drama going on... Alex can't handle that shit. He doesn't like drama." Danny's gaze soon found Jack -staring deeply into his eyes while letting his words sink in.

"I don't think we make that much drama between each other." Jack admitted, crossing his arms over his chest as well. He couldn't tell if Danny was implying it was his fault Alex was miserable, but it sure did sound like it. Danny's gaze could easily be mistook as a glare, but Jack decided to ignore it in favor of letting the boy continue with, "Alex deserves to be stress free, don't you think? After everything he's gone through?"

"I'll see to it that he is, then." Jack muttered.

"How?" Danny asked, "You're not even allowed to be around each other." He shrugged, "It seems to me it'd be better to keep it that way." He glanced at Jack to see his reaction -backing up slightly to make sure he had room to run if need be.

"What are you trying to say? Alex obviously is worst without me." Jack growled. He could feel himself starting to get angry. The only thing keeping him from beating the shit out of Danny at the moment was the fact that they were sort of friends and that Alex would be pissed if he did.

"Is he? You do realize he was drunk. He's an emotional drunk. You wouldn't know that, though, of course. You're never there for him -not just when he's drunk either. You haven't been for the past four years. It wasn't until a few months ago that you two started getting close, and a few months ago that Alex started drinking worst, getting high, and getting mixed up with fucked up people."

"You can't seriously blame all of that on me." Jack scoffed, "Alex was going through stuff. He still is."

"Yeah, like you'd know what kind of shit he was going through." Danny scoffed -rolling his eyes at Jack who gritted his teeth angrily. He was seriously starting to get sick of Danny.

"I've been there for Alex more than you think." Jack spat.

"Then I guess you know what happened with Oli and Josh, am I right?" Danny asked -smirking at Jack as his face flashed a confused look.

"O-of course I do." Jack said -voice less firm than before, "They've been bullying him for a long time now. He's always come to me about everything."

"Oh really? Then why don't you tell me exactly what they did." Danny hissed and when Jack fell silent he laughed, "I knew you didn't know. That's not the only thing you don't know about, believe me. Alex doesn't like you, Jack. He likes the thought of you. Being with the bad boy of school has always been his dream. You would know, wouldn't you? That's the only reason you started acting like a dick, isn't it? Because he said in the ninth grade he liked bad boys." Danny smirked at him as Jack blushed, "You're not as tough as you act. You might as well give up on him because he's never going to love you the way you love him. Not in your wildest dreams." He growled.

Jack seemed to deflate slightly as he bowed his head. Danny walked away -pleased with himself -while Jack let everything sink in. Danny was right. Alex didn't love him. He never would. Not how Jack loved him. Jack wasn't good for him and Alex wasn't good for Jack. They'd be better apart. Alex would find someone to make him happy eventually; someone who would make him better and help him unlike Jack who just kicked him when he was down, told him what to do, and beat him like his father. He only hurt him more and more, and because Jack loved him he was going to let him go. Maybe someone who's good for Alex would swoop in and sweep him off his feet and it would all be because Jack stepped back and let them. Jack would be letting Alex finally get the help he needed, but then who would help Jack?

Notes

Halla at another update ;D

Danny the dick ;-;

The party is going to be soon maybe.. I'm not sure I can't remember what i wrote xD. But if it is the next chapter prepare for a nice ass chapter ;DDDDDDDD (If it's not prepare for some Cass and Alex love friendship highfives and stuff I cant remember if I put it first or not xD)