Kiss and Sell

He hadn't talked to him since he spoke and Alex was utterly pissed about it. He knew he could talk, and Jack knew that he knew he could talk, so why was he ignoring him again? But at the moment Alex could say he was able to forget about being mad as he was snuggled deep into Jack's side on Jack's bed. His head was rested on Jack's bicep that he had stuck under a pillow (which was probably numb but not that Jack cared because he hadn't been able to feel the arm since he got home from the hospital), and Alex's hand was resting contently on Jack's chest right over his heart. Alex could feel Jack staring at him so he looked up at him with a small smile. Jack must have thought he was asleep because his eyes widened and he blushed.

"You're staring at me." Alex stated before reaching up to cup Jack's cheek, "I guess you do it a lot, though, huh?" He smiled while running his thumb over Jack's pink cheekbone. He leant forward and pressed a kiss to Jack's chin, "I'd stare at me too if I were you!" Alex laughed making Jack roll his eyes while Alex shuffled forward and pressed a firm kiss to his Adam's apple.

Jack rolled over onto his back suddenly, pulling Alex into his lap and pressing the pads of his thumbs into Alex's hips. Alex gasped as Jack sat up slightly and pressed a gentle kiss to his lips, but it soon turned into slotting their lips together because Alex's kisses were most certainly addictive, and Alex would admit Jack's were too. This was completely new for Alex with Jack. Before Jack would only allow short kisses to be shared. Alex has never made out with him.

Their chests collided and pressed flush together as Alex softly rolled his hips down against Jack's. Alex wasn't much for grinding. He was the 'hurry up and fuck so I can get off' kind of guy, and never took time to actually feel his body against someone else's. Jack's thumbs pressed hard into his bones and Alex knew they were leaving oval shaped bruises there, and for the first time in Alex's entire life he actually wanted them there. His hands roamed up and down Jack's chest as he ground down into his lap.

They both were softly mewing into each other's mouth and each one that got louder from Jack was turning Alex on even more. They separated for a second to catch their breath before Alex leant back down and pressed their lips together again. He licked Jack's bottom lip, catching it between his teeth to tug softly as Jack gasped in pleasure and rutted his hips up roughly. Alex slipped his tongue into his mouth -lapping at Jack's teeth as Jack shivered.

It was exactly what Alex wanted. He was finally getting somewhere with Jack. Their tongues clashed and fought until Alex finally gave in and Jack's tongue began to slowly massage Alex's. Their breathy, muffled moans were the only sound besides the soft background noise of the television in the entire room. Their hips rocked against each other and Alex could feel Jack's hard on against his ass.

Jack groaned and to Alex it sounded impatient and needy, probably because he was turned on and couldn't do anything about it so Alex decided to help him with it -slowly moving his hand down Jack's side and to his crotch making Jack gasp and sit up. He pushed Alex off of him and scrambled off the bed and into the bathroom, slamming the door behind him and locking it.

He stayed in there for two hours.

When Jack finally came out he had his head bowed like he felt ashamed or maybe he was just embarrassed. Alex could feel how awkward it was between them, the tension in the air so thick you could cut it with a knife. He gave him a questioning look as he stepped forward only to have Jack back away, like he was threatening to run back into his hiding place, which had Alex frowning and asking, "What did I do wrong?"

But Jack didn't answer him, like he hasn't since he's got out of the hospital, and Alex immediately furrowed his brow as he cried, "What is it?! Just fucking tell me!" Jack kept silent and Alex didn't know why but it stung that he wouldn't talk to him. He felt tears welding up in his eyes and slowly drip down his face as he said, "Just say it! I know you can!"

Jack averted his eyes to the ground and Alex stepped forward and pushed him gently, "Talk to me!" and as Jack did nothing he pushed him harder. Jack's back hit the wall and he grunted, pushing Alex back and gasping as the boy stumbled back. It was like a flash of recognition crossed his face then.

"Talk to me, dammit!" Alex cried, but it was weak as whimpers began to slip out of his mouth. The tears were streaming down his face as he punched Jack in the chest weakly. Jack grabbed his wrist and yanked him into his chest. Alex buried his face into Jack's shirt while whimpering quietly.

"I missed you too." Jack finally whispered, clutching the slighter boy closer, "While I was in... While I was asleep all I could do was th-think about you and how I'd never see you again. I-it didn't feel very long but I knew my body was dying a-and I wanted to see you so bad, but it was like I couldn't see anything but myself..."

Alex looked up, "Wh-why did you do it?" Alex asked before shaking his head and pushing back, "Did you throw yourself down the stairs? Did you... Were you doing this because of me? W-what were you thinking?!" He whimpered.

Jack opened and closed his mouth before saying, "I was so scared of losing you-"

"Did you do it?!" Alex exclaimed.

Jack fell completely silent. He didn't know how to answer. He couldn't answer.

"Why did you make me wait this long? Why are you suddenly talking? Why are you making things worst?!" Alex cried, punching Jack again and then pushing him roughly.

"I-I c-couldn't remember!" Jack answered, "I couldn't remember who you were or why you were so upset with me and I didn't want to make it worst o-or for you to hate me. So... I'm sorry. I'm fucking sorry I ruined your life." He hissed the last part, averting his eyes from Alex's watering ones. He couldn't stand seeing Alex crying.

"You asshole!" Alex cried, "Why didn't you just tell me you couldn't remember?! W-when did you even start to remember? Do you even remember?" He asked.

"A second ago." Jack said quickly, "When I pushed you. I-I don't know why, but I just started remembering and..." He trailed off. He didn't know what to say at all. He was so overwhelmed with memories suddenly flashing through his head, he almost felt light-headed. He stared at Alex who bit his lip and asked, "So, that entire time I was just a stranger to you?... Everything I said was just... Gibberish?" He looked slightly hurt.

"But I get it now!" Jack assured quickly, "Everything makes sense now, Lexy, please don't think I wasn't listening." He stepped forward to hug him, but Alex turned away and shook his head.

"And you just let me pretty much dry hump you without even really knowing me?" He asked slowly. Jack was sure Alex was mad at him now. He hung his head and felt kind of like an idiot but then Alex was turning around and smirking at him while saying, "You're such a slut."

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