Slight trigger warning: small mention of self harm.

Alex's POV:

It's been six months since I started going to therapy. Jack's always come with me but it's nice because he offers me support and he also gets to chat with Jeff and they can catch up on how Jack's doing too. I've not self harmed in a little over four months now and, honestly, I do feel a lot better for it. I don't have to worry about them bleeding onto my clothes and I don't have to worry about hiding them either. Things still aren't brilliant with my mum and I though. I'm still living with Jack which, don't get me wrong, is amazing, but I miss her. I miss her hugs, her smile, the way she would comfort me if I was upset or scared. I miss her laugh, her home-made lasagne, her absolutely vile cups of tea she used to make me but, hey, we're British so you can excuse the whole cups of tea thing. I just miss her in general. I've tried on many occasions to go and talk to her, some times with Jack some on my own, and every time she's asked if Jack and I are still together and then slams the door in my face when she receives the same answer every time: "yes." I've been back to my house once and that was to collect a few more of my belongings. She let me in then, but I had a maximum of ten minutes and Jack had to stay outside. I have no idea why she's behaving like this. She's always been supportive of my sexuality, so why is she being like this towards Jack and I? I don't know for sure but what I do know is I want my mum back.

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It's one week till Jack and I graduate from high school for good. We've finished our exams so we don't actually have to go into that place any more. Well, apart from our graduation day, but that's an exception. We've all been told that we have to write our speeches for when we accept our exam results and graduate for good. Our speeches were not going well.

Jack and I were sprawled out on his floor with a notepad in front of each of us. Jack had been repeatedly slamming his head onto the floor, muttering a string of curses as he went. I just resorted to biting the end of my pen until I thought of something appropriate to say.
"Jay, stop slamming your head on the floor, you're going to hurt yourself."
The first few times were understandable, and actually quite funny, but after a solid five minutes, I thought I'd intervene before he did major damage.
"But, Lex, all I've got is 'peace out, fuckers.'"
I chuckled at Jack's bluntness.
"You can't say that, Jay."
"Of course I can, it's not like they can throw me out when it's our graduation day."
"Fair point, but you still can't say that."
Jack huffed and slammed his head down on his notepad once more. That's when an idea came into my head.

I crawled over to Jack, who still had his head on his notepad in front of him.
"Maybe you need a...distraction."
I whispered in his ear, horny Alex immediately coming out from behind the every-day Alex. I nibbled slightly on his ear lobe, dragging it between my teeth. Jack's head snapped up from the notepad. I cupped his face with my hands and connected our lips. The kiss was slow and passionate at first but it soon turned into a heated make out on the floor, me lying on top of Jack, applying pressure to his semi with my knee. He moaned into my mouth, sending vibrations down my tongue.
"Lex...where is this going?"
His voice was hoarse and filled with lust. Where did I want this to go? We had been together for well over eight months now, but am I ready to go all the way? I decided that I wasn't quite ready yet but I had a growing issue in my pants that needed sorting.
"Um, not all the way, if that's okay with you? Maybe, just let me be in charge?"
Jack grinned below me and nodded. I wanted to go all the way but I just felt like I would chicken out. I wanted to be sure that I wouldn't before I went ahead and agreed to anything. I crashed our lips together once again, immediately snaking my tongue into Jack's mouth. I ground down on Jack's crotch, making us both moan from the sudden friction caused.
"Too. Much. Clothing." Jack said between kisses.
I hummed, agreeing with Jack's statement. I pulled away from the kiss to pull off Jack's shirt. I could never get over how skinny he was but at the same time, I love it. He ate so much but he never seemed to gain weight. I loved it though. I love him. I whipped off my own shirt before lying back down on Jack, propping myself up on my elbows. I dipped my head and attached my lips to his sweet spot, Jack moaned, not bothering to hold it back, throwing his head back in the process. I smirked against his neck, having a pretty good idea where I was now going to take this. I unbuttoned his jeans and slide them down his legs, leaving him to kick them off, before doing the same myself. Only a two thin sheets of cotton were now separating our, now fully hard, dicks. I ground down, once again, relishing in the feeling of pure ecstasy it gave me. I slid my hand down into his boxers and wrapped my hand around his dick, starting to pump almost instantly.
"Unnnff, Lex...Don't stop."
I smirked, knowing what exactly I was going to do. I pulled Jack's boxers down, exposing him completely.
"Jay, do you trust me?"
"Of course, Lex."
I ran my thumb over his slit, making him buck his hips.
"Good, can I try something then?"
Jack nodded as I ran my thumb over his slit again, making him moan like he was paid. I took my hand away from Jack's member, now slicked with pre-cum.
"Lex, what are you-" Jack cut himself off with a moan.
Whilst Jack was distracted by the lack of touching, I'd licked my index finger and slid it into him. I'd heard that fingering is amazing, so I thought Id give it a go...
"Lex, this...this feels w-weird but s-so good."
Jack bucked his hips once more.
"Ready for another?"
Jack nodded. I pulled my finger out completely before licking my middle finger and sliding them both back in slowly. Jack hissed slightly as he adjusted to the new sensation. I started to jerk Jack off again trying to distract him from the pain. I started to move my fingers inside Jack, bending and curling them in various angles.
"L-Lex...another, p-please."
I obliged to Jack request, the sight before me making it hard to not just release there and then in my boxers.
"Fuck."
"Sorry, Jay, I didn't know it would hurt that much..."
A small blush tinted my cheeks. I honestly didn't know it would hurt this much. Of course, I'd heard that it does hurt slightly but I never thought it would be to this extent.
I began to curl my fingers once more, pushing them in further slightly in search for that one spot that I knew I had to look for. I bent my fingers to the left, hitting something as I did so.
"AHHH OH MY FUCK, LEX, THERE AGAIN PLEASE!"
Found it. I kept hitting that spot again, timing my hand with each hit. Jack was panting now, his body covered in a thin layer of sweat.
"C-close, Lex."
I sped up my movements, wanting to make Jack feel as good as I possibly can. Within seconds Jack came over his stomach and my hand. I pulled out of Jack and crawled back to him between his legs. I reached his stomach. I looked up at Jack through my eyelashes seeing his eyes pooled with love, lust and passion. I licked Jack's stomach clean, not one breaking eye contact. I slid back up to Jack, our faces millimetres apart.
"Was that o-okay?"
"More than that, Lex. A hell of a lot more than just okay."
I chuckled at Jack's reaction before connecting our lips again.
"I love you, Lex." Jack murmured against my lips.
"I love you too." Replying in the same fashion.
Jack flipped up over so I was now underneath him. He propped himself up on his elbows, like I had previously done. He removed my boxers and bit his lip in the way that drove me beyond crazy.
"My turn to make you feel good, Lexxy."

Notes

Hi,
I'm sorry the time lapse thing at the start was shit but it had to happen.
Surprise smut too...aha, I didn't warn you guys, I don't even know why you'd need warning though: smut is not something to be warned about, more celebrated.

Thanks again for reading, there'll be another update again later on tonight so, yeah.

Em x