Trigger warning- talk of self harm and eating disorders.

Jack's POV:

Alex and I had been back home for an hour now. Neither of us had spoken a word to each other, the only sounds were the occasional slurps as we drank our coffees but they soon ran dry. I could feel the tension in the air. Alex kept opening his mouth as if to say something but just kept closing it in defeat. I couldn't sit like this for much longer.
"Alex...I'm sorry."
My voice was barely above a whisper but not quiet enough to hide the slight crack as I spoke. Alex's head snapped up, his eyebrows drawn together in confusion.
"Why are you sorry, Jay?"
Alex scooted closer to me, wrapping me in a sideways hug. I immediately felt better, being in his arms just made all the worries in the world disappear, for me it did anyway.
"Because...I didn't tell you. Instead I took the piss out of you, I tormented you and bullied you for something that I'd previously done...I was a fucking dickhead and I'm really fucking sorry that I hid it from you. I should've told you when you first opened up to me."
Alex sighed and shifted slightly.
"I'm not going to lie to you here: you were a complete asshole but that doesn't matter any more. Why? Because I have you and that's all that matters. You don't have to tell me if you're not comfortable doing so, but just know that I'll always love you, no matter what."
I nodded. I knew I had to tell him, it's the least I could do for going through with therapy today.
"Umm, well, ok. So You know about the little thing between Oli and I..."

-

After some time, I'd done telling Alex everything. And by everything, I literally mean everything; I didn't leave one detail out. Alex held me the entire time, rubbing circles with his thumb into my side. Alex didn't say anything for a few minutes. The silence was interrupted by a choked sob coming from the boy beside me.
"Lex? Why are you crying?"
"I-I just...What if you hadn't made it? What would've happened?"
"I don't know, Lex, but I really don't want to think about it...We've got each other now and that's all that should matter."
I felt Alex nod against my neck, making me shudder slightly as his hair tickled my neck.
"I just c-can't believe that you were hospitalised for anorexia...I mean, you're still pretty thin now, like scarily thin, but I never thought..."
Alex trailed off. I felt a few more fresh tears run down my neck.
"I didn't realise how bad I'd actually got, Lex. And, if I'm totally honest with you, I'm a little worried that you're heading the same way."
I looked down into my lap, trying to hide my slight embarrassment, even though Alex's head was still firmly tucked into the crook of my neck. Again, a silence filled the room before Alex sniffed and spoke again.
"I-I'm worried t-too."
My head snapped up...he said that it was normal for him to not be all that hungry to Jeff, why is he worried if it's normal for him?That's when it hit me. Alex rarely eats, and when he does he just picks at his food or pushes it around so it looks like he's actually eaten something.
"Lex, you're not, um, throwing up after you're eating, are you?"
I didn't dare speak above a whisper, in fear of breaking Alex even further.
"N-no. I've t-tried before b-but I couldn't b-bring myself t-to actually do i-it."
I let out a breath I didn't realise I was holding in.
"Good. Promise me something?"
Alex hummed in response.
"Promise me you'll never do it? And also, promise me that you'll stick at therapy. Jeff really did help me and he can get you out of this, just like he did with me."
Alex seemed to ponder over the promise in his mind. He held out his pinky finger and linked it with mine.
"I promise."
"I love you so much, Lexxy."
I combed my fingers through his caramel hair as I felt Alex relax further into my side.
"I love you too, Jay."
Alex lifted his head to meet mine. Our lips brushed together briefly before Alex brought a hand up to the base of my neck to push our lips together properly. I don't think I'll ever get used to his kisses. Butterflies erupted in my stomach each and every time we kissed, even if it was just a small peck. I'm pretty sure that I want to spend the rest of my days with Alex.

Notes

Hey,
I'm really sorry that it's short and a little shitty but...yeah, I don't really have an excuse apart from I'm really tired and I've just got a lot on my mind. I'l definitely update at least twice tomorrow though, I promise.

I also noticed that this is like third on the popular page, so thank you so much because it's just incredible.

Just quickly though, how would you guys feel if I maybe did a time lapse to like Jack and Alex's graduation? I know these aren't brilliant but I'm just struggling with moving this story on. I have it all planned out though, it's just getting there that's the problem.

Thanks for reading, it means a lot to me.
Em x