Sick Little Games

Jack's POV:

"WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE, JACK?!" Well, at least he's pleased to see me.
"I could say the same to you. After all, I have known Rian a lot longer than you have." I retorted, my voice remaining calm.
"If you're here to give me another sob story about 'sorry' you are then save it: I don't want to hear it, Jack."
"DAMMIT TO HELL, LEX, CAN'T YOU JUST HEAR ME OUT?" I raised my voice, for no apparent reason, it seems, because Alex was remaining perfectly calm.
"Don't call me that." Alex mumbled, looking down at the carpet of which he was sat cross-legged on.
"Well fucking listen to me then!" Alex sighed in defeat, lowering his head a little more.
"Go on then, if you must." I could sense the impatience in his voice.
"Le-Alex, I really am so fucking sorry. For everything. I should never have called you a faggot, I certainly shouldn't have done what I did to you last week in the street and I shouldn't have been an all-round dick to you."
"Damn fucking right you shouldn't have. Do you have any idea how that made me feel, Jack? Any ide-"
"Alex, please. Just listen, yeah?" I dropped down to the floor to sit opposite him and made a gesture for Rian, who was still sat next to Alex, to give us some space. Rian got up, patted Alex on the back and left, closing the door behind him.
"Alex, I do have my reasons why I said and did those things. It's not an excuse, by any sense of the word, but it's a reason that I hope you'll understand. Alex...I'm gay too. I've known for a few years now. I told my friend, Oli, about two years ago and he, well I know Rian told you so I won't go into any detail about it. He basically said it was wrong and I was disgusting. I believed him and made a promise to myself that I would never think of guys in that way. I had a crush, back then, on this guy called Vic." My voice cracked at the mention of his name, causing Alex's head to bolt up and look at me, directly into my eyes. "I've never felt this way about anyone after Vic left. That is, until you started. I know it's only been a week but I like you, Alex, I really do."
"That still doesn't explain why you were such a dick to me."
"I guess I was trying to get myself to hate you. I thought that maybe if I hated you, I would stop myself from falling for you. It didn't work, obviously." I shuffled closer to Alex so out knees were now touching.
"Alex, I'm sorry. I don't know how I could say it to get you to believe me. Alex, please? Forgive me?" My voice dwindled down to an almost silent whisper.
"I don't know, Jack, I really don't. You-you saw what I do to myself. I'm not going to lie, I did cut because of what you said to me on Monday night. I hated myself for letting you get to me. I moved here to get away from all the shit that was going in back home. I thought that this would be a new start, but look what happened. I don't think I could ever fully forgive you, Jack."
"Please, Alex. I've changed. I'm not afraid to be who I truly am anymore. I came out to my mum last night, I came to school as myself today. Look," I gestured down to my skinny jeans and Green Day shirt, "Alex, these are girl's jeans for fuck sake. I'm so fucking sorry and I want us to be friends, at least."
"At least? What do you mean 'at least'?" I looked down, a blush rising rapidly to my already rose-tinted cheeks. "Jack?"
"Ermm, well, um, you know h-how I like y-you...I j-just thought that we could, you know, one day."
"Ahaha, you seriously thought? Oh my god, Jack, fucking hell fire!"
"Alex, please don't laugh." I started to shuffle closer to Alex, if that was even possible and I started to lean in. "I like you, Alex. I like the way your hair bounces slightly when you walk, I like the way your eyes light up when you talking about stuff you like," I carried on leaning in and Alex's face started to match the colour of mine: red, "I like the way you swing your hips slightly when you walk." Our lips were now touching, our eyes staring into each other's, and I mumbled the last part again his soft lips."I like you." I crashed my lips with his, letting my eyes flutter shut. They were warm, soft and just amazing to feel against my own. He froze, I carried on working my lips against his, I lifted my hand up to his jaw line and started to stroke his soft face with my thumb. Alex started to move his lips with mine, butterflies erupted in my stomach, fireworks going off behind me eyes. He's actually kissing me back! I never wanted this moment to end. Right now could last forever, just as long as I'm with Alex.

Alex's POV:

He started to lean in. He's actually going to kiss me! I was shocked, I froze. I couldn't hear what he was saying, all I saw was his lips moving rapidly as he still carried on leaning towards me. His lips brushed against mine, I still sat there, frozen. I felt his hand hold my jaw and his thumb started to stroke my cheek. I snapped back into reality, I start to move my lips against his. Oh my fucking god!! This felt amazing!! Butterflies erupted in my stomach, fireworks exploded in my head. I snapped back into reality.

I pushed Jack off me, his face betrayed hurt and rejection and his cheeks were painted cherry-red.
"WHAT THE FUCK?!" I yelled, jumping to my feet. "WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU WERE DOING?! I'M OUT OF HERE." I stormed out of Rian's bedroom leaving Jack sat on the carpet, I don't even think he moved. I stomped down the stairs, crashing into Rian.
"What happened, Alex?"
"THAT FUCKER KISSED ME!" I turned and left Rian's house, slamming the door as I left.

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