Me Without You

“This is our second to last song and it goes out to our long lost friend and most fantastic meet and greet co-ordinator, Jasey.” Alex yelled into the mic and I hid my head in my hands as I stood at the back of the stage next to Danny. “She wrote a lot of our early songs with me, so you guys can thank her for our success. She's gonna help Danny and Zack with backing vocals for some songs as well. Cassadee can't be on this tour with us so we're replacing her.” I waved to the screaming fans and
“Yeah, you guys know Mike's girlfriend? Well she was Alex's first.” Jack laughed and I yelled into my mic.
“I was no such thing, Jack! You shut your whore mouth!” The crowd burst into laughter and Alex strummed the first chord to Jasey Rae. I waved to Mike who had appeared side-stage and he raised an eyebrow at the sight of me standing in front of a microphone. I decided I could sit this song out, since it was about me anyway, and walked over to his waiting arms.
“What are you doing with Danny?” He asked as he kissed my forehead. I sighed and buried my head into his chest as All Time Low launched into the song.
“They pulled me into doing backing vocals. According to Zack it adds an extra depth to the songs they can't have usually.” Mike laughed and stroked my hair.
“So you're standing in for Cass?” I nodded and turned around so I could watch Alex sing to me. It was probably sending Mike crazy listening to this song, knowing exactly what it was about, how much pain it had caused me over the years. His arms tightened around me each time Alex looked toward me and I couldn't help but laugh. This situation was going to be horribly sticky. We stood there cuddling for the final song of All Time Low's set. I couldn't be bothered singing for Dear Maria. The band ran off stage as the curtains closed and the crews rushed around to switch to Pierce The Veils set.
“Did you like it?” Alex puffed as Mike ran off to help set the drums up. I sighed and flashed him an unimpressed look.
“Lex, Mike was there. I had to stand through Jasey Rae with my boyfriend, who damn well knew who that song was about.” Alex frowned and nodded.
“True, I'm sorry.” I gave him a quick kiss on the cheek when no one was looking before following Zack and Jack back to the bus. It was Grecio's birthday today so we had a big party planned with the bands and crews.
We had just finished fishing out every bottle of alcohol from every shop we could and setting them up in the bus when Jack grabbed my hand.
“I'm not going out there alone.” He laughed and pulled me out onto the street where the crowds of fans were screaming. Zack turned the bus stereo right up and we started jumping around like idiots to Blink-182. I was lifted off my feet as Alex joined us outside, spinning me in circles, and the Pierce The Veil crew soon followed. We dragged a couple of kids from the crowd in with us and danced around like idiots until the venue manager shut us down.
“Sorry guys! Thanks for the dance party though!” Mike yelled as we piled onto the bands bus, the crew filing in as the night continued.
“To Grecio! He's an old fucker! And to the start of a tour to remember!” Rian called from where he was standing, crouched, on the buses table.
“Happy birthday, Grecio!” We all cheered and knocked back our drinks. I climbed up the cupboards and pulled myself through the sky light and onto the roof of the bus. A bottle of Jack in my hand, I called down to Zack to pass me a guitar. A fret board quickly appeared out the skylight and I sat in a drunken daze strumming random chords to no one.
“We met when I was fifteen,
Foolish, young and baby,
We jumped right in the deep end,
We were lost in how easy it seemed.
A notebook full of songs that we were yet to write.
It was perfect, it was easy.
We were young, and we were naïve.

Staring into each other’s eyes we confess,
'Oh, I think I love you.
Darling, lets never be apart.
Things can be perfect form the start.
I have you, you have me,
We’ll never be just flashbacks and memories.'”

“That's a pretty one.” I jumped at the sound of Vic's voice as he scrambled through the sky light. “Mind if I join you?” I shook my head and picked away on the guitar, some song my subconscious told me to play nut one that I couldn't place. We sat in silence for a long while, placing stars among the smog of the city and the pollution of the lights.
“Vic, I love you. You know that?” I mumbled, strumming a couple of random chords.
“Of course. Jase, why do you ask?” He giggled, giving me a playful punch on the shoulder.
“Because I love you all, every single one of you. Jaime, Tony, you, Mike, Jack, Zack, Rian...”
“This is about Alex, isn't it?” Vic sighed, taking the guitar out of my hands and pulling me into his lap.
“I don't know how to deal with having him around. Every inch of me what’s to act exactly how feels right, how we always have acted, but I can't.” I groaned into Vic's chest.
“You can't act the same because of Mike.” I nodded. “And you wish that you hadn't said yes to Mike, because then you wouldn't be tied down and this tour would be so much easier. You could act the way you always have acted in the past with the All Time Low boys, you could still have fun with us and not have to worry about what any one thought, because you wouldn't be tied down.” Vic explained my thoughts to me and I stared up at him.
“How do you always know how I feel?” My words blended together in a tired drunken slur.
“Because I'm your best friend.” Vic brushed my hair off my face. “I also know that you will always love Alex more than you love Mike, and I have to be okay with knowing that. Because, even though I'm Mike's brother, I know that when he tried to get into this relationship with you he knew that that would probably always be the case. I love you Jasey, and I want you to be happy, but please don't go destroying the bands and Mike and Alex's lives in your quest for happiness, okay?” I gave a small acknowledging grunt and we made our way back into the bus, Vic getting in expertly and superbly, I... well I fell smack bang into a very intoxicated Alex. I quickly got to my feet and brushed myself off, Alex climbing onto the couch in search of some way to get himself balanced again.
“I haven't seen you all night!” He exclaimed. “It's three am, and everyone's gone to bed because it's a show tomorrow. The party's over and now you show up.” He cupped his cheek with my hand and leaned his forehead against mine. “Jasey. Let's have a sleepover!” I giggled and took another swig of my Jack, emptying the bottle.
“Oopsy, all gone.” I laughed and tossed the bottle in the sink. Alex grabbed my hand and led me into the back lounge, pulling out the sofa and turning it into a very small bed. I poked my head into mine and Alex's bunks, which Mike had conveniently allocated to be as far away from each other as possible, grabbed the blankets and threw them on the bed were Alex was lying in just his jeans. He patted the space next to him and I crawled in, burying myself under the covers.
“Night night, Jasey Rae.” Alex sang and I rolled over so I could look him in the eyes.
“Good night, Alexander. I like you a little bit.” I rolled onto my back and closed my eyes, the feeling of just how intoxicated I was hitting me with the stillness.
“I like you a little bit too.”


The sound of Jack shout-singing through the bus stirred me from my black-out sleep.
“It's the second day of tour, we're playing in L.A! We had a party last night and now two of us are missing! Two of us are missing! I wonder where they are?” I felt an arm snake around my waist and pull me against them.
“Mike, I'm not in the mood. I'm tired and hung over.” I groaned and buried my face in the pillow.
The hand quickly retracted and I jumped away from the voice that followed.
“You're not Lisa. Oh, shit. Jase, get up.” I scrambled out of the bed and stood staring at Alex. Oh god, this could be bad, this could be very, very bad.
“Oh no, no, no. Shit, Alex.” I started to panic and whipped the blankets off the bed so Alex could fold it back up. Jack's singing was right outside the door now and he flung himself into the room.
“Two are no longer missing.” He whispered and raised his eyebrows at us. “What the fuck, guys? Subtle much?” We flipped him off while he quickly shut the door. “You're lucky Mike is somehow still comatose.” We wrapped out blankets around ourselves like we had been in here just this morning after waking up or something an Alex flicked the T.V on just as Vic opened the door. He looked between Alex and I and gave me a disapproving look before turning to leave.
“Mike just woke up.” He sighed. I took this as my cue and hopped up from the couch.
“Now if you'll excuse me, I have a hung-over boyfriend to attend to.” I held my pounding head as I stumbled from the room. “And I'll try remember what happened last night, because I'm not too sure.”

Notes

Hi guys! So heres the next chapter! I hope you like it!
Uh the song Jasey sings is one of mine... all her songs will be my own cause I dont like stealing songs for my characters.
Anyway, let me know what you think!
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