Me Without You

~A Week Later, Salt Lake City~
“Jay?” I looked up from my laptop as Zack slid into the back room.
“Hey, Scraps, what’s up?” I shut the lid and slid it across the couch so Zack could sit next to me.
“I was wondering how you were doing? You’ve been quiet this week.” I ran a hand through my hair, I knew where this was going. “You’ve been avoiding everyone since you woke up with Alex. You’ve hardly spoken to everyone but Mike. You show your face to everyone else at shows and that’s it. We miss you, Jasey.” I sighed and leaned my head on Zack’s shoulder.
“I know, I just… It’s hard, y’know?” Zack wound his arm around my side. “I love Mike, he’s my best friend in the world, he’s always been there for me. But Alex, well, he’s Alex.” Zack nodded and I cuddled into his chest.
“Jasey, why did you pick Alex? Out of all of us?” I stared at Zack, was he serious right now? “I mean, we were all there for you, we all loved you, but you picked Alex. What was so great about Alex that you picked him over any one else?”
“Zack… well, Alex and I just click. To be honest, I could spend my life with any of you happily, but, well Alex made a move first and ever since then, I’ve kinda been his.” Zacks eyes clouded over and he shook his head.
“So your whole decision rides on who made a move first? Seriously?” I stood up and crossed my arms, glaring down at Zack.
“Don’t make this seem like some dumb eenie meenie miney mo shit. I fell in love with Alex before I fell in love with anyone else. He was the first guy I ever loved, there will always be a part of me that loves him. He was the first one out of all of you to kiss me and it took him three years. I hate to say it, but if any of you had plucked up the damn courage and fucking kissed me before him I’d probably be yours. I was torn by all of you trying to claim me, but none of you actually made a move, it was all just talk. Alex was the first one that actually tried to solidify a relationship.” Zack jumped to his feet and grabbed my face between his hands.
“I loved you too, Jasey. You want a solidification of a relationship?” He pressed his lips against mine and my whole body froze. “How’s that for making a move?” He pulled me against him and kissed me again. “Jasey, just try it. Try it or you’ll never know.” I let myself fall into it and wound my fingers in Zack’s hair. The kiss was nice, but there were no sparks. It was nothing like…
“What the fuck!” Alex screamed as the door flung open. “You’ve been hiding away back here for a week and now you’ve finally spoken to someone who wasn’t Vic or Mike you’re making out with Zack?” Alex’s face was bright red as he yelled and I pulled away from Zack.
“I didn’t want any of this!” I screamed. “You’re all so desperate to prove that you love me more than the others. This isn’t senior year anymore! Grow up!” Tears started to brim and I choked them back. “I’m with Mike! Mike! Not with Alex, I’m not getting with Alex, I’m not leaving anybody for anybody!” Mike appeared in the doorway. “Thank you! Can you tell them all to fuck off and stop declaring their undying love for me?” Mike’s eyes widened and his knuckles cracked as he clenched his fists.
“What the fuck is going on?” He growled as he shut the door behind him and I ran into his side.
“I’m sick of the damn rivalry between you two! Jack got over it! Why can’t you?” Mike’s arm snaked around my shoulders and pulled me tight against him. The tears were flowing freely now.
“Grow up! Grow up and leave me the fuck alone with Mike! I’m trying my hardest to give him a fair shot at this relationship and you two are making this the hardest thing I’ve ever done!” Zack and Alex sat on the couch looking down at their feet. “Please, just leave me alone.”
“Who the fuck on this tour isn’t trying to get with my girlfriend!” Mike yelled. “Leave us alone! Damn it this was a fucking mistake!” Mike grabbed my hand and pulled me from the room and off the bus. He brushed the hair off my face and wiped the tears off my cheeks before placing a soft kiss on my forehead. “Are you okay, Jasey? I should never have brought you on this tour. It was a huge mistake. I’m so sorry.” I shook my head grasped his hands in mine.
“No, it’s my fault. I shouldn’t let them affect how I feel.”
“They were your best friends, Jasey. What they say is going to affect you. Just promise me you won’t let them make you unhappy?” He tilted my chin up so I was looking him in the eye. “Okay?”
I nodded and reached up on my tiptoes to kiss him. “I have to go help set up, will you be okay?” I smiled up at him and headed back onto the bus. Vic smiled up at me from the couch and I plopped down beside him.
“Vic?”
“Yeah, Jasey?”
“I’m leaving.”

Notes

Hey guys! The chapters are gonna start getting shorter so I can keep the story flowing easier but I suppose it all depends on how inspired I am!
I hope you guys are enjoying it so far!
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