Me Without You

“Tour tomorrow!” Jack came bouncing through Mike's living room the day before the San Diego show. I couldn't but find it funny how they were all so excited to be crammed in a bus together for three months. “Are you ready, Jasey?” He asked as he flopped down on my lap.
“Of course.” I laughed, his weight crushing my legs. His face went serious for a moment and h leaned in to whisper in my ear so no one else could hear.
“No, Jase. Are you ready?” I shook my head and started picking at my fingernails. I would have to play girlfriend with Mike while every inch of me screamed to be with Alex. Jack gave me a sympathetic smile before turning to talk set lists with Vic.
“Jase?” Mike appeared with his arm outstretched. “You wanna come with me?” I plastered a smile on my face and pushed Jack off me and onto the floor, letting Mike pull me to my feet. He intertwined our fingers and led me upstairs and out the hallway window onto the roof. We sat next to each other in silence for a few moments, waiting for Mike to come out with what he had to say.
“Do you really want to do this?” He whispered, a hand running through his hair.
“What do you mean exactly?” I refused to look at him, as I knew he was avoiding making eye contact as well. I could tell where this was going. He knew, he had to know. Somehow Mike knew about what happened with Alex and this was it. The moment everything got thrown apart.
“Do you really want to come on this tour with me?” I turned and stared at him. This was not what I expected. “I mean, I know its difficult for you to be around Alex and this tour will mean living with him for three months. Do you really want to come? Cause if you decide to pull out, I'll understand.” I let out a small laugh and clapped my hands together in relief.
“Aw, god, Mikey.” I couldn't stop myself from laughing. “Of course I want to come on tour. Alex and I will get on fine.” I leaned against his shoulder and wrapped an arm around me pulling me close.
“I'm sorry, I realise how that might have sounded.” Mike chuckled as his kissed my hair. I admit, I was happy with Mike. He was my best friend and I could easily spend the rest of my life with him. We had a comfortable relationship and understood each other completely. I don't know what it is about Alex but, there was just something between us that wasn't there with Mike. We clicked, we didn't need to speak to know what the other was thinking, and I had that with Mike as well, but not to the same level. Alex and I were perfect. We were built for each other.


I scowled to myself as I looked at the clock next to my bed. Two am. Who the fuck is knocking at my door at two am? I flung the door open, pulling my robe around me and was instantly pushed back into my apartment by an excited Alex.
“What the fuck? It's 2am.” I grumbled as he pressed his lips to mine. “Why are you here?” Alex pulled away and beamed at me.
“We get on the bus tomorrow. Which means Mike will pretty much always be around. I came to get in my Jasey time.” I couldn't help but laugh at him as I made my way back to bed. “Plus, I couldn't sleep. And you always used to help with that.” I smiled at him and pecked him on the lips. Throwing my robe down at the bottom of my bed and crawling back under my covers, Alex quickly undressed and joined me. He wrapped his arms around me and nuzzled his face into the back of my neck. “I always sleep better with you around.” I smiled and nodded in agreement before flicking off the light and falling back to sleep.

“Why is Alex here?” Mike asked as he closed the door to my apartment. Alex had sprawled himself over my couch, watching TV, while I made breakfast. I kissed Mike on the cheek and laughed at the harshness of his voice.
“He came to make sure I had everything I needed and to help me carry my bags when the bus got here. I told him that was what you were for and then he made himself comfortable.” Mike scowled and wrapped his arms around me, sticking his tongue out at Alex who raised his hands above his head and returned his attention back to the television.
“I got a girlfriend, too, dude.” Alex laughed. “I'm not gonna make a move on your woman. Just friends.” I blushed at the thought of what had happened last night and flicked the bacon onto the croissant. I slid the plate over the counter and Alex caught it just in time. “Yes! Thanks, Jay. I love your bacon.” He turned his attention to Mike and raised his eyebrows. “Seriously, she makes the best bacon.” Mike slowly loosened up and I gave him a plate as well. I left the boys in my kitchen to eat before running off to get dressed, a task I had neglected so far this morning. I grabbed a pair of black skinnies and a Tonight Alive tank top, knowing that I probably wouldn't change before the show tonight so I needed something comfortable for the meet and greets. Shit. Meet and greets. I grabbed my laptop and flicked it open, quickly finding the lists for the meet and greets for the tour. I printed them off and stuck them on my clipboard before shoving that into my work bag. I hauled my suitcase, work bag, laptop and handbag out of my bedroom and placed them by the door, giving Mike a pointed 'you are so the one to carry this to the bus' look before joining them both on the couch.
“So, when's Lisa joining tour?” Mike asked Alex and I felt my mood get three tones darker at the mention of her name.
“She's meeting us in Texas and staying till Baltimore.” Alex giggled as I hid myself from Mike's view and flipped him off. “It should be quite the party with the four of us crammed on one bus.” Mike laughed nervously and I gave him a reassuring kiss. Prolonging it more than I needed to just to show off to Alex who I knew would be grinding his teeth. If I was gonna watch him being all coupley with Lisa, I was gonna match that. Alex cleared his throat and I pulled away from Mike and turned back to stick my tongue out at Alex.
“We should head down to Mike's, get our stuff on the bus.” He murmured, picking at the skin around his thumb. Mike nodded and picked me up off his lap and put me down on the floor.
“Alex is right, we have bus call in an hour.” The boys grabbed my bags while I picked up my hand bag and jacket and threw on my shoes. I gave my apartment a quick once over before nodding to myself and locking the door behind me. Alex and Mike threw my bags into Mike's trunk before Alex jumped into his own car and we drove off back to Mike's where the bus was meeting everybody.


I sat on the top of the guitar case as the crews and bands ran around the venue starting sound checks.
“You can get the kids organised for the meet and greet now.” Matt laughed as he carried a box of merch towards the table Vinny had set up at the back of the venue. I jumped down from my perch and made my way to the venue entrance and giggled at the amount of screaming fans waiting outside.
“Holy shit.” I whispered to one of the security guards who just nodded and handed me a microphone. I opened one of the smaller doors and stood up on a chair. I flicked the mic on and laughed as the fans all turned to see who it was. “Alright! Can those with meet and greets make your way over here if you're not here already. We're gonna start to take you in soon. Have your ticket and ID ready when you get to the front of the line.” I stepped down as a small hoard made its way to the door. I gave the mic back to the security guard and pulled out a pen. I motioned the girl at the front of the line forward and found her name on the San Diego list before checking her ID and sending her past to the security. I repeated this for the next ninety nine kids and gave Matt an exasperated look as he led the group to the room and explained he was going to get the band. I yelled for them to all shut up and laughed when a girl shouted that she shipped Jike.
“That's a shit ship name.” I yelled back before starting with the instructions. “Okay, guys. Today's gonna be different than usual for those of you who have been to meets before. We have both bands in there and you get double the time but that’s so you can get around all of them. Don't all crowd one of them at once, give others a chance and make sure you get around all the guys before you go into the venue. Matt's just brought the bands inside so wait a couple of moments and we'll let you in.” My radio buzzed and I pushed my key into the door before flinging it open and jumping out of the way of the hoard. The kids raced around to get to their favourite band member first and Alex threw me a wink across the room as I sat down near the door.
“Excuse me.” A small voice whispered and I turned to see two girls giggling nervously.
“Hey, what's up?” I stood up and smiled at the two girls, shoving my hands into my back pockets.
“You're Jasey, Mike's girlfriend? Right?” I nodded and the girls squealed. “Can you sign our tour books please? And can we get a photo?” Wait... what? Why the hell would they want a photo with me? I ran a hand through my hair and shrugged.
“Yeah, I guess, I don't get why though.” I laughed and posed next to each of the girls and we waited for the polaroids to develop so I could sign the bottom of each one. I scribbled my name in each of their tour books and wrote 'why the hell did you want the drummer's girlfriends signature?' next to my autograph. I gave the girls a hug each before they ran off to meet the bands. Mike waved me over and I made my way through his small crowd so he could give me a one armed hug.
“Got a fan base?” He giggled and I gave him a whack, much to the fans delight.”
“Apparently so, I don't understand why though.”

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