Me Without You

I sat on the bus waiting for the bands to come back out of the venue. I had plane tickets booked, I had packed up everything of mine and mentally prepared the speech I would give when the bands got on the bus. I didn’t know what exactly I was going to do, but I couldn’t stay here. I couldn’t keep on this tour. I had spoken to Matt and he understood. He was gonna pick the Meet and Greets back up for me so I could leave no problems. Well, no problems except the absolute fuss Mike and Alex were going to kick up. Vic had told me to do what was best for me, and leaving was most definitely what was best for everyone. I sat fiddling with my phone, the closer the set came to finishing the more nervous I was becoming. I flipped me phone around in my hands and jumped when the bus door burst open.
“Where is she!?” Mike yelled. “Where’s my baby!” I stiffened as he pulled me to my feet and into a hug. “I broke three fingers, but that was a wild show!” I giggled at how easily he shrugs off his broken fingers now.
“That’s great, Mikey.” I laughed. “Can you sit down until everyone’s on the bus? I’ve got something to tell you all.” Mike’s excitement fell from his face as he slowly sunk onto the couch.
“Are you okay?” I nodded and stroked his hair.
“I’m perfectly fine. Don’t worry.” The rest of the bands poured onto the bus and the energy they brought in with them quickly disappeared as they saw the look on Mike’s face.
“Is everything alright?” Alex asked, panicked. I nodded and he relaxed, taking a seat next to Jack.
“Uh, I need to speak with everyone quickly, and I ask that you don’t argue, because you will not change my mind.” Everyone nodded and Mike sat twiddling his thumbs.
“I’m going home. And my plane leaves in an hour so I need to make this quick. My coming on this tour was a bad idea. To throw myself onto a three month tour with the All Time Low boys after only just meeting up with them was a mistake on my part and I should have pulled out at the start. I’ve spoken to Matt and all my jobs have been covered so leaving the tour like this won’t affect anything.” Everyone was staring at me, mouths open. “Everything’s got really messy with emotions running wild and frankly, I can’t deal with this on tour. So I’m going back home, I’ll come and visit for Jack’s birthday, and probably again in Baltimore. But I have to go check in for my flight so, good bye I suppose.” I was attacked with hugs and Mike remained in the couch, staring at the floor.
“Baby, will you drive me?” He nodded and helped me carry my bags to the car.
“You weren’t even going to talk to me about this?” Mike whispered as he took off through the streets. I shook my head and he chuckled sarcastically. “I thought you were trying to make this relationship work? Yet, you won’t even tell me you’re leaving tour? Vic and Matt knew, but you didn’t tell me? Your boyfriend?” I stared out the window and remained silent until we oulled up outside the airport. “You know what?” Mike muttured as he undid his seatbelt. “Maybe this is for the best.”
“What do you mean?” I raised an eyebrow as I grabbed my bags from the trunk.
“You weren’t ready for this. I shouldn’t have pushed you for so long.” He tucked my fringe behind my ear and gave me a quick kiss. “You go home, sort your feelings out, and then get back to me after tour.” I stared up at him, his smile throwing me off.
“Mike…” He laughed and pulled me into a hug.
“I mean it Jasey. It’ll be better for you to figure all this bullshit out away from everyone. No ties.” I looked down at my hands and couldn’t help but let out a small laugh.
“Are you breaking up with me?” Mike smiled down at me and kissed my forehead.
“If you decide that I’m who you want, then we can get back together. But for now, I know you haven’t gotten over Alex, and it was stupid of me to take you on tour with him. Plus there was Zack, and I know you can never really give it a go with me until you are completely over Alex.”
“You are. You’re breaking up with me.” I laughed coldly.
“You know it’s the best thing. I’ll always be your best friend, I will always be there for you, no matter what.” I leaned into his chest as he stroked my hair. “Even if you do choses Alex, I will never stop being your best friend. I promise.”
Flight A219 to Los Angeles ready for boarding.
I looked up at Mike and he gave me another squeeze before handing me my suitcase and pushing me towards the door.
“Get back to me in July!” He called after me as I made my way inside. I can’t believe that just happened. I walked up to the desk and checked in my luggage before running to my gate.
I was free. I wasn’t tied down to anyone. I could figure out who, or what, I wanted before I hurt anyone else. That was why Mike was my best-friend. He knew me. He knew exactly what I needed and gave it to me even though I knew it destroyed him to do so.


I hailed a cab and threw my luggage in the trunk before sliding into the back seat and giving the driver my address. I ignored the influx of text messages form the guys, dismissed the calls and practically ran the stairs to my apartment. I chucked the bags in the corner and smiled at the space I had missed. My apartment, all my own, no men to make life complicated.

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