Guts

I left the bathroom with a towel wrapped around my waist and went to my bedroom to change. As soon as I shut my bedroom door I heard the shower come on. Looks like Jack was coming after all. After I styled my hair the shower had cut off and Jack stepped out in a towel. He looked like shit; I could see his ribs and his hip bones just jutting out from his skin. Maria would have been so hurt if she saw him like this. I just shook my head and told him to hurry. He just went to his room and shut the door. About five minutes later he came out dressed. Neither of us said a word, we just got in the car and headed to the hospital.

When we got there we went straight to Nevaeh’s room. As soon as she saw us she gave us a huge smile and tried to leap off the bed, but her IV’s were holding her back. She gave the IV’s a glare and waited until we got close enough and she pulled his in for a huge hug. She looked at Jack and told him that she wasn’t mad at him, just hurt. A look of hurt crossed his eyes and he apologized. She told him to make it up to her he had to get her ice cream when she got released. They shook on it.

While they talked I talked to Nevaeh’s mom, she told me they would be releasing them within the week. She looked so much healthier now that her daughter had the heart she needed. She couldn’t stop thanking me for what I had done for her daughter. All I could do was hug her as she cried happy tears.

After a while, Nevaeh fell asleep and we took off. I was hungry so I stopped at Taco Bell and got Jack and me some food. His face perked up at the mention of Taco Bell. We went inside and ate and when we came out I was out of $35 and Jack had gained like 10 pounds. We made it home and Jack didn’t go straight to his room, which I took as a good sign. He went to the living room and shuffled through the movies as I went upstairs to change.

When I came back down in my pajama pants he had put in Peter Pan and went to change. I brought a blanket down and made a bowl of popcorn. We put the popcorn in-between us and started watching Peter Pan. About halfway through it we both started nodding off. At some point in the middle of the night I felt arms tighten around my waist and whimpering in my ear. I carefully rolled over into Jacks naked chest. He was still asleep but he seemed to be having a nightmare. He was shaking and crying. I wasn’t sure what to do. Did I wake him up or just wait it out?

I decided to wrap my arms around him and pull him close. That stopped the shaking some but he was still crying. I wasn’t sure what else to do so I started singing the song I wrote for Maria.

He woke up from dreaming and put on his shoes
Started making his way past 2 in the morning
He hasn't been sober for days
Leaning now into the breeze
Remembering Sunday, he falls to his knees
They had breakfast together
But two eggs don't last
Like the feeling of what he needs
As I sang he started to calm down. He wasn’t shaking or crying any more. I tried to relax my grip, but he only held me tighter. I just laid there and continued to sing. When I got the female part, I tried my best to hit the higher notes, but it didn’t work out so well. It didn’t seem to faze Jack though, he continued to sleep. When I was done he sighed and pulled me close. He started muttering and at first I couldn’t make it out, but then I heard a few words like ‘Love you’ ‘Forever’ ‘Stay’. It broke my heart, but I couldn’t do anything.

I had come to the conclusion that I couldn’t break out of his grip so I decided to get comfortable. As I went to turn over to the little spoon, he rolled over to face him and I felt lips connect with mine.

Notes

Well that happened.
What now?


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