Guts

After the doctors and nurses rushed into the room Nevaeh and I were ushered out. I knew that this was the end but I had to tell her family. I called my parents and they relayed the news to the Merrick’s and I called Jack, who didn’t say a word just hung up. I sat in the waiting room with my hands on my head bawling my eyes out. Nevaeh stayed there the whole time, never saying anything, just sitting there. When my parents arrived they rushed to my side while the Merrick’s went to talk to the doctors. Zack stayed calm and Jack was nowhere to be seen.

Everything was in chaos and the only calm one was Nevaeh, she just sat there holding my hand and watching. That was when I remembered what she had told me before the song. She said that she needed a heart transplant. I knew Maria was a donor. She used to always tell me about how she hoped that after she died that she could save someone else’s life. She was always thinking about other people.

I jumped up and raced to the doctors. I told them that Maria was a donor and that Nevaeh needed a heart. I wanted to know if there was any way that they could use Maria’s for Nevaeh. There was no need to lose two lives. They told me there was paper work and blah blah, that’s not what I wanted to hear. I screamed at them to save a little girls life, that’s what Maria would have wanted.

At this point I was attracting attention, but I didn’t care. Soon Zack, my parents, the Merrick’s, and Nevaeh joined me. Nevaeh walked up to me and told me that it was okay. She would get to see her daddy soon, she was scared but it was okay. I grabbed her hand and told her that it wasn’t okay; her life could be saved by my best friend. She would have wanted it, hell she probably would have tried to give her heart to her if she was still alive.

I looked around for support when I saw a familiar face, Jack. He walked up and told the doctors he agreed with me, he looked to Maria’s parents and told them that they knew it was true. He looked at the doctors and told them to get a hold of the child’s parents and tell them to sign off on the surgery because it was going to happen. He had a look in his eyes I had never seen before; it was a mix between, fear, sorrow, worry, desperation, sadness, and determination. He was feeling the loss of the love of his life. He wasn’t going to put someone else through it if he could help it.

With Jack’s motivational speech, the Merrick’s and my parents started pushing for it to happen. After some discussion, the doctors said they would run some tests and see if it would work for Nevaeh. They called her mom and she was up there in a flash.

Nevaeh introduced me to her mom who looked like she hadn’t slept in days. I felt so sorry for her. I introduced Jack to Nevaeh and her mom. He nodded, not really saying anything, and then Nevaeh walked up and hugged him and whispered something to him which caused a tiny little smile. To this day I have no idea what she said, but she caused a ray of sunshine in the darkest of places.

About ten minutes later the doctors came back and told us that they would be prepping Nevaeh for surgery. Her mom collapsed on the ground and started crying. This was a miracle; she never thought she would get to see this day. Nevaeh took Jacks hand and took him with her to her hospital room. After she fell asleep Jack joined us in the waiting room.

After what seemed like a life time the surgeon finally came out and told us that the surgery was over and she was in recovery. We weren’t allowed to see her until after she was stable. The Merrick’s went home, they had a funeral to plan and a loss to grieve and my parents went with them. That left me and Jack. I had told Rian and Matt not to come incase anything happened with Jack or Zack, they would be able to come and get them. Nevaeh’s mom had fallen asleep and Jack was pacing with his head phones in.

I eventually drifted off until Nevaeh’s mom gently shook me awake and told me that they were allowing visitors for a short period of time. Before we could go in we had to put on the gowns and mask, they told us that at the time she was highly likely to get sick so we had to be careful. When I got there Jack was already in there holding her hand and talking to her.

Her mom ran up to her and gave her a hug and started crying again. I walked over to her and she gave me a small smile. We all talked for a few until the doctors told us we had to go. We told her bye and Jack and I headed out. He got in my car and didn’t say a word, I started driving. We drove past the house and he gave me a questioning glance, but didn’t say anything.

I drove to the park that we used to go to all the time, it was where I had my first kiss, and it was a place full of memories for Jack. I parked and we got out, he headed straight for the monkey bars, Maria’s favorite place. We stayed there until the sun went down and headed home. Jack just sat on the couch so I went and grabbed my blanket and grabbed Jack and went to the backyard. He didn’t even fight me. I laid the blanket out and sat down and started bawling again.

I sat there holding him and letting him cry until he passed out in my arms.

Notes

Well what do you think? They saved the little girl, hopefully.

Sorry if it seems like crap, I feel like my writing is off today. Sorry if it is.

On a brighter note its my birthday! Yay bowling later haha ^.^

I love you guys and thanks for sticking around!

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