ZACKS P.O.V
It's been two hours since my phone call with Ivy, i'm still worried about her, i know she has to do this for herself but she's never been out without me dragging her.
What if she hasn't done it, how will i know i could ring her but then i could be ruining her good day, i could interrupt her then she might get upset and go back home.
I'm worried for her, i keep thinking she needs me but she doesn't see's getting older i know it's hard for her. I need her to do this, for me.
It's such a big thing, a massive hill to climb. I have faith in her, i know she can do it. She needs to put everything aside think of her for a change.
I have tried talking to her about mom and dad but i can't do it, i don't want to see her cry. I can't see her cry. I need to big a brother, i shouldn't have to talk to her about it, they should still be here, still be helping Ivy through her last years at school. Helping her pick what college would be the best for her.
When they died she dropped out of school, i understood i knew that the next year was going to be a lot harder for her, than it was for me. I wish she would stay at school I know she can still go to college, but she won't, everything she has ever dreamed of, she will never do. I hope and pray that one day she will talk to me. That she will realize she needs to go to college she needs to move on, she can't keep thinking that mom and dad are coming back, because i had to face the hard truth and so will she.
They are never coming back. never. Everyday i pray that it was just a horrible dream but I've come to realize it's reality. I can't change the past. I never can. I'm not magic nor can i use magic to bring them back, i wish for just one day they could come back to tell Ivy, she needs to move on. It's hard. I know it's hard.
I nor she will ever really move on from their death but we have to live with it. I need to stop thinking about this, i need to know she's okay I know she's strong she just has to tell herself that. I decide i would call her, to put my mind at rest.

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It just rings, and rings until after 5 rings she picks up, i hear sobs.
"Ivy, are you okay?"
"Why does it sound like i am?"
she fights back.
"No what's wrong?"
"I couldn't do it Zack i took a step outside for half an hour, i pushed myself to walk but my legs couldn't carry me, they just wouldn't move. I'm sorry
I let you down, I've let everyone down. I'm sorry, I'm sorry"
she whispers over and over again.
"Listen ivy, you are strong i know you are, it's going to be okay, you just took the first step tomorrow do it again, and the next day, keep doing it until one day you'll be able to walk into town, make new friends. Meet new people, you have not let me down at all, i believe in you like everyone else. We all know you can do it, don't t think for one minute that we are disappointed you tried, now you just have to keep trying until you can do it. I know you can, I believe in you. We love you. I love you, you are wonderful ivy, you are strong."
I've never heard her crying to me. This is the first time she's spoke to me about anything like this, how can she think she's let anyone down?
"Zack i'm scared"
"I know you are sweetie, I am to. This is something you have to do for yourself. I know you can do it, prove it to yourself that you can. I promise it will make
you happy, you'll realize that you can do a lot more. Please don't be scared nothing out there can hurt you. I wont let it. I promise you."
"what it you can't stop it, what if i get hurt."
"You wont. Ivy please you can't think like this, please"
"Okay i'll try Zack, i'm sorry."
"You have nothing to apologize for."
"Okay Zack, i love you thank you"
"anything, if you ever need me, i'm here you know i am."
"I know i'm just being silly"
"Nothing you do is silly sis, not to me anyway, i'd be proud of you if you told me to fuck off"
I heard a weak laugh at the other end of the phone
"I'd never tell you to fuck off bro."
"It's nice to hear you laugh, but i have to go we have to go sound check, i love you darling, keep trying i'll ring you later"

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I was still in shock that she opened up to me, and that she needed me, when Jack bounced over to me tell me sound check is in 5 minutes. I knew tonight, i'd play by best my little sister was starting to open up to me, how could i play shit tonight? i was ready bring it on.

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Our gig finished around 11ish we ran over time because we played a few covers and then went and met a few fans, i was currently laid in my bunk thinking about tonight's gig, i was right it was the best gig we'd played for our time on tour, it felt amazing everyone on the bus was celebrating our gig but i was lost in my own world, thinking if mom and dad would be watching me from up there, thinking if Ivy was okay, wondering if my Auntie and Uncle were comforting Ivy. Then sleep took over me. I feel into dream land. Happy.

Notes

Guy's i'm sorry again for this very late chapter, i was hoping to write last night but i feel asleep. Which was much needed.
But here it is
I thought i would write it in Zack's P.o.v i haven't done that properly yet BUT SHE OPENED UP TO HIM!
And as you might tell she didn't do it she couldn't go out. But better stuff is coming i promise you!

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-Kay