Breaking Down Walls.
Twenty
D Y L A N
I walked into my new home, I enjoyed calling It that, I was so glad I was becoming close friends with Ivy, even this morning after our argument, I was still happy she was in my life. She’s amazing. I don’t understand how someone like her can be so strong. I’m still worried about her she hasn’t been eating but I watch her closely because I don’t know how she can be so strong, I know she’s hiding something I can feel it. It worries me because where am I going to be without her. Her auntie and uncle are so lovely to me, In 2 more weeks I will be meeting her brother, I lied to her this morning I’m not going back next door my mom’s not allowed home for 1 month. I’m nervous about meeting him after listening to a few of their songs I’ve become a fan. I want her brother to like me. Anyways I walk up to Ivy’s room to surprise her with some pizzas, and some cakes hoping she will accept this as my apology. I hear faint crying and I hear her talking to herself, I run into her room but she crashes down in my arms
“Ivy what’s wrong, what happened? Look at me!”
I can see her look up but as she does I see her eyes roll, I look around the room to see a bottle of tablets, I notice they were the sleeping pills I got prescribed I don’t care about them right now though, I just know I have to get her to hospital as quickly as I can, I reach for her phone and dial 911
“Hi, I need an ambulance, right now. My friend took some pills and I don’t know how long ago she took them. Just get here fast please someone save her.”
I hung up I put her head on the floor and cry I can’t lose her, my mum has just been taken away for this same reason, I look through her phone for a number to call the only person I can remember the name of ‘The sexiest person Ivy knows’ I dial it quickly looking at the time seeing that it’s 5pm knowing that this is one of the guys from the band I risk calling it hoping that they aren’t playing a gig.
“Ivy hey love”
“Hey this isn’t Ivy this is Dylan, how long would it take someone to get back to Baltimore?”
“Well this is Zack we are in Baltimore, just don’t tell Ivy Jack is coming over right now to get her why?”
“She took an overdose just meet us at the hospital, please? I can’t see her like this on my own”
“Okay we’ll be right there” I think I heard him crying but I have to hang up because the paramedics just got here, she still has a pulse thank god, but they need to get her to hospital fast, apparently I can’t ride with her ‘because I’m not a family member’ Where the fuck is Carol, she was supposed to be home, I remember her mention that she was going out with friends today. That’s why she did it, she knew that she was on her own for the whole day. No one would have found her until she was dead. I’m glad my boss let me out early I make a reminder to thank him later. I run out of the house and to my car speeding to the hospital leaving a note at home tell Carol to come to the hospital. When I get there I see a group of lads that all look drained and sad, one of them look a bit like Ivy so I walked up to him hoping that this would be Zack.
“Hey, are you Zack?”
“Yes I am and let me guess you’re Dylan?”
“Yeah, any news?”
“Not really they are pumping her stomach now. Thank you for finding her Dylan”
He gave me a hug I could tell her was scared he was going to lose her for good.
“She’ll be okay though Zack, she’s Ivy I know I haven’t know her for ages but one thing I have learned she’s a strong girl.”
“I know mate, I know”
I take a deep breath and fine myself a seat next to another dude that I believe is called Rian.
“It sucks that we have to meet like this but I’m Rian this is Alex and this is Jack”
He point to the two lads next to him, they all look equally upset. If only Ivy could see this, she would realize how many people love her, all that was going through my mind is Why did she do it?
A L E X
*40 MINUTES EARLIER*
Zack turned to look at us after is phone call with Ivy, his face was white and drained. No,no,no,no. This can only be bad he never looks like this He looks like he could burst into tears at any point, the last time he looked like this was the dreaded day last year when Ivy got that horrible phone call
Rian is the first to speak asking Zack what’s wrong, these next works are the one I never wish to hear.
“Ivy she’s in the hospital, she took an overdose”
“Right Zack Hospital. Now!”
Rian grabbed Zack by his arm and out to his car, I just watched it happen I felt like I couldn’t move. Our little Ivy wanted to die and she didn’t even ring me? That sounds self-fish fuck. I thought she could trust me. This is my fault I should have checked up on her. Why didn’t I bother? My I mean our Ivy must have been feeling horrible. All on her own in a shitty hospital bed I hear Rian shout at me
“Gaskarth are you coming or not?”
“Why are you even questions that Rian?”
“Well you weren’t talking to me, ring Jack tell him to meet us at the hospital and not Ivy’s place explain to him what has happened”
“Okay”
I jump in Rian’s car and ring Jack he answers straight away. His reply is just
“I know”
“What do you know Jack”
“I know that Ivy is in hospital, I got to Zack’s and there was a note for Carol so I rang the number on it.”
I let a tear fall down my face, that word I just don’t want to hear it I’m really hoping I wake up soon, I hang up on Jack after saying goodbye and look over to Zack who’s curled himself into a ball on the seat next to me and was crying to himself, I put my hand on his ankle he flinched a bit then relaxed.
“I can’t lose her Alex, not now I’ve already lost my parents. This is my fault Alex I should have been there for her more I should have rang her every day, sent her little text message to let her know that we were all here for her, but I didn’t now she’s lying in a hospital bed unconscious”
I wipe away a few tears that fell onto my lap, I tried to talk to Zack nothing came out, I look at Rian in the mirror even he was trying not to cry. That’s when I realized that we are a family, everything that happens affects all of us. Ivy is our little sister and now something bad was happening to her it broke my heart. I realized Jack could have been right I have feelings for Ivy. It’s taken something like this to make me realize how much she means to me, how much I need her in my life. She makes me smile every day, even when she wakes me up early hours of the morning to tell me she’s had a nightmare again, I can’t help but smile at the fact she rang me not anyone else. I can’t stand the thought of life without her. She’s my little ball of sunshine. She makes my mouth curve upwards even when I want to be angry with her. I’m not saying I’m in love with her because I don’t believe that I am but I know someday I will be. She’s beautiful and now I’m sitting in Rians car realizing that I could lose it all. I can’t handle this. I see the hospital signs start to appear means we are getting closer, my heart drops as I realize this is real. It’s happening it’s not a dream. I’m not going to wake up from this anytime soon. As much as I would like to.
We arrive at the hospital half an hour later and see Jacks car already parked up with Jack's lanky body facing the hospital his head resting on his steering wheel and him wiping his eyes, I get out and knock on his car as soon as it’s open I jumped on him hugging him tight and just letting my tears fall as he did the same to me. I whisper to him “You were right Jack” He knew what I was talking about because he pulled me closer and nodded. To anyone else this would look strange but Jack was my best friend I needed him at a time like this. He was my rock and I couldn’t be here with anyone but him. I look over to see Rian and Zack walking into the hospital doors Rians arm around Zack holding him up, it looks like he could collapse at any moment I turn to Jack
“We should probably go on in then Jack”
“I don’t want to Alex, as soon as we walk into those doors its real”
This seems so dramatic but it’s not think about it, we’ve known this girl for years, we’ve been there for her It’s one of our best friends sisters and then you get told she’s taken an over dose because she hates her life. That makes people act like this. We all love her so much
“Jack we have to face it, we have to be there for Zack. It’s not just about us”.
“I know Lex, and earlier when you said I was right, does that mean you have feelings for her?”
“Yes Jack I’ve only just realized it, I don’t know what to do I’ve never told her because I’m scared she’s going to run away, and not talk to me anymore. And now this has happened I regret never feeling like this before”
I tell him right before we enter the empty waiting room.
R I A N
I look around the waiting room watching everyone’s faces, everyone had lost emotion even Dylan who had just arrived, I hate seeing my friends like this and knowing that it’s something big. I try not to show how upset I am, I feel like I have to be strong for every single one of them. I just don’t know what to do. Zack is now a wreck we’ve been here for an hour with no news Carol was also here now she was comforting Zack but it wasn’t working, Alex was talking to Jack with a serious look on his face but I know him he doesn’t want to show how he’s truly feeling, he’s strong but when it comes to Ivy he’s not, he just wants her to be okay for the last year everything he has done is for that girl, on her birthday everyone knew he wanted nothing more than to get drunk and then get laid but he stayed there with her because he couldn’t stand the thought of her being alone in that house, I know he’s feeling guilty that he didn’t call her. It’s not his fault. He doesn’t know but when he gets up at 2am to talk to her he also wakes me up and I’ve never known him to not get pissy about being woken up.
I look over to Dylan he looks like crap, he has tears rolling down his cheeks.
“Hey Dylan, listen you said earlier that Ivy’s strong she will be okay mate”
“But Rian, I should have been home. We fell out before I left home today, if she dies I wouldn’t have even got a proper goodbye.”
“It’s going to be okay Dylan she won’t die, she will fight through this”
“I know but I hate the thought of it, I’ve only just got to know her I don’t want our friendship to end like this”
“It won’t”.
We stopped talking after that for the reason that the nurse walked in and straight over to Zack and Carol, I watched as there facial expressions changed from sadness to a calm look, which looks like good news at least I hope it is.
I walked into my new home, I enjoyed calling It that, I was so glad I was becoming close friends with Ivy, even this morning after our argument, I was still happy she was in my life. She’s amazing. I don’t understand how someone like her can be so strong. I’m still worried about her she hasn’t been eating but I watch her closely because I don’t know how she can be so strong, I know she’s hiding something I can feel it. It worries me because where am I going to be without her. Her auntie and uncle are so lovely to me, In 2 more weeks I will be meeting her brother, I lied to her this morning I’m not going back next door my mom’s not allowed home for 1 month. I’m nervous about meeting him after listening to a few of their songs I’ve become a fan. I want her brother to like me. Anyways I walk up to Ivy’s room to surprise her with some pizzas, and some cakes hoping she will accept this as my apology. I hear faint crying and I hear her talking to herself, I run into her room but she crashes down in my arms
“Ivy what’s wrong, what happened? Look at me!”
I can see her look up but as she does I see her eyes roll, I look around the room to see a bottle of tablets, I notice they were the sleeping pills I got prescribed I don’t care about them right now though, I just know I have to get her to hospital as quickly as I can, I reach for her phone and dial 911
“Hi, I need an ambulance, right now. My friend took some pills and I don’t know how long ago she took them. Just get here fast please someone save her.”
I hung up I put her head on the floor and cry I can’t lose her, my mum has just been taken away for this same reason, I look through her phone for a number to call the only person I can remember the name of ‘The sexiest person Ivy knows’ I dial it quickly looking at the time seeing that it’s 5pm knowing that this is one of the guys from the band I risk calling it hoping that they aren’t playing a gig.
“Ivy hey love”
“Hey this isn’t Ivy this is Dylan, how long would it take someone to get back to Baltimore?”
“Well this is Zack we are in Baltimore, just don’t tell Ivy Jack is coming over right now to get her why?”
“She took an overdose just meet us at the hospital, please? I can’t see her like this on my own”
“Okay we’ll be right there” I think I heard him crying but I have to hang up because the paramedics just got here, she still has a pulse thank god, but they need to get her to hospital fast, apparently I can’t ride with her ‘because I’m not a family member’ Where the fuck is Carol, she was supposed to be home, I remember her mention that she was going out with friends today. That’s why she did it, she knew that she was on her own for the whole day. No one would have found her until she was dead. I’m glad my boss let me out early I make a reminder to thank him later. I run out of the house and to my car speeding to the hospital leaving a note at home tell Carol to come to the hospital. When I get there I see a group of lads that all look drained and sad, one of them look a bit like Ivy so I walked up to him hoping that this would be Zack.
“Hey, are you Zack?”
“Yes I am and let me guess you’re Dylan?”
“Yeah, any news?”
“Not really they are pumping her stomach now. Thank you for finding her Dylan”
He gave me a hug I could tell her was scared he was going to lose her for good.
“She’ll be okay though Zack, she’s Ivy I know I haven’t know her for ages but one thing I have learned she’s a strong girl.”
“I know mate, I know”
I take a deep breath and fine myself a seat next to another dude that I believe is called Rian.
“It sucks that we have to meet like this but I’m Rian this is Alex and this is Jack”
He point to the two lads next to him, they all look equally upset. If only Ivy could see this, she would realize how many people love her, all that was going through my mind is Why did she do it?
A L E X
*40 MINUTES EARLIER*
Zack turned to look at us after is phone call with Ivy, his face was white and drained. No,no,no,no. This can only be bad he never looks like this He looks like he could burst into tears at any point, the last time he looked like this was the dreaded day last year when Ivy got that horrible phone call
Rian is the first to speak asking Zack what’s wrong, these next works are the one I never wish to hear.
“Ivy she’s in the hospital, she took an overdose”
“Right Zack Hospital. Now!”
Rian grabbed Zack by his arm and out to his car, I just watched it happen I felt like I couldn’t move. Our little Ivy wanted to die and she didn’t even ring me? That sounds self-fish fuck. I thought she could trust me. This is my fault I should have checked up on her. Why didn’t I bother? My I mean our Ivy must have been feeling horrible. All on her own in a shitty hospital bed I hear Rian shout at me
“Gaskarth are you coming or not?”
“Why are you even questions that Rian?”
“Well you weren’t talking to me, ring Jack tell him to meet us at the hospital and not Ivy’s place explain to him what has happened”
“Okay”
I jump in Rian’s car and ring Jack he answers straight away. His reply is just
“I know”
“What do you know Jack”
“I know that Ivy is in hospital, I got to Zack’s and there was a note for Carol so I rang the number on it.”
I let a tear fall down my face, that word I just don’t want to hear it I’m really hoping I wake up soon, I hang up on Jack after saying goodbye and look over to Zack who’s curled himself into a ball on the seat next to me and was crying to himself, I put my hand on his ankle he flinched a bit then relaxed.
“I can’t lose her Alex, not now I’ve already lost my parents. This is my fault Alex I should have been there for her more I should have rang her every day, sent her little text message to let her know that we were all here for her, but I didn’t now she’s lying in a hospital bed unconscious”
I wipe away a few tears that fell onto my lap, I tried to talk to Zack nothing came out, I look at Rian in the mirror even he was trying not to cry. That’s when I realized that we are a family, everything that happens affects all of us. Ivy is our little sister and now something bad was happening to her it broke my heart. I realized Jack could have been right I have feelings for Ivy. It’s taken something like this to make me realize how much she means to me, how much I need her in my life. She makes me smile every day, even when she wakes me up early hours of the morning to tell me she’s had a nightmare again, I can’t help but smile at the fact she rang me not anyone else. I can’t stand the thought of life without her. She’s my little ball of sunshine. She makes my mouth curve upwards even when I want to be angry with her. I’m not saying I’m in love with her because I don’t believe that I am but I know someday I will be. She’s beautiful and now I’m sitting in Rians car realizing that I could lose it all. I can’t handle this. I see the hospital signs start to appear means we are getting closer, my heart drops as I realize this is real. It’s happening it’s not a dream. I’m not going to wake up from this anytime soon. As much as I would like to.
We arrive at the hospital half an hour later and see Jacks car already parked up with Jack's lanky body facing the hospital his head resting on his steering wheel and him wiping his eyes, I get out and knock on his car as soon as it’s open I jumped on him hugging him tight and just letting my tears fall as he did the same to me. I whisper to him “You were right Jack” He knew what I was talking about because he pulled me closer and nodded. To anyone else this would look strange but Jack was my best friend I needed him at a time like this. He was my rock and I couldn’t be here with anyone but him. I look over to see Rian and Zack walking into the hospital doors Rians arm around Zack holding him up, it looks like he could collapse at any moment I turn to Jack
“We should probably go on in then Jack”
“I don’t want to Alex, as soon as we walk into those doors its real”
This seems so dramatic but it’s not think about it, we’ve known this girl for years, we’ve been there for her It’s one of our best friends sisters and then you get told she’s taken an over dose because she hates her life. That makes people act like this. We all love her so much
“Jack we have to face it, we have to be there for Zack. It’s not just about us”.
“I know Lex, and earlier when you said I was right, does that mean you have feelings for her?”
“Yes Jack I’ve only just realized it, I don’t know what to do I’ve never told her because I’m scared she’s going to run away, and not talk to me anymore. And now this has happened I regret never feeling like this before”
I tell him right before we enter the empty waiting room.
R I A N
I look around the waiting room watching everyone’s faces, everyone had lost emotion even Dylan who had just arrived, I hate seeing my friends like this and knowing that it’s something big. I try not to show how upset I am, I feel like I have to be strong for every single one of them. I just don’t know what to do. Zack is now a wreck we’ve been here for an hour with no news Carol was also here now she was comforting Zack but it wasn’t working, Alex was talking to Jack with a serious look on his face but I know him he doesn’t want to show how he’s truly feeling, he’s strong but when it comes to Ivy he’s not, he just wants her to be okay for the last year everything he has done is for that girl, on her birthday everyone knew he wanted nothing more than to get drunk and then get laid but he stayed there with her because he couldn’t stand the thought of her being alone in that house, I know he’s feeling guilty that he didn’t call her. It’s not his fault. He doesn’t know but when he gets up at 2am to talk to her he also wakes me up and I’ve never known him to not get pissy about being woken up.
I look over to Dylan he looks like crap, he has tears rolling down his cheeks.
“Hey Dylan, listen you said earlier that Ivy’s strong she will be okay mate”
“But Rian, I should have been home. We fell out before I left home today, if she dies I wouldn’t have even got a proper goodbye.”
“It’s going to be okay Dylan she won’t die, she will fight through this”
“I know but I hate the thought of it, I’ve only just got to know her I don’t want our friendship to end like this”
“It won’t”.
We stopped talking after that for the reason that the nurse walked in and straight over to Zack and Carol, I watched as there facial expressions changed from sadness to a calm look, which looks like good news at least I hope it is.
Notes
I hope you like this chapter, I think i do it shows how Alex feels i guess.
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