No Pads… No Helmets… Just Memories!

My body was pierced awake by the sharp pain forcing a whimper to pass my lips. My body refusing to move in fear of what would rack my bones at a single flinch. Slowly I swallowed before letting my eyes regretfully flutter open and nothing more than a cloud of confusion engulfed me.



Where was I?



Where was Rian?



Where was Riley?



What happened?



How did I get here?



What did he do to me?


With every question crossing my mind my breath sped up one beat. The tears already beginning to spill at the mere thought that I had no idea where I was or what had happened to me, it was my worst nightmare. I fed off being in control of my own surroundings and emotions but this, being lost and confused was the worst place to put me. I didn't know what do or think.


I looked around the strange room trying to call out for help but all that escaped was a wavy whimper. My ribs rippled with pain and my exasperated lungs felt like they were moments away from collapsing in on me. I tried my best to curl into a ball before the pain in the back of my mind slowly began to take over and shrill cries were all that escaped passed my lips.


I bit back my sobs as the door slowly creaked open and fear engulfed me. I couldn’t go through that again, not now, not ever. The door slipped open and a dark figure appeared over the doorway as a piercing cry ripped through my lungs.


"JASEY!" The figure bellowed as mixed tears of fear and pain poured from my eyes.


"Please don't!" I breathed as arms wrapped around me causing me to trash and kick.


"Jasey, Jasey look at me!" The voice called as I continued to cry and sob.


"ALEX!" I sobbed out as the arms bound around me gave me a light squeeze allowing there warmth to radiate into my body, all my will to fight any longer was drained from me as the reality of how weak I truly was hit me head on.


"It’s me Jasey, its okay... You're okay." He cooed running a hand down my back.


"Don't let him hurt me Alex! Please..." I sobbed clinging onto Alex's shirt for dear life.


"Shh..." He hushed pulling me into his lap, "no one is going to hurt you, Rian and Zack made sure of that."


"I’m so sorry..." I cried as Alex stiffened.


"This was not your fault." He spat, "none of this is your fault, please don't even begin to think that Jasey please!"


"I was stupid!" I cried.


"Shh... You couldn’t have known, it was all my fault."


"Alex...?" A familiar voice called from the doorway, "is she up?"


"Yeah..." He murmured into my hair as his arms bound tighter around me.


"Jasey...?" Rian called from to doorway, "you wanna go home?"


Rian's words caused Alex's firm grip to tighten even more and I looked up at my brother, I bit back my tears as I looked up at Alex's hopeful eyes. "Please don't make me go back..." I whispered up before burying my face into his warm chest letting his hands find the ends of my hair.


"Ri..." Alex sighed as I took a fistful of his shirt, "I'll keep her for today."


"I'll be down stairs" Rian sighed running a hand over his face, "everyone else is down there, just come down in a bit and we'll say goodbye." With that he disappeared from the doorway and back downstairs leaving me snuggled into Alex.


"I don't wanna face them Lex." I whimpered into his chest.


"Why not?" He asked calmly, "talk to me, what’s going through your head?"


"Just that they won’t look at me the same, that I’m nothing more but a bigger flight risk than before, that he'll come after me, that you won’t be there, that you'll be with Tammy and he will get to me, that everything will fall apart!" I gasped as I choked for air the more I went on before Alex stopped me.


"Hey, look at me right now..." He cooed cupping my face and forcing my eyes to his as if I had a choice, "I’m not going anywhere, he is never going to touch you again as long as I’m still alive and breathing you got that?"


"But Tamm-"


"Forget about Tammy she’s a conniving bitch, I want nothing to do with her and I never did!" He spilled pressing his forehead to mine, "I can’t tell you why I did what I did but I’m going to get this sorted out and I’ll tell you everything, I’ll tell everyone what happened."


"Alex..." I sighed pressing my hand to the subtle scruff that freshly lined his jaw.


"I promised you I’d tell you, and I will, I’m done playing there games, not with you on the line." He sighed pressing his nose to mine. "Come on, let’s go."


I bit down on my lip as Alex lifted me bridal style and carried me out into the hall. His hold was gentle and warm so not to hurt my tender body as he walked. On any other day I would have pushed him away and demanded he tell me what both him and Riley were talking about, the nonsense stringing the two of them and Tammy together and how I was somehow perched in the middle. But something about Alex's words and tone told me he was sincere this time, that he would be there for me.


For the first time in forever I allowed myself to trust him with no greater reason then I needed to. I was in a place where I needed him to lean on, I needed him as a security blanket, I just needed him again. "I missed you Lex" I admitted aloud as I buried by face into the crook of his neck.


"I know Jase," he hushed stopping at the base of the stairs, "and there’s nothing I can do to get back the time I wasted but I’d rather not blow anymore time I may have."


"I trust you." I hushed against his neck as he dropped his head backwards.


"I missed you too." He hummed entering the living room where -by the amount of relieved sighs- I assumed our friends sat.


"Well Zack, you owe me $10!" Jack laughed as Alex slowly placed my feet on the ground, leaving one of his arms snaked around my waist for support.


"Do not!" The muscular teen retorted getting to his feet and making his way over to pull me into a warm hug.


"I said the first one Alex would go back to would be Jasey and look at that!" Jack smiled pointing to the arm attached to my hip.


"I can’t believe you guys bet on me!" Alex whined causing a smile to crack across my lips.


"No..." Jack pointed to Alex slinging an arm around my neck to pull me into a side hug, "I had my money on Jasey; I could give a rats ass about you!"


"Hurtful!" Alex scoffed in fake hurt.


"Keep your chin up kid!" Jack smiled down on me in a hushed tone poking my nose before returning his gaze to Alex and poking his tongue out at the scruffy singer.


I giggled breaking from Jack's grip and wondered to Alex and bound my arms around his waist. Alex laughed lightly placing his hands on the small of my back after stuttering to avoid possible sore sections. I couldn’t fight the smile as Andrea's voice bellowed through the room.


"Okay keep it G you two!" She laughed. "You guys are hard enough to keep up with as is!"


One by one our friends came up giving me light hugs and telling me to rest up and that they loved me before departing from Alex's house. I shut the door behind Rian after telling him I’d call him later and rested my head on the cool wood. I puffed out a sigh knowing I had no idea what do to. "You'll be okay..." A voice cooed as hands placed themselves on my hips causing me to yelp.


"Jesus Alex!" I yelled smacking his chest.


"Sorry..." He sighed, "I’m going to have to adjust."


"It’s okay..." I smiled lightly stepping into his open arms and resting my head against his chest, "it’s not your fault..."



"It wasn’t yours either."

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