I was so tired. But I heard someone talking to me from very far and I recognized it as Jack so I opened my eyes a tiny bit to see what was happening. Jack was sitting next to me.

“Elo ‘Ack,” I managed to press out, it was so hard to talk. Everything felt like it was made out of rubber and really heavy and tired. I could feel Jack cuddling close to me and it was so nice. I was warm and happy and so so so tired...

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When I woke up again, Jack was still cuddling me, in fact, his nose was nuzzled into my neck by now. It was adorable. I probably looked like shit but I didn’t care. But things started to hurt horribly, especially my muscles. So I wanted to press the button and call the nurse, but when I moved my arm to reach for it, Jack woke up.

“Lex! Little mushroom! You are awake!” he exclaimed and pressed the button. I smiled.
“Thank you Jacky. I was just about to do that.”

“Lex, do you know you were dead for a few minutes?” he asked, sitting up now and looking me dead in the eye. A cold feeling gripped my heart. I had been dead? The last thing I remembered was crawling into the bush and falling asleep after having taken a lot of pills.

“What? You mean clinically dead?” I asked in shock. Jack nodded, tears filling his eyes.

“I could’ve lost you. Why would you ever try to kill yourself?”

Just a second. Jack thought I wanted to kill myself? He thought this had been a suicide attempt?

“Jack, do you think I did this on purpose to die?”

“Yeah Lex, you overdosed on some strange medication and almost died,” he replied.
“Nononono Jacky, you understood this wrongly. It was not a suicide attempt. I was walking across the street with the traffic light being green for me and then a car came really fast with this drunk driver and I got away only because I jumped as well as I could and then I started getting flashbacks and I wanted to calm down so I took the pills but I didn’t watch out for how many I was taking,” I explained breathlessly.

Jack furrowed his eyebrows before looking me deeply in the eyes.

“Lex, are you sure that’s it? I mean why do you even carry these pills around with you?” he asked.

The question I had feared. I kneaded my fingers.

“It’s because I want to have them handy in case anything gets overwhelming. I’m sorry, I should’ve told you sooner.”

“Do you take them regularly?” he asked sharply.

“Only to sleep and if anything comes up. Jack, you can trust me.”

“Well I guess I can. I felt hurt because you did not tell me you wanted to kill yourself. Come here, let me hug you,” he said relievedly. I nodded and he sank down to rest his head on my chest again.

“I love you,” I said.

“I love you too and I would never want you to die,” he responded.

“Same here,” I said sleepily, the stress and the anaesthetics still affecting me. Soon, I was back asleep and Jack as well.

Notes

I'm sorry I didn't update yesterday but I'm ill and I physically couldn't - I'm still ill but I kinda managed to write this.

I have a really awsome new story idea and I can't wait to start it. It's not like I have about 3 stories to finish :')

I hope you are all doing better than I do.

-Laura