Fear of Falling Apart

-1 week later-

I'm at my house waiting for the rest of my band mates to show up. We're heading the airport soon and they're late. Keith is meeting us at the airport so we know where we're going to be staying. Should be fun.

Rian and Zack are here now so we hang out outside running around as they keep stealing my beanie.

"RIAN!" I shout as I run around the front yard. He laughs holding my beanie in the air. "ROBERT!" I shout. He stops and turns around to glare.

"ALEXANDER!" He shouts beginning to run again. Zack starts laughing and I roll my eyes lying on the ground and shutting my eyes. "Hahaha!" He laughs still running.

Suddenly, someone is on top of me. I open my eyes and see Jack, straddling my hips. I smile. "Hey, Lexxy!" He greets kissing me.

"PG!" Zack shouts from the porch. We look at him and they laugh. Jack looks at me and kisses me before standing up.

"Alright! Let's get ready and head to the airport." I say.

In two hours we're on the plane. I'm next to Jack, Rian and Zack are across the aisle and Jack's mom is in the row in front of us. I hug Jack's arm and rest my head on his shoulder. I glance at him and he smiles. We sit in silence until the plane takes off and then we start talking.

"Jacky... do you think my dad will come out to LA?" I ask him. He looks at me a confusion, but nods.

"Yeah, baby, why?" He asks me. I shrug.

"I don't want him to leave me behind like he did a while ago... Especially since we've made it this far and i only have one parent who might actually love me and support me." I explain.

"Of course he'll come. Lex you're the only person he really cared for at the hospital. Trust me." He says. I look at him and he gives me a small smile.

"Can I ask you something?" I ask. He nods. "Why do you love me so much?"

Jack's POV

Why do I love him so much? It takes me a minute to think of the correct words to say. Why DO I love him?

Well... Let's see... He's adorable. He's cute. He's a got a soft side as well as a strong side. He's DEFINITELY strong emotion wise. He's been through a lot. Yes he has scars, yes he was anorexic, but you have to admit, it's amazing he made it this far.

"Well... What is there to say about that? Lex... Every time I see you I fall in love all over again. You're one of the things that keeps me going everyday when I'm tired or dreading something. You're always there. You're strong and more confident with yourself since I met you. You've come a long way with your self harm and self esteem. It's gotten way better. Besides your strong side, you have a soft side. A side that isn't afraid to cry in front of people; certain people. There's also that side of you that isn't afraid to speak your mind when your upset even though you don't mean it in the end." I explain. He smiles at me and has a look in his eye as if he'd never be able to think that about himself. "I could say a lot more, but there's one thing I would regret in my life and one thing I don't."

"What's that?" He asks.

"If we ever fought enough that I'd make you leave me." I say. He nods. "I definitely don't regret ever loving you." He smiles widely. I think I boosted his self esteem by a mile.

"I love you Jacky."

"I love you Lexxy." He rests his head on my shoulder and falls asleep. A few hours later we're in LA. I shake Alex awake and he yawns.

"Morning sleepy head." I say with a giggle. He smiles tiredly at me. "You can sleep at the new house."

"Okay." He yawns.

We get off the plane and look for Keith. We look get to baggage claim and grab our luggage as my mom looks for Keith. We walk over to her when we found all our bags and start looking.

"Found him." Rian says. We follow his finger to Keith. We walk over to him and my mom greets him.

"Hello boys! Ready to meet your crew and see your new house?" Keith asks. We nod rapidly and run outside to see a limo.

"WHOA!" Zack and I shout. We get into the limo and Alex sits on my lap.

"Hey, Alex." I giggle. He smiles.

"You guys are adorable." Zack smiles.

"They're together?" Keith asks. I feel my face heat up. We nod. "Congratulations!" I sigh of relief and look at Alex who looks like he let out a great deal of stress too.

"So today's the day we'll hang out and get to know each other. Tomorrow will head to the studio and I'll check out some songs you've written. If they're good enough we'll add chords and beats and that stuff to it." Keith explains.

We nod as he talks and when he finishes explaining things, we're at the house. We get inside and there's a bunch of guys.

"Okay! Boys, this is your crew. Jeff Maker the light guy, Even Kirkendall the sound guy, Danny Kurily and Greico your guitar techs, Matt Flyzik your tour manager, Vinny Vegas your Merch guy and Matt Colussy the assistant tour manager." Keith explains. "Guys this is Alex Gaskarth the singer and guitarist, Jack Barakat the guitarist, Zack Merrick the bassist and Rian the drummer."

We all unpack and then look around the house. There's a giant living room, a TV room, a gaming room, the basement which is also a bar which we can't drink at since we're sixteen, a big kitchen, five bedrooms and HUGE backyard. The backyard has an in-ground pool with a diving board and a hot tub.

"Shit..." I mutter. Someone rests their hand on my shoulder. I look over and see my mom. "Mom... we made it..."

"You did didn't you?" She asks. Smiling, I hug her and feel tears brimming my eyes. Not tears of sadness, but tears of joy. "Don't cry baby!"

"I'm not upset!" I say, pulling away from her. "I can't believe we did it."

"Well, your determination to not sleep for weeks on end, paid off." My mom says with a smile. I nod and see Aled talking to Vinny. "Go have fun and make friends."

"Mom... Can I ask you something?"

"Sure baby. What is it?"

"Do you think Alex's dad will come up?"

"Of course!"

"Good... He was worried about that on the plane." I say. She nods and I walk over to Alex, wrapping my arms around his waist from behind making him jump. "Hiya."

"Shit. You scared me." He says. I giggle and kiss his cheek.

"You guys are TOGETHER?" He shouts. We nod and smile, my heart pounding. "That's cute!"

"Thanks, Vinny." Alex says.

"CHUG! CHUG! CHUG! CHUG!" I hear from the basement. Oh god...

Alex and I run downstairs to see Keith and Colussy have a beer drinking contest. I guess this is fame?

After a few hours everyone's crashed in the living room. I head up toy room and sit on my bed.

This is real.

I just hope it lasts a LONG time.

Notes

Sucky chapter. Sorry I didn't update. I was busy with Christmas present shopping and stuff. Plus I was stumped so it was a mic of stuff!:) so... Enjoy this!:)
-Jenna
title Credit: Sleeping With Sirens; James Dean and Audrey Hepburn.