Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
The look in your eyes makes me crazy
I was shaking in the car next morning with Alex. Mom and dad was earlier than us, so I had to face the school with only Alex.
To cover the bandage, I wore a big oversized hoodie, with the sleeves half pulled over my hands. I was actually terrified, because I knew that we would be there right when they had break for 10 minutes.
"Wendy, calm down, it'll be fine.", Alex tried to calm me down, and held my hand. I breathed faster than I should and wanted to cry. "Breath slow, and you'll stop shaking. Breathe in, breathe out.", he turned off the car outside the building.
"They all are having break now, so they gonna be in the halls. So how the fuck am I supposed to calm down?!", I yelled, and tried to breathe to be less frightened.
"Baby, you know I love you, and they have nothing on us. They can say whatever they want, but I'll never let them bring us down. I'll punch them in their faces if I have to.", he said and got out of the car.
"Well, I love you too.", I murmured, and met him by the front of the car. Alex grabbed my hand, and looked me in the eyes.
"You can do this, okey?", he said, and I nodded.
"Yeah.", I pulled my hood over my head, so my was almost unseeable. "Let's go,", my heart was beating to the limit, and I just wanted to make us invisible for a moment. The steps to the front door seemed faster than usual, and I wanted to slow down, but we were already running late.
Alex held up the door for me, and we walked inside, hand in hand. The younger kids that ran in the stairs while we walked up, stared at us with big eyes. A mean sentence, or word, had never ever left their mouths, but it still felt a bit insulting to be staring at. My boyfriend was good at ignoring, and we kept walking upstairs, until we came to my floor. He held my hand harder as we walked through the doors. As I knew, everyone was in the hall talking, but when they saw us, everyone got quiet.
The hall was a couple of yards we had to pass, and suddenly it felt like we walked slower. Every single student looked at us, and I was more scared than ever. Alex seemed so sure on what he was doing, and he was just walking, staring right forward, but then at me. My heart stopped, by terrifying when I saw the blonde bimbo and her friends looking at me, or mostly Alex.
Right when we passed them, a boy of the gang said; "Wow Gaskarth, how long will you keep pretend loving her? I mean, look at the freak, no one likes her.", he grinned at us, and I saw something black in Alex eyes.
"You better fuck off you lit-", I grabbed his arm, when he was about to run up to him.
"Alex, stop. It's not worth it.", I said, and dragged him forward. The boy couldn't even say a whole sentence, without having a pissed off Alex that wanted to beat the shit out of him.
"Watch him out, one day will he be gone, fed up on you.", the bimbo was really triggering, and I wanted to go home, and pick up my razors. But a promise is a promise, I couldn't hurt Alex again. I looked at him, and I saw on his face that he was furious. Why did the fucking principle want his office on our floor?!
We walked the last yards, without having anyone saying something. I opened the door to the office, and four chairs was in front of the desk with my principle behind, and two if them were taking by mom and dad. I took the seat next to mom, and Alex on the outer corner.
"Did the ride go well?", mom whispered.
"Yes.", I whispered.
"Hi miss Mark, it's nice to see you. Mr. Gaskarth, it was some years since last time, how's it going?", my principle Tom Fields asked.
"I don't think we're here to small talk, aren't we?", Alex answered with a smirk.
"I was just trying to be polite, but we're hear for some serious reasons. Who wants to start?", mr. Fields asked and crossed his fingers.
"I think you should.", my mom started. "How could you let anything like this happen without doing anything against it?"
"As I've told you before, I didn't know your daughter was bullied so bad, or at all, that she tried to take her life. It's not easy for me to know, if she doesn't tell a teacher, or me, so I don't think it's my fault.", he defended himself, like he didn't do anything wrong.
"She didn't try to commit suicide, she just screamed for help in the wrong way. Don't try to take this out in her now, it isn't her fault that those creep outside telling her stuff no one deserves to hear.", dad was angry now too.
"Don't you fucking get that I was terrified to show me small by call for help? Don't you have employers who cleans, and walks often in the halls? I can't blame anyone for the texts I received, but you just can't hear when someone tells me to go and kill myself just like my sister, and that we both belong in the same grave, and in hell!", I almost shouted in mr. Fields face.
"Miss Mark, you don't need to yell at me, I can hear you perfectly fine in a normal tone. And you're right, someone should've noticed, but now no one didn't and there's nothing we could do about it, and I apologize with all of my heart to you for what you've been, and going through.", he said, but I didn't answer. He was actually a fucking asshole, and Alex hugged my hand harder for each time he made him more pissed off.
The talk went on for an half hour, with mom, dad and mr. Fields arguing about me, the schools safety, policy, the teachers and what would happen next.
"I recommend that miss Mark take a week off, and then returns to the school. By then I will talk to the students about this, and make sure this won't happen again.", Fields said, proud over himself.
"My daughter won't take a footstep on this area again I tell you. We're gonna come up with a new, or home schooling, depending on what's best for her.", mom said, and stood up.
"I think it's better if she comes back, and gets back in the saddle. Otherwise, she'll be afraid of going to school for the rest of her life, and that means no collage.", he said, trying to save his school pride.
"I'd rather go homeless, than coming back.", I answered and the rest of us stood up too.
"I think we're done here. Goodbye mr. Fields.", my warrior mom said, and we all walked out. Alex put his arm around my shoulder and kissed me above my ear.
"You're the best.", he said, and I smiled at him.
"So darling, this is the last time you walk through these halls, make the goodbye special.", dad said when we walked to my locker.
"Fuck off bitches, I'll be better off without you now!", I screamed in happiness. We got to my locker, and I started to pack my thing up in my bag. My books, my notebooks, and my pictures of my friends and of Alex when we were home, kissing and when he was on stage.
The feeling I had when we walked to the cars wasn't describable, it felt like a dream somehow, but still horrible what just a house filled with people can make you feel like.
Glad I'm out for good.
To cover the bandage, I wore a big oversized hoodie, with the sleeves half pulled over my hands. I was actually terrified, because I knew that we would be there right when they had break for 10 minutes.
"Wendy, calm down, it'll be fine.", Alex tried to calm me down, and held my hand. I breathed faster than I should and wanted to cry. "Breath slow, and you'll stop shaking. Breathe in, breathe out.", he turned off the car outside the building.
"They all are having break now, so they gonna be in the halls. So how the fuck am I supposed to calm down?!", I yelled, and tried to breathe to be less frightened.
"Baby, you know I love you, and they have nothing on us. They can say whatever they want, but I'll never let them bring us down. I'll punch them in their faces if I have to.", he said and got out of the car.
"Well, I love you too.", I murmured, and met him by the front of the car. Alex grabbed my hand, and looked me in the eyes.
"You can do this, okey?", he said, and I nodded.
"Yeah.", I pulled my hood over my head, so my was almost unseeable. "Let's go,", my heart was beating to the limit, and I just wanted to make us invisible for a moment. The steps to the front door seemed faster than usual, and I wanted to slow down, but we were already running late.
Alex held up the door for me, and we walked inside, hand in hand. The younger kids that ran in the stairs while we walked up, stared at us with big eyes. A mean sentence, or word, had never ever left their mouths, but it still felt a bit insulting to be staring at. My boyfriend was good at ignoring, and we kept walking upstairs, until we came to my floor. He held my hand harder as we walked through the doors. As I knew, everyone was in the hall talking, but when they saw us, everyone got quiet.
The hall was a couple of yards we had to pass, and suddenly it felt like we walked slower. Every single student looked at us, and I was more scared than ever. Alex seemed so sure on what he was doing, and he was just walking, staring right forward, but then at me. My heart stopped, by terrifying when I saw the blonde bimbo and her friends looking at me, or mostly Alex.
Right when we passed them, a boy of the gang said; "Wow Gaskarth, how long will you keep pretend loving her? I mean, look at the freak, no one likes her.", he grinned at us, and I saw something black in Alex eyes.
"You better fuck off you lit-", I grabbed his arm, when he was about to run up to him.
"Alex, stop. It's not worth it.", I said, and dragged him forward. The boy couldn't even say a whole sentence, without having a pissed off Alex that wanted to beat the shit out of him.
"Watch him out, one day will he be gone, fed up on you.", the bimbo was really triggering, and I wanted to go home, and pick up my razors. But a promise is a promise, I couldn't hurt Alex again. I looked at him, and I saw on his face that he was furious. Why did the fucking principle want his office on our floor?!
We walked the last yards, without having anyone saying something. I opened the door to the office, and four chairs was in front of the desk with my principle behind, and two if them were taking by mom and dad. I took the seat next to mom, and Alex on the outer corner.
"Did the ride go well?", mom whispered.
"Yes.", I whispered.
"Hi miss Mark, it's nice to see you. Mr. Gaskarth, it was some years since last time, how's it going?", my principle Tom Fields asked.
"I don't think we're here to small talk, aren't we?", Alex answered with a smirk.
"I was just trying to be polite, but we're hear for some serious reasons. Who wants to start?", mr. Fields asked and crossed his fingers.
"I think you should.", my mom started. "How could you let anything like this happen without doing anything against it?"
"As I've told you before, I didn't know your daughter was bullied so bad, or at all, that she tried to take her life. It's not easy for me to know, if she doesn't tell a teacher, or me, so I don't think it's my fault.", he defended himself, like he didn't do anything wrong.
"She didn't try to commit suicide, she just screamed for help in the wrong way. Don't try to take this out in her now, it isn't her fault that those creep outside telling her stuff no one deserves to hear.", dad was angry now too.
"Don't you fucking get that I was terrified to show me small by call for help? Don't you have employers who cleans, and walks often in the halls? I can't blame anyone for the texts I received, but you just can't hear when someone tells me to go and kill myself just like my sister, and that we both belong in the same grave, and in hell!", I almost shouted in mr. Fields face.
"Miss Mark, you don't need to yell at me, I can hear you perfectly fine in a normal tone. And you're right, someone should've noticed, but now no one didn't and there's nothing we could do about it, and I apologize with all of my heart to you for what you've been, and going through.", he said, but I didn't answer. He was actually a fucking asshole, and Alex hugged my hand harder for each time he made him more pissed off.
The talk went on for an half hour, with mom, dad and mr. Fields arguing about me, the schools safety, policy, the teachers and what would happen next.
"I recommend that miss Mark take a week off, and then returns to the school. By then I will talk to the students about this, and make sure this won't happen again.", Fields said, proud over himself.
"My daughter won't take a footstep on this area again I tell you. We're gonna come up with a new, or home schooling, depending on what's best for her.", mom said, and stood up.
"I think it's better if she comes back, and gets back in the saddle. Otherwise, she'll be afraid of going to school for the rest of her life, and that means no collage.", he said, trying to save his school pride.
"I'd rather go homeless, than coming back.", I answered and the rest of us stood up too.
"I think we're done here. Goodbye mr. Fields.", my warrior mom said, and we all walked out. Alex put his arm around my shoulder and kissed me above my ear.
"You're the best.", he said, and I smiled at him.
"So darling, this is the last time you walk through these halls, make the goodbye special.", dad said when we walked to my locker.
"Fuck off bitches, I'll be better off without you now!", I screamed in happiness. We got to my locker, and I started to pack my thing up in my bag. My books, my notebooks, and my pictures of my friends and of Alex when we were home, kissing and when he was on stage.
The feeling I had when we walked to the cars wasn't describable, it felt like a dream somehow, but still horrible what just a house filled with people can make you feel like.
Glad I'm out for good.
Notes
Tell me what you think! Sorry for the long waiting, but tomorrow, my aunt is coming and I meet her like 3 times a year so don't go crazy over my update then.I just wanted you to know that I put down a lot of more work and feeling in this part of the story than in RAWM, so that's why it takes more time, and my update is worse.
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
7/5/16