Just Two Kids Stupid And Fearless
I'm ready to make my move
"I'm leaving tomorrow again at six, so we have like one a half day together. What do you wanna do?", mom and dad allowed me to be with Alex, and sleepover at his until he left, because he wouldn't stay so long. "I've cleaned up everything from yesterday, changed the sheets, and I threw away all the razors.", we stood in the hall, and just got off our shoes. "I threw away all the razors", was he really that scared of that I would do it again.
"Okey, do you think it was so bad?", I asked him and raised my eyebrows. He sighed.
"It wasn't my idea, it was the hospitals. They said that we should remove anything that was sharpe, and you could hurt yourself with. It's not that I don't believe in you, I really think that you can stay clean for the rest of your life.", he said, trying to not put anything bad on himself.
"Cool.", I said, he was just here for a little while, and fighting wasn't something I wanted to waste on that.
"Don't you believe me?", he pulled me closer to him.
"Of course I do.", I answered, and walked to the bedroom with Alex after me. The purple sheets was replaced by black, and white pillows. The blood stains on the floor was gone, and the little box on the nightstand wasn't there. It was here I almost died. Yesterday.
"Baby, don't think about it now. We gonna have a good time, before I leave.", Alex said behind me.
"How can I not think about it? It was only yesterday in happened.", I mumbled, and he turned me around. His leaned his forehead to mine, and put his arms around my waist.
"Don't hesitate on yourself, you're strong. You're strong, beautiful and perfect in every single way on the inside, and the outside. And I love you for that. To be honest, I love every part of you, there's nothing I would change. I know this is hard for you, but just don't think about for now, and it'll get better, I swear.", he said, and I sighed.
"I love you too, so fucking much. Even more.", I said and wrapped my arms around his neck. "And I can't compare to your perfection.", he grinned at my words and kissed me gentle. His lips to mine. That was the way it should be, forever.
He pressed kissed me harder, and pushed me onto the bed. I crawled up with him on me to the top and let my head sink into the soft pillows. He stood on his knees over me, with his hands on each side of my head while kissing me. I tried to pull him down on my, but it wasn't something he wanted.
"I don't wanna smash your tiny little body.", he smiled at my lips.
"I don't mind.", I said, but regretted it. It sounded so wrong, and suicidal. He looked chocked on me. "I didn't mean it that way.", he kissed me again, and laid down on top of me. I twisted my legs around his thighs, just to make sure he wouldn't stop. He pressed his hands under me, and then under my t-shirt. He squeezed it off, and saw my stomach which was thinner than it should, and all off my ribs were unmissable. He stopped kissing me just to check them out.
"'Perfect on the outside' right?", I quoted him ironical, embarrassed, while I tried to take on my top again.
"Don't,", Alex stopped me, and threw my t-shirt away. "I'll always think you're beautiful, no matter what. Don't ever be ashamed of your body when you're with me. Or anyone. You are perfect, don't ever doubt on that."
"I'll gain weight I promise.", I said.
"I don't care how your body looks, but I want it to be healthy for you.", he said, and returned to kiss me. I started to unbutton his yellow and black checkered shirt, and pulled it off. I rolled on top of him, and started to kiss his neck while squeezing off his jeans. He touched my stomach, and ribs gentle with his fingertips.
I was insecure about it actually, he tried to make me not with telling me I'm beautiful by words and acts while I knew he freaked out because I was so underweight.
Alex unbuttoned my jeans, and I helped him off with them. He threw them on the floor, and soon he was above me again, biting my lip. I opened my mouth for him so his tongue could play with mine. While he tried to undo my bra, I felt his boner to my body.
"Well, was that the first time in like four or five weeks?", Alex said a couple of minutes after we were done.
"Yeah, gosh I've missed this. Just you, and me, cuddling together.", I answered and rested my head on his collarbone.
"I've missed you too.", he mumbled in my hair, and kissed it. "I think we should get a dog."
"Wow, random time bringing that up?", I answered him. "We don't even love together."
"Practical, we do. You're spending most of your time here, or with me.", Alex stood up.
"I don't think it's such of a good idea. Mom and dad would never let me move now. And by the way, if we're getting any pet, a cat it is.", I argued. Dogs had never been me, but cats had since I was little.
"We're no old ladies, dogs are so modern, cats are for old people. And dogs are better to get before you have kids."
"Why are you talking so much about the future? I don't even know what I wanna work as. Are you about to propose?", I didn't think over the last sentence, it just slipped out.
"What? No, I'm not about to fucking propose. I'm just trying to get us to the next level.", Alex defended.
"I'm fine on this level, and don't wanna move to fast. I'd love to move in here, and get a cat, but just not right now. I love having sleepovers, and movie nights with you, even at my place. I'm not ready to leave that house yet, it's so many memories with everyone, especially Alice you know.", I said. "But I will let go, but maybe in 2-3 mounts, mattering on how my health is."
"When we're talking about healthiness, you need to be fed.", he said, and raised from the bed, ready to walk to the kitchen.
"Umm, Alex?", I giggled.
"Yeah?"
"I think you should put on something before.", I laughed, and he looked down at his naked body.
"Oh, you're right.", he laughed, and put on his boxers and his jeans. I shook my head, and went to the drawer with my clothes. I pulled on new underwear, and the BONER shirt I got from Jack on my 18th birthday.
"So, I thought about bacon and macaronis.", Alex said when I got in the kitchen, looking in the lockers.
"Sound good.", I said, walked up to him, and hugged him from behind. "You know I love you, in every way."
"I love you too.", he looked down at me, putting one arm around my shoulders. He bent down and kissed me gentle. "You know I like this level too, and I'll wait until you're ready."
"It won't take long hopefully.", I smiled up at him.
"Okey, do you think it was so bad?", I asked him and raised my eyebrows. He sighed.
"It wasn't my idea, it was the hospitals. They said that we should remove anything that was sharpe, and you could hurt yourself with. It's not that I don't believe in you, I really think that you can stay clean for the rest of your life.", he said, trying to not put anything bad on himself.
"Cool.", I said, he was just here for a little while, and fighting wasn't something I wanted to waste on that.
"Don't you believe me?", he pulled me closer to him.
"Of course I do.", I answered, and walked to the bedroom with Alex after me. The purple sheets was replaced by black, and white pillows. The blood stains on the floor was gone, and the little box on the nightstand wasn't there. It was here I almost died. Yesterday.
"Baby, don't think about it now. We gonna have a good time, before I leave.", Alex said behind me.
"How can I not think about it? It was only yesterday in happened.", I mumbled, and he turned me around. His leaned his forehead to mine, and put his arms around my waist.
"Don't hesitate on yourself, you're strong. You're strong, beautiful and perfect in every single way on the inside, and the outside. And I love you for that. To be honest, I love every part of you, there's nothing I would change. I know this is hard for you, but just don't think about for now, and it'll get better, I swear.", he said, and I sighed.
"I love you too, so fucking much. Even more.", I said and wrapped my arms around his neck. "And I can't compare to your perfection.", he grinned at my words and kissed me gentle. His lips to mine. That was the way it should be, forever.
He pressed kissed me harder, and pushed me onto the bed. I crawled up with him on me to the top and let my head sink into the soft pillows. He stood on his knees over me, with his hands on each side of my head while kissing me. I tried to pull him down on my, but it wasn't something he wanted.
"I don't wanna smash your tiny little body.", he smiled at my lips.
"I don't mind.", I said, but regretted it. It sounded so wrong, and suicidal. He looked chocked on me. "I didn't mean it that way.", he kissed me again, and laid down on top of me. I twisted my legs around his thighs, just to make sure he wouldn't stop. He pressed his hands under me, and then under my t-shirt. He squeezed it off, and saw my stomach which was thinner than it should, and all off my ribs were unmissable. He stopped kissing me just to check them out.
"'Perfect on the outside' right?", I quoted him ironical, embarrassed, while I tried to take on my top again.
"Don't,", Alex stopped me, and threw my t-shirt away. "I'll always think you're beautiful, no matter what. Don't ever be ashamed of your body when you're with me. Or anyone. You are perfect, don't ever doubt on that."
"I'll gain weight I promise.", I said.
"I don't care how your body looks, but I want it to be healthy for you.", he said, and returned to kiss me. I started to unbutton his yellow and black checkered shirt, and pulled it off. I rolled on top of him, and started to kiss his neck while squeezing off his jeans. He touched my stomach, and ribs gentle with his fingertips.
I was insecure about it actually, he tried to make me not with telling me I'm beautiful by words and acts while I knew he freaked out because I was so underweight.
Alex unbuttoned my jeans, and I helped him off with them. He threw them on the floor, and soon he was above me again, biting my lip. I opened my mouth for him so his tongue could play with mine. While he tried to undo my bra, I felt his boner to my body.
"Well, was that the first time in like four or five weeks?", Alex said a couple of minutes after we were done.
"Yeah, gosh I've missed this. Just you, and me, cuddling together.", I answered and rested my head on his collarbone.
"I've missed you too.", he mumbled in my hair, and kissed it. "I think we should get a dog."
"Wow, random time bringing that up?", I answered him. "We don't even love together."
"Practical, we do. You're spending most of your time here, or with me.", Alex stood up.
"I don't think it's such of a good idea. Mom and dad would never let me move now. And by the way, if we're getting any pet, a cat it is.", I argued. Dogs had never been me, but cats had since I was little.
"We're no old ladies, dogs are so modern, cats are for old people. And dogs are better to get before you have kids."
"Why are you talking so much about the future? I don't even know what I wanna work as. Are you about to propose?", I didn't think over the last sentence, it just slipped out.
"What? No, I'm not about to fucking propose. I'm just trying to get us to the next level.", Alex defended.
"I'm fine on this level, and don't wanna move to fast. I'd love to move in here, and get a cat, but just not right now. I love having sleepovers, and movie nights with you, even at my place. I'm not ready to leave that house yet, it's so many memories with everyone, especially Alice you know.", I said. "But I will let go, but maybe in 2-3 mounts, mattering on how my health is."
"When we're talking about healthiness, you need to be fed.", he said, and raised from the bed, ready to walk to the kitchen.
"Umm, Alex?", I giggled.
"Yeah?"
"I think you should put on something before.", I laughed, and he looked down at his naked body.
"Oh, you're right.", he laughed, and put on his boxers and his jeans. I shook my head, and went to the drawer with my clothes. I pulled on new underwear, and the BONER shirt I got from Jack on my 18th birthday.
"So, I thought about bacon and macaronis.", Alex said when I got in the kitchen, looking in the lockers.
"Sound good.", I said, walked up to him, and hugged him from behind. "You know I love you, in every way."
"I love you too.", he looked down at me, putting one arm around my shoulders. He bent down and kissed me gentle. "You know I like this level too, and I'll wait until you're ready."
"It won't take long hopefully.", I smiled up at him.
So, I just read what you have of this story and its prequel, and I really like what you have of both. At first, it was a little rough getting into it; it seemed kind of rushed at first, especially with all of the drama of how they got together and then broke up in like a day when they first met, but I have to say, after the time passed and they got back together again, this story just really started getting good. Some of the grammar is a bit off, but as you continued the story I noticed your improvement and that's awesome; that means you have definitely progressed as you have continued writing this.
I'm sad it was never finished, though. One thing I found a bit odd was that you continued with this installment after giving the first one an epilogue, due to the fact that means we already know the ending for Wendy and Alex, but... I kind of like how you did that. I don't believe I've seen an author do that before, kind of go back and fill in the time in-between in the sequel.
And this story is seriously so cute. Alex and Wendy's love is seriously so genuine; again, while it was a bit rushed at first, as I got into the second half of the first installment and this sequel it was just, wow, I just love their relationship. It's been a while since I've seen such a connection between the two characters and I seriously enjoyed it.
And I also liked the fact that as I got to the end of what you have so far, that you made it realistic. Alex understands she's not ready for a baby and is ready to sacrifice that. This is actually the first time I've seen this in a story, where it's being both considered and followed through with, along with the fact that both characters are for the most part peaceful with the decision. Hell I'm even peaceful with the decision, which really surprises me, because every other story where this has happened, I haven't been. And that's really weird for me, so kudos for pulling that off and making it convincing, and not making it so heartbreaking. I mean it is still a heartbreaking thing, but it's more understood that it's the best decision. Although the two characters being fine with it probably is what makes me as a reader somewhat okay with it. I'm happy you took that route as opposed to creating severe conflict, which is what I typically see with this idea. It was a nice change.
And, wow, this is a long comment. To sum up, I think you're a great writer and I really hope you're still writing on your own time, at least. I'm sad this wasn't finished, but I wanted to leave a comment letting you know my thoughts and just how much I've genuinely liked what I've read so far. Seriously, great job. If you ever choose to continue someday, I will be here to read. This story is too good to let go. I think these two characters should have more of a conclusion in this installment. But I guess overall I should be happy, considering with the last installment, we know that they end up together. So at least that's been told.
But still, if you continue, I'm willing to read. :)
7/5/16