Make it a sweet, sweet goodbye
027
Jack’s POV
It had been a couple of weeks since Alex and Rebecca had been together, and I hadn’t had been the same since. I don’t know what it was but the sight of them two together just made my heart break. I know that by now I probably seem like a whiny brat who doesn’t get his own way but…it hurts you know? Never have I felt about a girl the way I feel about Rebecca. She makes me smile everyday with her cute dimples and bright personality. Only two people know about my feelings for Rebecca and they are Alex and this new kid Zack. I had met him through a family friend and he turned out to be a good listener. Also I found out he played Bass!
I knew I couldn’t tell Rian or Kara because they would either have a go at me for liking Alex’s girlfriend or try to make me tell Becca how I feel…neither of the options sounded good to me. And I needed someone to talk to about my feelings, cause it had got to the point now where I felt like I was drowning.
I got out of bed on a normal Monday morning ready to face the day ahead. I had enjoyed a happy weekend, constantly drinking to forget my feelings for Becca, but sadly the week days had caught up and I now had to go to school and deal with everything. I remembered how on the Friday I had introduced Alex and Rian to Zack and we all decided to make a band. I was excited about the prospect of making music with my closest friends, but not excited over the idea of Alex bringing Becca to band practise as Rian was going to bring Kara. Let’s just say, since everything that had happened, I hadn’t spoken to Rebecca probably. Yeah I would see her in our group at school but I hadn’t had a proper conversation with her in what seemed like forever. I didn’t trust myself around her, I was scared that I would let my feelings take over, make a move and not realise what I had done till after it had happened.
I left the house on time dressed in my simple blink tee and skinny jeans, not really caring about my appearance seeing as Rebecca never noticed me. I arrived to school at the normal time and made my way to where we always meet. Walking to our spot I realised no one was here yet and sat down under the tree. I pulled out my phone and started playing the old sonic game I had saved on it, and before too long a shadow was cast over me. I looked up coming face to face with someone I didn’t expect to see.
“What do you want Kendra?” already not in the mood to deal with her bullshit today.
“Awww Jack that’s no way to greet a girl who’s about to do you a favour.” She replies placing a hand on her lip and faking a pout.
“And why the fuck would I need a favour from you?” I ask in a disgusted tone, knowing what her types of favours were.
“Now, now, not like that Jack, what would make you think that I want you?” she asks in a questioning manner.
“Then what the fuck do you want?” I question watching her with hawk eyes.
“I think we can help each other Jacky.” She replies, annoyance filling me at her using my nickname from Becca.
“Okay first it’s Jack to you, only Becca calls me Jacky and secondly, how the fuck would you help me in whatever problem you think I have?” I ask laughing at the last part.
“Well for a fact I know you’re in love with Rebecca.” She replies catching me off guard.
“Wh-what are you on about.” I ask stuttering.
“Oh please Jack, I don’t insult your intelligence so please do not insult mine. You can tell simply by the way you look at her.” She replies sitting down in front of me on the grass. I’m surprised she’s not scared to get her clothes dirty.
“Hypothetically…if I was to like Rebecca…not saying I do! But if I was…what would it matter to you?” I ask crossing my arms over my chest.
“Don’t you see Jack? I want Alex and you want Rebecca! I suggest we split them up so we can get the ones we want.” She replies a smile slipping onto her face.
“You’re crazy.” I mutter rolling my eyes. She’s such a psycho nut job, I have no idea why Alex ever slept with her.
“Am I Jack? You see I think Becca has feelings for you, she just doesn’t know about them yet because her time is always taken up by Alex. I know it upsets you because you never get the girl do you? You’re always second best to Alex.” She explains smirking. She thinks Rebecca likes me? Nah she’s got to be bluffing.
“Just shut up.” I shout now getting angry. This causes a silence to occur and some people walking past glance over at us before continuing on walking into school, I can’t help but wonder where everyone is.
“Aww whats wrong Jack? Can’t take the bitter truth?” Kendra asks, smirking. “Aren’t you use to that by now Jack? I mean you’re still a virgin because of Alex? Every girl you’ve ever come close to being with has run off and had a one night stand with him; do you really want that to happen to Rebecca? Do you want her to be on the long list of Alex’s conquests?” She asks staring at me. I can’t help but feel a part of me agree with her. I mean this is Alex we are talking about, how do we know he’s serious with Rebecca. I’d hate for this to be some overthought plan to get Rebecca to sleep with him and then for him to just throw her away like he’s done with every girl. No Rebecca is special, he knows that, he wouldn’t do it, would he?
“He wouldn’t do that to her.” I say through my teeth, holding in my anger.
“Hmm maybe your right, but still, do you want to lose another girl to Alex?” Kendra asks flipping her hair out of her face before glancing around the now emptying courtyard. “Where are the little love birds and that other ugly couple anyway?” Kendra questions turning to look at me.
“Late probably.”I mutter just loud enough for her to hear.
“Aww Jacky what’s wrong? Tired of being left out, tired of being the lonely one? I guess this happens to you a lot huh? I wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped off somewhere first and forgot to inform you.”
“Shut up!” I shout standing up. This causes Kendra to smile standing up with me.
“Jack I didn’t mean to make you mad. I was just thinking of you here…well us really. We both love someone who is too blind to realise we exist.I’m tired of being alone as well here Jack, I’m just saying, if you let me help you, we never have to be alone again.” Kendra explains placing an a hand on my arm in a comforting way. I shake her off, glaring at her. She shakes her head lightly with a smile on her face.
“I don’t want your help. And no they did not forget me, and I don’t need someone.” I hiss at her.
“Well say whatever you want but…heres my number.” She whispers stepping close to me and placing a small piece of paper in my pocket. She looks me dead in the eye before whispering “call me if you change your mind.”
“I won’t.” I call out as she slowly walks away. I stand dazed for a second before I feel a small pair of arms wrap round me from behind, I turn round quickly to come face to face with Rebecca, noticing the others catching up behind her.
“Where were you guys?” I question glancing down at Rebecca then at the others.
“Oh Shit, sorry dude we stopped for breakfast I guess we forgot to let you know.” Alex explains as he pat’s me on the back. Huh.
“Ermm, It’s fine.” I reply before quickly hugging Rebecca back and walking in with the others. Well I say walking in, more like following the two happy couples. I walk behind them faintly hearing Rebecca and Alex whispering.
“Come on babe, you know you want it.” Whispers Alex seductively in Rebecca’s ear. Rebecca giggles and leans further into his arms; I faintly hear her whisper something along the lines of not being ready yet; causing me to feel sick to my stomach.
I continue walking behind the couple feeling alone and like an outsider. I thought of Kendra’s words earlier…and I glance at Rebecca. I don’t want Alex to use her like the others. I continue to walk and think…my hand slowly reaching into my pocket containing the number.
It had been a couple of weeks since Alex and Rebecca had been together, and I hadn’t had been the same since. I don’t know what it was but the sight of them two together just made my heart break. I know that by now I probably seem like a whiny brat who doesn’t get his own way but…it hurts you know? Never have I felt about a girl the way I feel about Rebecca. She makes me smile everyday with her cute dimples and bright personality. Only two people know about my feelings for Rebecca and they are Alex and this new kid Zack. I had met him through a family friend and he turned out to be a good listener. Also I found out he played Bass!
I knew I couldn’t tell Rian or Kara because they would either have a go at me for liking Alex’s girlfriend or try to make me tell Becca how I feel…neither of the options sounded good to me. And I needed someone to talk to about my feelings, cause it had got to the point now where I felt like I was drowning.
I got out of bed on a normal Monday morning ready to face the day ahead. I had enjoyed a happy weekend, constantly drinking to forget my feelings for Becca, but sadly the week days had caught up and I now had to go to school and deal with everything. I remembered how on the Friday I had introduced Alex and Rian to Zack and we all decided to make a band. I was excited about the prospect of making music with my closest friends, but not excited over the idea of Alex bringing Becca to band practise as Rian was going to bring Kara. Let’s just say, since everything that had happened, I hadn’t spoken to Rebecca probably. Yeah I would see her in our group at school but I hadn’t had a proper conversation with her in what seemed like forever. I didn’t trust myself around her, I was scared that I would let my feelings take over, make a move and not realise what I had done till after it had happened.
I left the house on time dressed in my simple blink tee and skinny jeans, not really caring about my appearance seeing as Rebecca never noticed me. I arrived to school at the normal time and made my way to where we always meet. Walking to our spot I realised no one was here yet and sat down under the tree. I pulled out my phone and started playing the old sonic game I had saved on it, and before too long a shadow was cast over me. I looked up coming face to face with someone I didn’t expect to see.
“What do you want Kendra?” already not in the mood to deal with her bullshit today.
“Awww Jack that’s no way to greet a girl who’s about to do you a favour.” She replies placing a hand on her lip and faking a pout.
“And why the fuck would I need a favour from you?” I ask in a disgusted tone, knowing what her types of favours were.
“Now, now, not like that Jack, what would make you think that I want you?” she asks in a questioning manner.
“Then what the fuck do you want?” I question watching her with hawk eyes.
“I think we can help each other Jacky.” She replies, annoyance filling me at her using my nickname from Becca.
“Okay first it’s Jack to you, only Becca calls me Jacky and secondly, how the fuck would you help me in whatever problem you think I have?” I ask laughing at the last part.
“Well for a fact I know you’re in love with Rebecca.” She replies catching me off guard.
“Wh-what are you on about.” I ask stuttering.
“Oh please Jack, I don’t insult your intelligence so please do not insult mine. You can tell simply by the way you look at her.” She replies sitting down in front of me on the grass. I’m surprised she’s not scared to get her clothes dirty.
“Hypothetically…if I was to like Rebecca…not saying I do! But if I was…what would it matter to you?” I ask crossing my arms over my chest.
“Don’t you see Jack? I want Alex and you want Rebecca! I suggest we split them up so we can get the ones we want.” She replies a smile slipping onto her face.
“You’re crazy.” I mutter rolling my eyes. She’s such a psycho nut job, I have no idea why Alex ever slept with her.
“Am I Jack? You see I think Becca has feelings for you, she just doesn’t know about them yet because her time is always taken up by Alex. I know it upsets you because you never get the girl do you? You’re always second best to Alex.” She explains smirking. She thinks Rebecca likes me? Nah she’s got to be bluffing.
“Just shut up.” I shout now getting angry. This causes a silence to occur and some people walking past glance over at us before continuing on walking into school, I can’t help but wonder where everyone is.
“Aww whats wrong Jack? Can’t take the bitter truth?” Kendra asks, smirking. “Aren’t you use to that by now Jack? I mean you’re still a virgin because of Alex? Every girl you’ve ever come close to being with has run off and had a one night stand with him; do you really want that to happen to Rebecca? Do you want her to be on the long list of Alex’s conquests?” She asks staring at me. I can’t help but feel a part of me agree with her. I mean this is Alex we are talking about, how do we know he’s serious with Rebecca. I’d hate for this to be some overthought plan to get Rebecca to sleep with him and then for him to just throw her away like he’s done with every girl. No Rebecca is special, he knows that, he wouldn’t do it, would he?
“He wouldn’t do that to her.” I say through my teeth, holding in my anger.
“Hmm maybe your right, but still, do you want to lose another girl to Alex?” Kendra asks flipping her hair out of her face before glancing around the now emptying courtyard. “Where are the little love birds and that other ugly couple anyway?” Kendra questions turning to look at me.
“Late probably.”I mutter just loud enough for her to hear.
“Aww Jacky what’s wrong? Tired of being left out, tired of being the lonely one? I guess this happens to you a lot huh? I wouldn’t be surprised if they stopped off somewhere first and forgot to inform you.”
“Shut up!” I shout standing up. This causes Kendra to smile standing up with me.
“Jack I didn’t mean to make you mad. I was just thinking of you here…well us really. We both love someone who is too blind to realise we exist.I’m tired of being alone as well here Jack, I’m just saying, if you let me help you, we never have to be alone again.” Kendra explains placing an a hand on my arm in a comforting way. I shake her off, glaring at her. She shakes her head lightly with a smile on her face.
“I don’t want your help. And no they did not forget me, and I don’t need someone.” I hiss at her.
“Well say whatever you want but…heres my number.” She whispers stepping close to me and placing a small piece of paper in my pocket. She looks me dead in the eye before whispering “call me if you change your mind.”
“I won’t.” I call out as she slowly walks away. I stand dazed for a second before I feel a small pair of arms wrap round me from behind, I turn round quickly to come face to face with Rebecca, noticing the others catching up behind her.
“Where were you guys?” I question glancing down at Rebecca then at the others.
“Oh Shit, sorry dude we stopped for breakfast I guess we forgot to let you know.” Alex explains as he pat’s me on the back. Huh.
“Ermm, It’s fine.” I reply before quickly hugging Rebecca back and walking in with the others. Well I say walking in, more like following the two happy couples. I walk behind them faintly hearing Rebecca and Alex whispering.
“Come on babe, you know you want it.” Whispers Alex seductively in Rebecca’s ear. Rebecca giggles and leans further into his arms; I faintly hear her whisper something along the lines of not being ready yet; causing me to feel sick to my stomach.
I continue walking behind the couple feeling alone and like an outsider. I thought of Kendra’s words earlier…and I glance at Rebecca. I don’t want Alex to use her like the others. I continue to walk and think…my hand slowly reaching into my pocket containing the number.
Notes
Awww poor Jack being left on his own! But Kendra seems to have a plan and needs Jack's help, what will he do? Okay so I didn't get to update this weekend but I have exams coming up! Bit nervous for them but I guess all I can do is try my best...Also my GREEN DAY TICKETS CAME! So excited for the 1st June, its going to be amazing!
Please let me know what you guys think of this chapter, I was a bit wary of it :/
11/10/13