Alex’s POV

It’s been almost a week since Jack left. Let’s say, I wasn’t coping at all. I haven’t eaten for the past week, I just turned to the bottle. We had to postpone shows because at our previous one I collapsed on stage. I’ve lost weight and all the colour from my face is gone. I haven’t slept much so my eyes are circled with dark rings. My iPod was constantly playing songs that reminded me of Jack. I miss him so much, it’s like half of my heart is gone. I want to hold him again and feel his lips against mine.

“Alex” a voice soothed.

I looked up and saw Zack standing at the doorway.

“I miss him Zack” I whispered.

“I know you do, he’ll come back: Zack whispered.

“But what if he doesn’t want me back?” I whimpered.

Zack sat on the bed and held me close as I started to cry, the tears blurring my vision.

“You’ll just need to fight for him Alex, if you really love him” he replied.

“I really do” I sobbed, clutching onto his shirt.

“Will you come eat please?” Zack questioned.

I sat in silence then nodded slightly as Zack let out a sigh of relief. He helped me off the bed and steadied me as we walked to the kitchen area. I saw Vic sitting at the table and I tensed a little. He was so pissed at me the night Jack broke up with me.

“Alex you look like shit” he mumbled.

“This is what heartbreak does to you” I replied quietly.

Vic patted the space beside him and I sat down as he hugged me close.

“I’m still angry with you, but we’ll fix this” he whispered.

“I didn’t mean for it to end like this” I mumbled.

“We all make mistakes Alex, and you’ll learn from this” Vic issued.

I nodded slightly as Vic held me tighter. He always knew what to do in these situations and it was extremely comforting and helpful. I noticed food sitting in front of me but my stomach churned at the thought of food.

“I can’t eat” I whispered.

“You don’t need to, if you can’t stand it right now. Just take your time” Vic replied.

Rian appeared in the kitchen area with someone behind him and I raised an eyebrow.

“Another visitor” he mused.

I looked over his shoulder and saw Ronnie Radke standing there.

“Holy shit dude, I haven’t seen you in a year!” I exclaimed.

Ronnie smiled as I stood up and gave him a hug.

“Good to see you too man” he chuckled as we pulled away.

“What are you doing here anyways?” I asked.

“Just thought I’d come and see how you are” he answered.

“Please don’t tell me you’re going to lecture me on how much of an ass I was to Jack” I mumbled.

Ronnie shook his head as he sat down beside me and put his arm around my shoulder.

“Pack your bags, we’re going somewhere” he issued.

I raised an eyebrow as Ronnie pushed me up and I walked into the bunk area. Where are we going? I can’t possibly go somewhere when we’ve still got tours to finish. And I also have to find a way of getting Jack back. I sighed, pulling my bag out as I started to pack it. I guess I need to wait and see.

*Time lapse one hour*

My stomach gave a protesting growl as I clutched it, walking into the airport. Ronnie raised a questioning eyebrow at me.

“When was the last time you ate man?” he asked.

“I, um” I stammered.

“That’s probably a stupid question, your bones are sticking out slightly” he replied.

I didn’t realise it was that bad, what the hell have I been doing to myself?

“I haven’t eaten in a week” I mumbled.

Ronnie stared at me, a look of hurt on his face and I sighed.

“Why are we here anyways?” I questioned.

“Just wait and see man” Ronnie chuckled.

He was determined to get me to eat so he dragged me to lots of eating places in the airport. I finally settled on fried and my stomach didn’t seem to churn this time. I could only manage a few but Ronnie said that was a good start.

“Alex, I know you hate talking about it but why did you go after Austin when you’re in love with Jack?” he questioned.

“I don’t know Ronnie, something in my head kept pushing me forward, telling me to go. I hate what I’ve done, I just want Jack to come back” I whispered.

Ronnie pulled me in for a hug and I felt fresh tears escaping my eyes.

“It’s ok to cry man” he soothed.

I nodded as I clutched onto his shirt, not even attempting to hold back the tears. Wherever we were going I hope it was somewhere peaceful, I can’t stand this anymore.

*Time lapse two hours*

Ronnie didn’t tell me where we were going, we just hopped on a plane and we were off. I hated this, this feeling of not knowing where we were landing. Our plane was preparing for landing and I strapped myself in. I felt sick to my stomach, I am never flying on an empty stomach again.

“Ronnie” I mumbled.

“Yeah dude?” he answered.

I held my hand out to him and he looked at me curiously before getting the hint. I wanted to feel safe while we landed since it’s the only thing I could think of doing. Ronnie squeezed my hand gently as I felt the plane drop. I closed my eyes as I tried to focus on something else.

“Think of Jack” Ronnie soothed.

Somehow thinking of him relaxed me and I totally ignored the plane landing. It hit the tarmac and I sighed with relief as I opened my eyes and Ronnie smiled. The plane stopped and I grabbed my bag as Ronnie and I quickly moved from the plane. We walked along the tarmac, wind blowing in my hair.

“Home sweet home” Ronnie mused.

I noticed a sign as we walked into the airport. ‘Welcome to Oakland’ it read. This is where our next show was. Maybe Rian and Zack were meeting us here with the bus. Ronnie and I passed through security and then the departure lounge as we made our way to the conveyor belt to grab our bags.

“Thanks for this Ronnie” I whispered.

“You’re most welcome man” Ronnie replied, a sneaky grin on his face, making me raise an eyebrow.

“Alex!” a voice yelled.

I jumped as I turned around, gasping as I noticed that familiar skunk hair. My heart pounded as I broke into a run.

Jack’s POV

“Jack!” Billie called.

“Yeah?” I replied, walking into the kitchen.

Billie noted the towel around my waist and blushed slightly.

“Phone for you” he mumbled, handing me the phone.

I raised an eyebrow as I took the phone from him.

“Hello?” I spoke.

“Jack, long time no speak, it’s Ronnie” the voice answered.

“Ronnie! Dude its been a while!” I exclaimed.

“I know man, we’ll need to catch up” he chuckled.

I laughed as I sat down on the couch and rested my legs on Billie’s lap as he sat down to watch TV.

“What’s up though, why the sudden call?” I questioned.

“It’s about Alex” he answered. “He’s a mess dude, he hasn’t eaten and all he is doing is drinking” he added.

My heart pounded as I shifted uneasily. My Alex was getting ill because of me? I wanted to cry right now but that would require telling Billie while I tried to stay calm.

“What can I do?” I replied worriedly.

“I have a plan, I’m bringing Alex to Oakland, Rian and Zack will drive up in the bus. Can you meet us at the airport to surprise Alex. If you want to give him another chance that is” Ronnie explained.

“I-I do, I r-really do” I stammered, tears escaping my eyes.

“Hey, calm down man, it will be ok. I’ll take care of him until we get there” Ronnie whispered.

“Thanks Ronnie, see you soon” I replied, ending the call.

I put the phone down as Billie looked at me with a smile, wiping the tears from my face. I can’t believe I let this happen to Alex. I hope he doesn’t hate me when I surprise him. I need to show him I still love him.

*Time lapse two hours*

Billie and I were nearly at Oakland airport and I was happy yet nervous to see Alex. Had he changed at all? I bet he looked skinny as hell and that worried me. My phone went off and I saw a picture message from Ronnie, it was one of Alex. He looked awful, he was pale and I could see mostly bone sticking out. He had that fake smile of his going on too. I bit my lip as I held back the tears, I can’t believe I did this.

“We’re here” Billie issued.

I unbuckled my seat belt as we walked into the airport. We had to go up an escalator and through some security.

“I’m nervous Billie” I whispered.

“You’ll be ok man, it’ll work out, y’know” he replied.

I nodded as we walked down some stairs and Billie stopped me.

“Jack” he soothed.

“What?” I questioned.

He put his hand on my shoulder as he turned me around.

“Look who it is” he whispered.

I followed where he was pointing and I saw Alex and Ronnie standing by the conveyor belt. My heart pounded rapidly as I broke into a run because of how far he was.

“Alex!” I yelled.

Alex jumped as he turned around, his jaw dropping as he saw me. He broke into a run and tears started welling up in my eyes as we got closer. Alex jumped on me, throwing his arms and legs around me as I held him close. He sobbed hysterically into the crook of my neck as I spun him around in my arms.

“I’m so sorry Jack, I’m sorry” he cried, his sobs choking him slightly.

“I forgive you Lex, I forgive you” I whispered, the tears still falling from my eyes.

Alex let go of me as I grabbed his face and kissed him passionately, my lips locking perfectly against his. His hands gripped my shirt as I felt his tears drop on my hands. We finally pulled away and I looked into his eyes as I rested my head against his.

“I love you” I whispered lovingly.

“I love you too Jack” he replied, his gaze not leaving mine.

I smiled, the tears stinging my eyes as I pulled Alex into my arms and we cried in each other’s arms. I never want to lose him again, he’s too important to me. Damn you Alexander Gaskarth for stealing my heart.

*Time lapse four hours*

Alex and I ordered room service at the hotel and he ate more than I did but I can understand why.

“I am absolutely stuffed” Alex groaned.

I chuckled as I rubbed circles on his back, giving him a gentle massage.

“I missed you so much Jack” Alex whispered.

“I missed you too. I’m sorry for everything I said, I was angry. And I’m sorry for leaving with just a note left behind” I replied.

Alex turned around as he lent up and kissed me gently. I pulled him close, sighing into the kiss. He pulled away as he moved some hair away from my face.

“I’m sorry I lied and cheated. I don’t know what got over me but just know I love you so much” Alex whispered soothingly.

“All that matters now is that we’re together again” I answered, holding Alex’s hand tightly in mine.

Alex smiled as he lent forward and pressed his lips to mine again. I missed the feeling of his gentle lips against mine and the taste. He pulled away as he moved his lips to my neck and I let out a muffled moan as I bit my lip.

“A-Alex” I hissed as I put pressure on his hips.

He chuckled against my skin as he nipped my collarbones gently. Suddenly his phone started ringing and I stared at him.

“It can wait” he purred.

I shrugged as we passionately kissed again and I ran my hands under Alex’s shirt. His phone started going again and Alex let out a defeated groan.

“Answer it, I’ll wait” I mused.

“Thanks babe” Alex whispered.

He pecked my lips as he stood up from the floor and walked over to the phone. Alex answered it as he stepped outside and closed the door behind him. I sighed as I took a sip from my beer and relaxed against the bed. I wonder who was on the phone. I stood up as I paced around the room.

“Dammit Jack, stop getting paranoid” I cursed.

Suddenly the door opened and Alex stepped inside, his body trembling as tears flowed from his eyes.

“Alex, what happened?” I asked worriedly.

Alex stared at me, his eyes flooding with more tears as he collapsed to his knees.

“Austin’s dead” he choked.

Notes

I know, sappy airport scene xD then I cock blocked Alex .___. but nooo Austin ;_; I'm sorry I had to end it so dramatically. Chapter Fourteen is going to kill you. I've nearly finished it. And I damn well cried writing it. Anyways, enjoy. Title is from Tombstone by New Years Day.

Also don't forget to check out the new fan fiction I'm starting involving Jack and Billie Joe ;)
http://www.alltimelowfanfiction.com/Story/19985/I-Cant-Heal-The-Way-I-Feel-About-You-Jillie/