Alex’s POV

I was listening to ‘I Miss You’ by Blink-182 in bunk. I’ve never felt this god damn low in my life. I’m an idiot, a liar, a cheater. I should never have let Austin take advantage of me like this. I had to see Austin, I had to put my foot down and tell him we couldn’t do this anymore. You don’t realise how much someone means to you until they are gone. I sighed as I stepped out of my bunk, enveloped in silence. Jack, Rian and Zack had gone off somewhere, I didn’t bother to ask if I could go. I got double the lecture last night, once from Zack and then from Rian. There was a knock at the bus door and I snapped my head to the left.

“Come in!” I called.

The door opened and I locked eyes with Austin. My breath hitched in my throat as I turned to face him.

“Alex, you look like crap” he whispered.

“Thanks to you! You fucking moron! Because of you, I lost the one important person in my life!” I yelled.

“So I was never someone important?” he questioned.

“You used to be” I mumbled.

Austin scoffed as he looked away from me, shaking his head.

“Don’t put all the blame on me, you fucking agreed to it Alex!” Austin snapped.

“I gave into temptation Austin! I didn’t want to upset you and disappoint you!” I roared.

Austin looked at me again as he walked forward.

“Alex, I didn’t think it would end like this. I-I’m sorry, I really am. I should never have told you my true feelings” he whispered.

I lent against the kitchen counter as tears started to fall from my eyes. I felt a hand on my back but I pushed it away as I glared at Austin.

“Don’t touch me!” I yelled. “In fact, don’t you dare talk to me again. I want you to leave Austin. Our friendships hit the nail in the head. It’s dead” I added.

Austin looked at me with hurt stricken across his face.

“Alex please” he soothed.

“No Austin! I hate you!” I screamed.

I clapped my hand over my mouth, why did I just say that?

“A-Austin I didn’t mean that” I stammered.

Austin shook his head at me, tears flowing down his cheeks.

“Goodbye Alex” he whispered.

I wanted to race after him, but I decided to let it go. I never wanted to see him again. I wanted my Jack back.

“What have you done Alex?” I sighed.

*Time lapse five hours*

I flipped through a guitar book to look for new strings for my guitar. I needed them before the next show. I stopped in my tracks as I saw the door open at the end of bunk alley. The room that used to be Jack and I’s. I looked around noticing that Zack and Rian were too busy looking at things on the net to even notice I’d stopped walking. I walked up to the door and pushed it open, an empty atmosphere filling the room. I raised an eyebrow as I clocked a note sitting on the bed. I picked it up as I opened it, shaking a little. I started to read it out loud.

“Dear Alex

I’ve gone away for a while, I need to find out where my head is at. And I also can’t stand being around you. You hurt me in more ways than one. Don’t contact me because I’ll have my phone off while I’m away. I don’t know when I’ll be back. But you’re on your own Lex. Maybe I was wrong to fall for you in the first place. I’ll be at the airport now by the time you finish. Goodbye Alex, until next time.

From Jack” I spoke.

My heart sunk as I dropped the note, I can’t let him do this. We were only fifteen minutes away from the nearest airport. I ran to my bunk as I shoved my shoes on and grabbed the keys for our rental car. I stormed into the kitchen area as Rian and Zack clocked my movements.

“Alex what the hell are you doing?” Zack asked.

“To get back the one I love!” I snapped, throwing my jacket on.

“Come on Rian” Zack muttered as I heard them following me.

I ran to the car as I got inside, starting the engine as quick as I could. I didn’t give a shit how fast I went. I pulled out of the venue as I sped down the highway to the airport.

“Easy Alex!” Rian yelled.

“Shut the fuck up Rian I don’t care!” I yelled back.

I groaned as I took the next right and put my foot on the gas. I saw the airport up ahead as I told Rian to grab out some money. I raced around the roundabout as we pulled up to the barrier and I shoved the money in the machine as the gate opened and I found the closest parking spot.

“Slow down Alex” Zack growled as we got out the car.

I ignored him as I bolted for the doors, Zack and Rian close behind. I burst through the doors as I looked around for any sign of Jack. I caught the sight of the blonde in his hair and I ran in that direction.

“Jack!” I yelled loudly.

I pushed forward as I saw him waiting at the departure gate.

“Jack!” I screamed.

He stopped just as he handed his ticket to the flight attendant. His eyes met mine as as I hunched over, panting heavily.

“Alex?” he whispered.

“D-don’t go” I pleaded.

“Sir you must board the plane” the flight attendant issued.

Jack sat his bag down as he walked over to me, wiping some hair away from my face.

“Alex, I’m sorry, but I can’t stay, I have to go. Look after yourself please” he whispered, pressing a kiss to my forehead.

“Jack please” I whimpered, fresh tears escaping my eyes.

“I’m sorry Lex” Jack replied, squeezing my hand then letting it go.

All the emotion drained from me with just that one swift move of removing his hand away from me. I watched as he turned around, taking his ticket and picking up his bag. Jack gave one final look towards me before he disappeared down the alley. The door closed behind him and I dropped to my knees as I sobbed, pained sobs coming from my mouth and a painful feeling in my chest. Rian dropped beside me and pulled me into his arms as I clutched his shirt.

“There there Alex” Zack soothed, rubbing my back as Rian held me tighter.

I can’t believe he’s gone.

*Time lapse an hour*

The alcohol stung my throat as I took a swig and clutched the pillow I had, closer to me. I had music playing and I looked around the room on the bus, empty and lost.

“Where are you and I'm so sorry
I cannot sleep I cannot dream tonight
I need somebody and always
This sick strange darkness
Comes creeping on so haunting every time
And as I stared I counted
Webs from all the spiders
Catching things and eating their insides
Like indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
Will you come home and stop this pain tonight
Stop this pain tonight

Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)
Don't waste your time on me you're already
The voice inside my head (I miss you, I miss you)”

I started to sing along to the lyrics, feeling a little tipsy as the alcohol started to take affect. I pulled out my phone as I flooded Jack’s texts with explanations and apologies. I saw the photo of him and I together as I threw my phone at the wall. I heard a crack but didn’t give shit. I dropped my head in my arms as I started to sob. A knock sounded on the door and I looked up as Vic stepped in, embracing me in a hug as I sobbed hysterically. I miss you Jack. I miss you, come back.

Jack’s POV

I was supposed to get a lift to the airport with Billie today but he ended up having to leave the night before, so he was meeting me at Oakland. The cab dropped me off at the airport and I sighed as I hopped out to grab my bags. I walked into the airport as I went straight to check in as my flight was boarding shortly. I checked my bags in and went to sit down after grabbing a coffee. I put my headphones in as I started to listen to ‘I Miss You’ by Blink-182. I wonder if Alex was listening to it too? But why should it concern me? My phone went and I looked at it to see a text from Billie.

“Have a safe flight, I’ll be waiting at the arrival lounge for you - Billie :)”

I smiled as I typed a quick reply and then turned my phone off. I’m glad I went through with this, I wanted to get away so bad.

“Could all passengers boarding flight 637 please report to the desk as boarding is now commencing” a voice spoke over the intercom.

I grabbed my bag as I turned my iPod off and put it into my bag. I weaved through people as I approached the desk, my ticket in hand. I need to conquer my fear of flying someday.

“Jack!” a voice yelled.

I raised an eyebrow as I shook the voice away and handed my ticket to the attendant.

“Jack!” the voice screamed again.

I turned around to lock eyes with Alex who was hunched over and out of breath.

“Alex?” I whispered.

“D-don’t go” he pleaded.

I felt a pang of guilt hit me but I pushed it back.

“Sir, you need to board the plane” the attendant issued.

I put my bag down as I walked over to Alex and moved some hair from his face.

“Alex, I’m sorry, but I can’t stay, I have to go. Look after yourself please” I whispered, pressing a kiss to my forehead.

“Jack please” he whimpered as he started to cry.

“I’m sorry Lex” I replied, squeezing his hand before letting it go.

I turned away as I took my ticket and put my bag over my shoulder. I gave one final look at Alex before I walked down the alley to the plane. The door shut behind me as I heard the hysterical sobs from Alex as I approached the plane’s door. I sat down in my seat as I buckled myself in. I turned my head to the side as I let tears fall from my eyes. I didn’t want to leave him like that. But, what choice do I have? I sighed as I wiped the tears away and sat back in my seat as I closed my eyes. I started to drift off to sleep out of sheer exhaustion. I can’t wait to see Billie and just be comforted by him.

*Time lapse three hours*

I’d slept through the whole plane trip, which was a good thing considering I had some chick beside me who would not shut the hell up. I waited at the conveyor belts for my luggage, gazing out the huge windows watching the sun set over the city. I finally got my bags as I walked into the arrivals lounge. I yawned a little and then spotted a familiar face. I locked eyes with those glistening green eyes and I smiled. Billie smiled in return as he stood there with a sign saying ‘Barakat’ on it. I dropped my bags to my side and Billie engulfed me in a warming hug. I clutched onto his jacket as I let tears fall, sobbing into the crook of his neck.

“Shh, Jack, it’s ok buddy, it’s ok” he soothed.

I didn’t want him to let go, it’s the closest to comfort I could get right now. I pulled away as Billie wiped tears from my eyes. I caught myself looking at his lips and a smirk spread across his face.

“You’re allowed to, y’know” Billie whispered.

I smirked remembering I had ended Alex and I’s relationship for the time being.

“May I?” I whispered back.

Billie ran his hand under my jaw as he tilted my head up. He brushed his lips against mine before closing the gap between us and I sighed in satisfaction. I wrapped my arms around his neck as he deepened the kiss. We pulled away for air and Billie grinned as he nudged my nose.

“Let’s head home huh?” he questioned with a little his in his voice.

I blushed as I found it quite arousing and I had to stop myself from pitching a tent. I laced my fingers through Billie’s as I grabbed one of my bags, Billie grabbing the other, before he decided to be sneaky and snake his arm around my waist and slip his hand inside my back jean pocket. I blushed again as he chuckled and we started walking as we left the airport. I may as well make it worth my while, have a fling and then sort things out with Lex, but then again it’s not a fling really, Alex and I aren’t together right now, I do still love him though.

*Time lapse an hour*

“Oh fuck Billie, yes!” I roared with a groan.

Every inch of that man was inside me and I was enjoying it like anyone would. The sweat dripped down my body as Billie put more pressure on my hips, pounding hard into me. I’ve never felt such pleasure in my life.

“S-shit Jack” he grunted.

I rolled my head back, wrapping my legs tightly around Billie.

“Punish me Billie! Do it so I can’t even walk tomorrow!” I yelled.

Billie let out a low moan as he hit my spot and I rolled my eyes back, a disoriented groan escaping my mouth as my body quaked.

“I don’t think I can go much longer” Billie panted.

I moaned as I pushed Billie over, straddling him. I started to move my hips up and down on Billie’s length as he gripped my hips even tighter. I saw a smile spread on his face as he started to rapidly thrust his hips upwards. My body couldn’t take it as I felt a new wave of pleasure hit me.

“Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck!” I screamed, letting out another grunt.

I arched my back as Billie dragged his nails down my back. I suddenly felt him push me over as I was placed on my hands and knees. Billie thrust into me again with no warning and I gasped as he tugged at my hair.

“I’m fucking close Jack” he growled.

I moaned as he slapped my ass and felt him go deeper at every thrust.

“Ugh, oh fuck!” he yelled.

I got that feeling in the pit of my stomach as Billie gripped my hips tightly. One last thrust and my body overflowed with pleasure as I let out shaky moans.

“Billie!” I screamed, my orgasm hitting me.

Billie rode out his orgasm as he smoothed his hands over my back and kissed my shoulder blades tenderly. He dropped beside me as he breathed heavily and wiped the sweat from his brow. I nuzzled into the crook of his neck as he held me in his arms.

“Billie?” I asked.

“Yeah?” he replied.

“Should I give Alex another chance?” I questioned.

“I think you should. And if he doesn’t want to try, I’m always here to y’know...pleasure you” Billie purred.

“I’m going to hurt in the morning” I chuckled.

Billie laughed as he bit my lip playfully and I became aroused again.

“Fancy round two?” I purred seductively.

I saw that smirk spread on Billie’s face, knowing he wanted it as he pulled me in for passionate kiss. All thoughts of Alex were put aside for now as I got lost in Billie’s embrace and kisses.

Notes

Sorry it took a while for an update! Coincidence that Jack and Alex listened to the same song? Also poor Austin for getting yelled at D: and poor Lex for being left broken hearted. But then cheeky Billie stepped in and it was all a heated smut scene c:< I am not responsible for nose bleeds. Anyways, I hope you enjoy. Title is from I Miss You by Blink-182

I've also had people ask me how I come up with story titles. Basically whatever song I listen to while I write the chapter will be the title for the chapter c: I pick a random lyric out and use it c'x