I pushed Alex's hand away from my cheek and glared. "Alex, you cant just expect me to forgive you. You broke my heart. Yes, i do still love you, but come on, really?" Alex's face dropped, he bent his head and when he looked up, he looked seriously angry. I was a little frightened, actually i was petrified. He'd only ever turned on me once and he swore he'd never hurt me again, it was just a silly mistake.
At the time i believed him, but then his anger was getting worse, he was drinking more and more often and when he did come home, he would corner me. He'd never actually hit me but he knew doing that to me would scare me. "You think i want you back?" His face twisted and a cruel laugh escaped his lips.
"You're a fucking whore, Katie. Go sleep with all those other guys, you have a reputation, go maintain it."
The words stung, but i pushed back the tears. I knew they weren't true so i dont know why it upset me so much. I took a deep breath. "Alex, are you drunk?" He stepped forward and raised his hand i flinched away, he immediately looked guilty. It was too late though, i collapsed to the floor and blacked out.

**Flashback**

"You're a whore, Katie. I don't know why i ever went near you, then again you did force yourself onto me. How many other guys have you done this too? One? Two? more? or what about my bestfriends? Jack, Rian and Zack. You've tried it with them." He laughed. "As if they would want you, you were the biggest mistake ever" He slurred away trying to conjure up some disgusting new name for me. He stumbled forward suddenly and i backed away. My back was now up against the wall and Alex wasn't about to calm down any time soon. I tried calming him down. "Alex, sweetie, you're scaring me. Stop, please. We can talk about this is in the morning, you're just drunk." I tried to keep my tone soothing but i was scared so i stumbled over my words. I could feel my legs and hands shaking. I put my hand up to Alex's chest just to prevent him from getting any closer to me, it was too late. He slapped me across the face, a hard smack, i don't know what hurt me more, the actually slap or the fact my boyfriend had slapped me. I fell and hit my head off the cabinet, i lay still for a moment, everything was muffled i couldn't understand anything. I opened my eyes but tears were falling so much i couldn't see if Alex was still in the room. I lifted my hand to my head and felt something warm and sticky. I looked at my hand and realised it was blood. I felt nauseous, i tried lifting my self up but my body felt like a dead weight. I just slumped on floor and passed out.

**Flashback ends**

I opened my eyes and a blinding bright white light surrounded me. Where was i? Better still, what was i doing here? I remember going to see Alex but that was it. Was i dead? I couldnt be dead, i had a daughter to bring up and a band to tour with. I was panicking but then i heard a familiar voice. "Katie, Katie, are you awake. Thank goodness. Nurse, Nurse, shes woken up!" My eyesight took a few minutes to adjust to the new light that was right in my face but i couldnt help but smile. "Austin, where am i? Why am i here? Just, whats going on?" Tears were beginning to well up. He grabbed my hand. "Its ok, Katie. Things will be ok, i promise." I didnt feel reassured i felt like something really bad had happened. I just didnt know what.