I should tell you about the self harm.

I started before I met any of the guys, because of the bullies and everything at home. It was a release, It stopped the demons from shouting at me for a night. And it made me forget every bad word that was said. It was a way to escape and I loved it.

But I never thought it would end up making me do this, I always pictured my whole life touring with All Time Low. But obiously not. I'm weak, I always have been and I always will be, that's why mum left. Its my fault.

I never had any potential, I'm useless.

I deserve this.