Infinity

It’s the day of my mammogram and I am anxious; I’ve never had one done.

“How are you feeling?” Zack asked.

I had recently stepped out of the shower and was getting dressed.

“A bit anxious. I would’ve never have guessed that I’d be getting a mammogram done at this point in my life.”

I was even more anxious because I had to be sent for one after a routine breast examination.

“I hate that you have to get one.”

“Yeah. A biopsy is probably gonna follow.”

He gave me a look.

“What? I’m just being realistic.”

He nodded.

“You’re right.”

“Of course I am.”

I walked downstairs to find Alex cooking.

“Hi, babe.”

“Hey. Ready for your appointment?”

“Gonna have to be. What you cooking?”

“Seafood gumbo.”

“Yum. Save some for me when I get home.”

“I’ll try.”

I shook my head.

“I’ll see ya later. Gotta go.”

“Have a good appointment.”

“Thanks.”

“I love you.”

“I love you, too.”

After doing the same with Zack, I was out the door. Waiting for my name to be called at the doctor’s was even worse than last week at my gynecologist’s office. I smiled as my name was called, but I was ready to vomit. I hated taking my blouse and bra off, but it is what it is as well as the x-ray essentially flashing each breast.

“And you’re all done.”

“Really?”

“You should get your results in a few weeks, maybe a month. We’ll call if you need further testing.”

“Ok. Thanks.”

A few weeks? Maybe a month? Are you fucking kidding me? My impatience is gonna kill me.

I called Alex as soon as I stepped out of the office.

“Hey.”

“Hey.”

“What’s up?”

“I won’t know my results for a few weeks.”

“Fuck. Sorry, Jessie.”

“Yeah. So, then, that’s when I’ll know if it’s possibly cancerous.”

“Anything either one of us can do?”

“Not until that probable biopsy.”

“Ok. You coming home?”

“Yeah. I’m starved. How was it?”

“I’ll let you determine that.”

I laughed and said goodbye. I came home to find my men watching television.

“Hello, guys.”

They didn’t respond, so I smacked each of them upside their heads.

“Ow! Jessie! What the fuck was that for?” Zack said, turning around.

“I think you know.” I said with a smirk.

That’s when they pulled me down onto the couch. I landed on their laps which was something I wasn’t exactly complaining about.

“Do you need punished? Is that what you’re asking for?” Alex asked.

“No. You guys didn’t respond to me greeting you both when I came through the door.”

“There are better ways.”

I rolled my eyes.

“Ok. Whatever you say.”

“Ms. Townshed.” Zack said.

“Mr. Merrick.”

I did end up getting punished and it was fucking wonderful besides my sore ass, but I would’ve preferred to get Zack’s feedback beforehand.

“I’m assuming Alex told you about my appointment. I apologize in advance to not telling you both at the same time.”

“That’s okay.”

I laid my head on his chest and slowly shut my eyes where into a deep sleep. I woke to an empty stomach and empty bed. I went downstairs and saw them talking in the kitchen where I was handed a bowl of gumbo.

“Thanks.” I said, kissing Alex on the cheek.

“My pleasure, my love.”

“I wanna talk to my parents.”

“You do?”

“Today.”

“Today? You sure?”

“100%.”

“As soon as you want to, let us know. We’ll be there with you.” Zack said.

It took me three hours till I was ready.

“Let’s do this in the living room.”

I was actually starting to shake as I sat on the couch. Both of them squeezed my shoulders in order to calm down.

“It’s gonna be okay.” Alex said.

“You don’t know that.”

“Jessie. If it doesn’t go well, then they can go fuck themselves. You are fucking amazing and so fucking happy.” Zack said.

I had never heard him curse like that before, but I loved it. I gave him a big kiss, then called my parents on FaceTime. They answered after four rings; they were probably in shock that I even called them.

“Oh, honey! It’s so great to see you.” my mom said.

"Hi Mom. Is Dad around?" I asked in a not-so-chipper voice.

"I'll go get him."

Once he was there with my mom, I put on a small smile.

"Hi Dad."

"Hi Jessie. What's going on? We haven't heard from you in over a year."

"If you must know, I had a nightmare about the last time I spoke to you and Mom about two months ago."

"Why would you have a nightmare about that?"

I bit my lip in an attempt to not yell.

"You know why. Please don't act like you don't."

"She's talking about when we didn't accept her 'polyamorous' relationship." my mom said.

Airquotes? Again?! You gotta be fucking kidding me.

"Is this an update on that relationship? Is this so-called relationship over?" my dad asked.

"That's a big fat no. Did you guys not do the damn research?"

I ran a hand through my hair in frustration.

"We didn't see the point and was that a no for both questions?"

"How about you ask them about this? I'm sure they'd love to hear your feedback."

My voice dripped with sarcasm with the latter statement. I looked at Alex and Zack who both nodded.

"They're there with you?" my mom asked.

I handed Alex the phone who moved into my spot after I stood up and was behind the couch.

"Mom, this is Alex."

He waved then handed the phone over to Zack who did the same. My mom was speechless which caused me to laugh a little.

“H-hi. Nice to meet both of you.”

This was satisfying.

“How about you ask them how they feel about me?”

“How do you feel about our daughter?”

“Aside from Zack, I have never loved any person more. She is incredibly beautiful and intelligent and absolutely wonderful.”

I kissed his cheek.

Zack’s turn.

“As my other partner said, I love her more than anyone, aside from Alex. I couldn’t imagine not having such a delightful and adventurous person in my life.”

Then, I kissed his cheek.

"So, what do ya think? Mom? Dad?"

"They seem nice." my dad said.

I rolled my eyes.

"Of course they are. I wouldn’t be with them if they were assholes.”

“I'm sorry we misjudged you. We can see how much you three you love each other."

You better be.

"I accept your apology. If you're up for meeting them in person, please let me know."

"Oh, absolutely. We'd love to."

This felt so fucking good.

"I'll discuss this with them and I'll talk to you two later."

"K. Sounds good. Love ya!" my mom said.

"Love ya, too!"

With another I love you exchange between my dad and me, I hung up and sat back down on the couch; that's when I side hugged Alex and Zack causing them to laugh.

"Is someone happy?" the former asked.

"Yes. I was so unsure about how that was gonna go, but it turned out the way I wanted it to."

"Well, I can't wait to meet them."

"Me either."

That's when they kissed each of my cheeks and I took a selfie. Despite what may or not be going on with me, at least I was on the road to reconnecting with my parents.

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