Infinity

Less than a week passed when I was called to come in immediately for my results.

“What are you thinking?” Alex asked as we left our house.

"That no matter what the results are, I'm going to have radiation."

"And let's hope it didn't spread to any of your lymph nodes." Zack said.

"But they probably did."

He gave me a look.

"I'm just being realistic. Gotta be prepared for anything and everything."

It was a bit nerve-wracking waiting for my appointment, but I got through it and within fifteen minutes, my name was called. They came with me and my heart pounded as I awaited my results.

“We did further testing and learned and it has spread to four lymph nodes as we expected previously...”

Cancer couldn’t just stay in one breast, could it? We discussed my radiation treatment which would require me to come back the following day.

"What do you wanna do? Because we all know how tired I'm gonna be after tomorrow." I sighed.

Zack pulled me close and kissed the top of my head.

"Whatever you wanna do is fine with us." he said.

I opted for a day at the beach since I knew how little energy I would have tomorrow and for who knows how long; the beach definitely wouldn't be an option after having radiation.

“How do I look?" I asked, spinning around in the mirror.

"Perfect." Alex said, bringing his lips to mine.

We kissed for about six seconds when we were interrupted.

“We’ll have more time for this later.” Zack said.

I sighed as did Alex; I was enjoying myself.

“Let’s go, then.” I said, intertwining fingers with his.

We grabbed what we needed for the beach and headed out. Rather than put on sunblock there, we put it on after we got out of Zack’s jeep.

“I seriously don’t know how I don't have a hard-on right now.” Alex said.

I rolled my eyes and scoffed.

“Do you always have to be profane?” I asked.

“I’m not being profane.”

“Yeah. You are. Hate to break it to ya, babe.” Zack added, kissing his cheek.

“Whatever.” he said, acting like a child.

I laughed and kissed his other cheek. He smiled and we made our way to the sand. When we sat down, I sighed and crossed my legs since I was perfectly content.

“Is someone happy?” Alex asked.

“Very much so.”

It wasn’t long until I headed for the water; I was going to soak up as much fun as possible. When it went past my knees, I spun around and smiled at the men who were still sitting in their beach chairs. That's all it took for them to get off their asses and into the water. Arms wrapped around me and lips touched the top of my head which proceeded me to giggle. I took one look at this person’s hands and saw that they belonged to Zack.

“I love you.” he said.

“I love you, too.”

After three hours of fun in the sun, we headed back to our house and were ready to shower before getting a bite to eat.

“Who’s gonna shower first?” I asked.

“You mean who’s gonna shower together. Conserving water is a good thing, you know?” Alex asked.

I bit my lip.

“First one to undress, gets to join me.”

I climbed up the steps and walked into the bathroom, shut the door, and undressed. I smirked and wondered who was gonna get there first. I turned on the water, making sure to check the temperature before getting in. By the time I got in, the door opened, followed by the curtain; no sound was omitted until a hand touched my shoulder.

“Hey.” he whispered into my ear.

Zack.

He slipped a hand down my body and traveled to my pussy. I gasped, shutting my eyes and backed into him.

“I thought we were gonna conserve water...”

“Don’t tell me you weren't secretly wishing one of us in here to have a little fun.” he said gruffly.

He began to rub me ànd I moaned rendering me speechless.

“That’s what I thought.”

He traced me for about à couple of minutes before slipping two fingers inside my center.

“Fuck me.”

“I don’t know about that.”

“Why not?”

“You’re a liar.”

I was being punished... in the shower; that’s a first. I truly wanted Alex in here now with us because it's not like there isn’t enough room in here or anything.

“Alex.” I called out.

Within seconds, my other partner was in the bathroom with us.

“Is everything okay?”

“She’s fine.” Zack answered.

“He was talking to me.” I said.

“What’s going on?” Alex asked.

“Could you come in?”

I heard him take off his briefs and step into the shower. I was still pressed against the former’s body.

“I thought we were all just gonna shower.”

“Me too.”

“Did you not notice the smirk on her face?” Zack interjected.

“No.”

“I didn't think anyone would notice.” I said with my chest rising and falling.

“Is this true?”

“Would I lie to you two?”

I gazed into his eyes then felt his hand against my cheek.

“She’s not lying.”

I smiled and gave him a quick peck on the lips as I was now out of Zack’s grasp and in Alex’s. He lifted my ass and I wound my legs along with my arms around his waist and neck, respectfully. He pushed me against the wall and placed his cock in me, and thrust himself in-and-out. I didn't realize how horny I was untił he started making love to me.

“Fuck, Jessie.”

“Alex.” I moaned, digging my claws into his back.

I was going to kiss him, but I was in too much pleasure to do so. Alex, on the other hand, was determined to kiss me; he took hold of my face and kissed me and I gave in, soon adding tongue. He continued to fuck me at a quicker pace as we had previously slowed down during the time we were kissing. When I was almost here, I bit down on his neck. I released my legs and rested my head against his chest.

“That was amazing and unexpected.” I panted.

“Says the woman who denied wanting to have sex.” Zack said sarcastically.

“Shut up.”

“Why did you have to say that?” Alex said exasperated.

I refused to look at him as I started crying.

“It’s true.” Zack replied.

“Get the fuck out of here.” I managed to say.

“What?”

“You heard the woman.” Alex said.

He pushed the curtain open and grabbed the towel to dry off. Once I heard the door shut, I looked up at Alex.

“I’m stupid. Aren't I?”

“You are not stupid. Never have been.”

I faintly smiled.

“You’re just saying that because you love me.”

“I don’t lie. You know me.”

“You’re right. I do. Ya know, as much as I love shower sex, I just wanted to shower. I wanted to have that type of fun tonight since I’m gonna be experiencing fatigue tomorrow and I don’t know how long. I won’t even be in the mood or energy for it.”

“Zack should know that.”

“Yeah. Let's shower. K?”

“K.” he said, kissing my forehead.

After a quick shower, we got out and I didn't know what to expect on the other side of the door. Luckily, my other partner wasn’t in the bedroom when I walked in to get dressed.

“Do you think we could just stay in? I don't know if I want to go out for dinner.”

“We can do whatever you’d like.”

With more tears, I stood up on my toes and kissed him. Then, I dressed into clothes you wear around the house minus wearing a bra.

“I’m just gonna dry my hair quickly. Could you wait for me?”

“Of course.”

I nodded and stepped back into the bathroom. When I came back, he was waiting on the edge of the bed for me.

“Hey.” I said.

“Hey.”

“Thanks for waiting.”

“Don’t mention it. You wanna leave the room or-”

“No. I need to get a drink and let the asshole know he can shower.”

He nodded and we proceeded to leave the room. We walked downstairs and found Zack sitting on the couch. When he saw us, I went right past him and into the kitchen.

“Jessi?” I heard Zack say.

“You can shower now.”

“Will you talk to me?”

“Maybe after you shower.”

I let out a sigh of relief when I heard footsteps going up the steps. I turned on the sink after I got myself a cup. I felt a hand on my arm and noticed I had just been standing there, doing absolutely nothing.

“Let me get it. I think you need to sit.”

“Okay.”

I walked out of the kitchen and traveled to the living room where I sat down on the couch. I didn't even move when Alex was beside me.

“Jessi.”

I turned and took my drink.

“Thank you.” I said, setting it down mere seconds later.

“You’re welcome.”

I leaned against him as he turned on the tv. His arm snaked around my waist, pulling me closer. I inhaled his scent and fully relaxed with my head on his shoulder.

“Babe.” I heard faintly.

“Mmm...” I groaned, slightly opening my eyes.

I must’ve been sleeping.

“You hungry?” Alex asked.

“Yeah.”

I shut my eyes again; he laughed and moved.

“Stop moving.”

“Where do you want food from?”

“You choose.”

“You sure?”

“Yes. You do that and make Zack go get it.”

He laughed again.

“I’ll do that.”

I smiled and dozed off. Half an hour later, I heard Zack’s voice, but I had no interest in looking at him, so I opened my eyes and sat up because I was hungry. When I was about to stand, I heard both men in the kitchen, but no one was speaking. I took a breath before I stood and walked into the kitchen; two sets of eyes were on me; I averted my gaze away from Zack and looked at Alex.

“What did ya get me?”

“Your favorite.”

“You’re wonderful.” I said, kissing his cheek.

He blushed.

I got a drink out of the fridge, grabbed my food and went into the living room to eat.

“When are you gonna talk to me?” Zack asked.

I ignored him and took a bite out of my sandwich. Alex squeezed my shoulder which was reassuring.

“Jessi.” he pleaded.

“After we eat.”

“Promise?”

“Sure.” I muttered.

“Okay.” he sighed.

I took my time eating as I was not looking forward to having a conversation with Zack. Alex started cleaning up after we finished and whispered into my ear.

“You’ll be fine.”

I nodded.

“I’m sorry.” Zack said.

Great start.

“What for, exactly? The way you think I’m obsessed with sex? I can’t possibly want to shower with one of you and not expect sex? No... not at all -” I said before being interrupted.

“I don’t think you’re-”

“No. No. Let me finish talking.”

I wagged my finger in his face as I stood up; he shut his mouth.

“Thank you. That makes me sound like a slut. You know, slut-shaming? Have you ever heard of it? It doesn't fucking feel good. Not one single bit. It fucking hurts and the fact that you didn't even consider that earlier makes me sick.”

“I’m sorry. I didn't mean to make you feel that way. I never thought it was slut-shaming. It was one of the dumbest things I’ve ever done. Can you ever forgive me?”

I sat down and rubbed my eyes.

What the fuck am I gonna do?

“Probably, but I’m tired and would rather talk about this more later.”

“I love you.” he said.

I put on a weak smile and went upstairs to think. All I wanted was to rest since tomorrow was the beginning of radiation and I need to be rested.

Notes

If what happened in the shower isn’t considered slut-shaming, I apologize. I just know that it was overly negative.