Infinity

It’s the day of my biopsy and I’m completely and utterly terrified. Being in a hospital gown and lying in a hospital bed is something I never thought would happen, aside from having children, but that’s a whole topic in and of itself.

“You look gorgeous.” Alex said when I changed.

I rolled my eyes.

“Shut up.”

“He’s not lying.” Zack said.

I shook my head and crawled into bed; I was so bummed out that I couldn’t cuddle up to either one. I heard a knock on the door and sighed.

“Come in.”

“Ms. Townshed?”

“Yes. Jessie.”

“Hey, Jessie. Who are your guests?”

“These are my partners, Alex and Zack.”

“Pleasure to meet the both of you.” he said, greeting them.

He didn’t seem to be judgmental which was a relief. He explained the surgery and I had to sign an informed consent form before they could do a single thing. When he left, I ran a hand through my hair and frowned, not even looking at them.

“Jessie?” Zack said, taking my hand.

“No.”

“Babe. Look at us.” Alex said.

I shook my head.

“I’m terrified.”

“You’re gonna be fine. You know that. Right?”

“Of course. I just really don’t wanna be under anesthesia for an hour.”

“At least you get to go home after this.”

“And we can take care of you.” Zack said.

I smiled.

“That’s always a plus.”

A handful of minutes, my surgeon and nurse were there to wheel me into where my surgery was to take place.

“We’ll be here when you wake up. Okay?” Zack said.

“I love you, guys.”

“We love you, too.”

I got a kiss from each of them before I was wheeled off. I prayed the entire time until I was put under that this biopsy would be a success.

You can do this, Jessie. This’ll be over before you know it.

Alex, Zack and I have been together for about six months and I think I’ve fallen in love with them. It started out with Alex a couple of weeks ago and Zack a week ago. I haven’t told them yet and I don’t know when I should do so. While debating one afternoon, I was practicing yoga and toward the end of it, I was doing chakrasana aka a full backbend. I was so concentrated on the pose, I didn’t hear anyone come outside which was where I was.

“You know I’ve never seen you in that pose before. Pretty sexy.” Alex said.

“Thanks. Wanna try yourself? It’s not all that hard.”

“I don’t know.”

“I could show you.” Zack said coming from behind him.

He went into the same position as I was then going to a headstand which I also did.

“No wonder I love you two so much. You’re so flexible.”

I held in laughter as I stood back on my own two feet.

Wait a minute. He loves me? That’s new.

I walked over and kissed him.

“I love you, too.”

“Since when?”

“Two weeks ago. You?”

“About the same.”

He attached his lips to mine and pulled me closer.

"He's not the only one who loves you."

Zack kissed my neck and I turned around slightly to kiss him.

"I love you, too."

"I've loved you for about a couple of weeks now.”

“Me too.”

That moment with both of them has to be one of my favorites,
not to mention, one of the moments that I ever felt so loved.

I slowly woke up to Alex and Zack talking to one another. They smiled when my eyes fully opened.

“Hey sleepyhead.” the latter said.

“Hey.”

“How do you feel?” Alex asked.

“Okay. A little sore, though. How long was I out?”

“Over an hour.”

“So, it must’ve went gone well. Right?”

“Sounds like it.”

That’s when my surgeon came in.

“How are you feeling, Ms. Townshed?”

“Just a little sore.”

“That’s good to hear. Now, as you know, we don’t know how long the results will take, but you will receive a call. Second, strenuous activity must be avoided for one to two weeks and you can head back to work tomorrow if you’d like.”

Great. That activity is also my job.

I nodded and listened to the rest of what he had to say and within another hour, I was out of the hospital and on my way home.

“How am I supposed to go without yoga for that amount of time?” I said sipping on a smoothie I got on the way home.

“At least you’re not worried about the biopsy.” Alex said.

I glared at the man in the backseat.

“Of course I am. I just would rather worry about my job and favorite activity.”

He cleared his throat.

“Aside from you guys.”

“You can still go on walks.” Zack added.

“Yeah. I guess so.”

When we got home, I had to go check where my lump was removed. I took my shirt and bra off to see it in the bathroom mirror; it didn’t look all that bad as it had only five stitches.

“How’s it look?” Alex asked.

They were right outside the bathroom.

“Take a look.”

I lifted the shirt I just put back on and slightly lifted my breast.

“Looks good.” Zack said, lightly touching it.

“I second that.” Alex said.

I pulled my shirt back down and walked out of the bathroom and into our bedroom.

"I'm gonna change."

Seeing as I really had no place to go or be, I changed into ironically, yoga pants and an old band tee and crawled under the covers.

"Want some company?" Alex asked, crawling onto the bed.

"I would love some company."

I lied down on my side and he wrapped his arms around me. I heard Zack climb into bed, but my eyes were already shut and I was near sleep. The day seemed to drag from then on as I mostly watched Netflix or read which may seem wonderful, and it usually is, but I know that it's going to get boring really quick.

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