Sanctuary

Alex and I never left the house; we were supposed to get a hold of our friends, but it never happened. I knew we were going out to celebrate sometime, but I don’t know if I wanna go back that fated club I was at the night I was raped.

“How you feeling this morning?” he asked.

“A bit tired, but that’s to be expected after a night we had.”

“You think you’re going to be good, today?”

“Definitely. This won’t be the first time me going to a job tired, so that’s nothing new. Fair warning, though. I’m probably gonna pass out when I get home.”

“Ok.”

I was doing my hair and makeup when he wrapped his arms around me.

“I’m gonna miss you while you’re gone.”

He’s such a dork, sometimes, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t love it.

“I’m gonna miss you, too. What are you gonna do today?”

“Probably finish the record, but maybe tomorrow or even next week. I’m so fucking excited. I’m gonna hate waiting months till the record comes out, though.”

“So am I. What I heard yesterday was amazing and I’d like to talk about soon. I was planning on it yesterday, but we know both how the day ended.”

“I’m looking forward to that conversation.”

“Me too. Now, I need to finish in here.”

I was thankful that my hair was short enough that I didn’t have to pull it into a pony. I put my shoes on and walked into the kitchen where I had fifteen minutes to kill.

“How do I look?” I asked spinning around.

“Fantastic. You know I’ve always found this look sexy.”

I laughed.

“What look?”

“I don’t know. Umm... very professional look. Maybe uptight?”

I laughed more.

“And we know I’m not that.”

“Still. I love this look.”

I stood on tip toes and kissed him.

“You’re a dork sometimes. You know that?”

“It’s better than being an asshole.”

“Oh yeah. It’s way better than being an asshole. I fucking love it.”

This time, he picked me up and spun me around before kissing me. I just wanna marry this man already. The fact that we have to wait till next year is frustrating, but I can deal with it as difficult as it is. We have yet to start any planning, but I feel like it’s gonna happen soon.

“I’m gonna go get something to eat, Prince Charming.” I said after he put me down.

He laughed as reached for the box of Crunch Berries, a bowl and into the fridge for milk. He grabbed me what I needed for a glass of milk and made it for me.

“Thank you, sir.” I said eating my cereal in the kitchen.

“You’re welcome, Cinderella.”

I smiled to myself. After eating, I put my bowl and glass in the sink then headed to the bathroom to brush my teeth. I came back to find Alex watching tv.

“Come kiss me goodbye.” I asked from behind the couch.

He got up and hugged me, kissing me.

“Have a great day.” he said.

“Thank you. You too.”

I left and happily yet tiredly went to work. Come two o’clock aka my lunch break, I was gung-ho on sitting in my car and eating the lunch I packed. I was feeling extremely lazy today and didn’t want to head anywhere to eat. I received a text from Alex which was a video of him being a goofball along with the boys, but mainly Alex, at the studio; I laughed my ass off. He also had an actual text with the video.

Hoping you’re still awake! Love you, gorgeous!

I love him, too, but he’s such a strange creature.

I am! Love you too, handsome!

I sent it and finished my lunch. I walked back into the kitchen a little bit more awake which I couldn’t be more grateful about. However, heading home was a different story and I was craving sleep. I pulled in around ten o’clock, ready for bed, but I looked inside to see my beloved still awake and watching a movie.

“Hey.”

“Hey. You look wiped.”

“I am. I couldn’t get home faster.”

“Are you so tired that you need me to carry you to bed?”

I laughed for the millionth time today.

“No, but could you, anyway?” I asked as I took my shoes off.

I was biting my lip, trying to look sweet and innocent. He walked over with a smile and picked me up.

“My hero!” I cheered, kissing his cheek.

He laid me down gently onto the bed and towered over me.

"How do you feel now, Princess?"

Any seriousness that I had coming home was gone as I continued to laugh and roll onto my side; he decided to sit down beside me.

"Sounds like you feel pretty good." he said laughing himself.

I could only nod.

"Aside from Jack, you're the weirdest person I've ever met."

"And you love me."

"That's true."

"Lie down with me, please." I said in a weird voice.

Alex made a face and laid down. I moved closer to him and kissed him; he kissed me back and touched my face.

Ok. Things are serious again.

I pressed my forehead against his and sighed.

"What is it?"

"I don't know."

"It seems like you're more than exhausted."

A tear ran down my face.

"Abby?"

More tears began to fall and he decided to pull me into his arms while I sobbed into his shirt. He rubbed my back for a few minutes.

"I think my meds may need upped."

"You think?"

"That seemed like a mood swing to me. It felt more than me being exhausted. Fuck.”

He let me go and I decided to change into a cami and a pair of shorts before brushing my teeth. I walked out of the bedroom and down the hallway to get myself a drink without saying a word to Alex who was just lying down to sleep. Seeing something was off with me, he stopped me in the hallway; I was looking at the ground.

“Hey.” he said.

Nothing.

“Look at me.”

Still nothing.

“You need to look at me.” he said kneeling in front of me.

I looked up at him without a smile.

“I’m gonna go get you water. Ok?”

I nodded and walked back and crawled into bed. He came back a minute later and sat it beside me on my nightstand. I took a drink and laid my head down on my pillow, crawling under the covers.

“Thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

Hot got under the covers himself and laid next to me then I ended up maneuvering myself, so I could lay my head on his chest and quickly fall asleep.

Oh my God, I’m still a fucking mess.

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