Drugs & Candy

Alex’s POV

My alarm went off which made me groan loudly as I was still really tired from after last night.
I went to move but I couldn’t move and I looked down and Jack was literally attached to me.
”Babe.” I said quietly and I went to mess with his hair and I was surprised when Jack’s eyes flew open and he moved away from me and I could see the fear on his face.
”Jack, baby talk to me what’s the matter?” I said and moved closer to him but Jack moved and it made him fall off the bed.
”Jack, what’s the matter talk to me.” I said as I untangled myself from the cover and sat on the floor.
Jack shook his head and I saw him crying.
”Baby you have to talk.” I said quietly and moved towards him and put my hand on his knee which made Jack jump.
”You look exhausted baby, did you get any sleep last night?” I asked quietly and Jack shook his head.
“I keep on feeling his hands on my body.” Jack whispered and sniffed loudly.
”Patrick’s hands?” I asked and Jack nodded.
”I keeping on feeling his hands roaming all over my body and his breath all over my skin, feeling his sweaty skin on top of mine. His lips on mine.” Jack said and he ran his hand though his hair.
”I’m not Patrick Jack. I’m never going to hurt you okay.” I said and Jack looked at me.
”How do I know that your not going to hurt me? That you’re not going to turn into Patrick one day. I can’t see so I don’t know. I can’t see if your lying to me or not. I can’t see if you raise your hand to me so I can’t defend myself. All I can do is just wait and see if your lie catches up with you or when you raise your hand the only time I know you raise your hand is when I feel your fist against my body beating me over and over again..” Jack said as he broke down half way through what he was saying so I moved and pulled Jack onto my lap.
”My name isn’t Patrick or any of the other people which have hurt you in your life. My name is Alex and I would never dream of hurting you like those people have done in your life. Just because you can’t see doesn’t mean you can’t read people Jack. But I would never lie to you and I would definitely would never lay a hand on you unless I was giving your ass a slap but that is all where my hands will go. Unless you don’t want that and I’ll respect it.” I said and kissed the top of Jacks head.
”I don’t mind you slapping my ass.” Jack said quietly and I smiled.
”I promise I’ll never hurt you baby.” I said quietly and Jack nodded.
”I need to go to work but I’ll be home at 8 this evening.” I said quietly as I felt Jack’s breaths even out.
I moved and I put Jack on my side of the bed and I kissed his forehead.
”I love you lots Okay. I promise I’ll try my best and protect you baby.” I whispered into Jack’s hair and kissed his forehead again and I went and had a quick shower and got changed and I went to work.

”Just don’t pick at the stitches next time and then you won’t be having to sit for hours waiting for someone to fix it again.” I said to a patient.
”Whatever.” The person said as they walked off after I gave them their discharge papers.
”And your most very welcome.” I said sarcastically to myself and I turned round and bumped into Felix.
”You Okay Lex?” Felix asked.
”I’m fine Felix.” I said and Felix frowned at me.
”You seem more stressed today, has something happened between you and Jack?” Felix said.
”I’m fucking fine Felix Okay, me and Jack are fine I’m just having a bad day.” I said and walked past Felix and headed towards the nurses station.
”I’m on my break if you need me.” I said and I headed to the lockers and I felt I was being followed.
“Felix please just give me a fucking break here.” I said as I turned round and saw Felix leaning against the lockers.
”Be honest with me Lex and don’t shout Okay, but are you back on drugs?” Felix said and I looked at him.
”No I’m not back on drugs Felix. I wouldn’t do that to Jack.” I said and I looked down.
”Lex, please be honest with me.” Felix said softly.
”I’m not fucking doing drugs Felix! I have been clean for 3 fucking years and I have the boy I’ve been crushing on since I was 18 and I am not fucking throwing this all away over some fucking drugs.” I snapped and looked at Felix.
”Have you and Jack been fighting?” Felix asked and I shook my head.
”No we haven’t been fighting.” I said quietly and I looked at my phone and smiled at the picture of Jack I had on my lock screen.
”The what’s going on, you’ve been in a bad mood all day.” Felix said softly.
”Patrick, Patrick is back at Jack’s school and now he’s worried that Patrick is going to get to him and do all the things he did to Jack all over again. Jack refused to go to school because of Patrick and he was up all night pretty much crying about the fact he doesn’t feel safe.” I said and sat on the floor and Felix sat next to me.
”Who’s Patrick?” Felix asked confused.
”Patrick was Jack’s ex and he used to abuse Jack.” I said quietly.
”Shit poor Jack, you reckon Jack is Okay about Patrick being back at school?” Felix said.
”He’s freaking out, doesn’t help because Jasey decided to keep her trap shut about knowing about Patrick and Jack is giving her the cold shoulder. Christ relationships are fucking confusing and hard work.” I said and Felix chuckled.
”Yeah but you love him really though.” Felix said and I couldn’t help but smile.
”I love him more than anything.” I said and Felix chuckled and pulled me into his side.
”He’s a good one Lex, he loves you to bits. He also knows you’ll look after him.” Felix said and I smiled.
”I think break is over now. You going back out there?” Felix said.
”I need to phone Jack a second and then I’ll be back.” I said and Felix nodded and got up and walked out the locker room.
I got my phone and called Jack but it went to voicemail so I left it as that as Jack was probably asleep.
I sent Jack a message and I went back to work and just hoped that 8pm came quickly so I could go home and be with Jack.

I got me and Jack a takeaway and I went home.
”Babe, I have Chinese for us to eat.” I said as I turned the lamp on in the sitting room.
”Babe?” I said and starting to worry about Jack.
”Lex is that you?” Jack said from the bedroom and I walked towards the bedroom and I found Jack sat up in bed looking like he’s not long woken up.
”Yeah it’s me baby.” I said as I climbed on the bed and crawled over to Jack and kissed him which made Jack smile and return.
”So I have brought us both Chinese figured you’ll be hungry.” I said and Jack looked at me.
”You got me chicken noodles?” Jack asked and I chuckled.
”Yes I’ve got you chicken noodles.” I said and Jack smiled and he got of the bed and limped round to his side of the bed and put some pants on.
”That’s a serious limp you have on the go.” I said and Jack looked at me with a smirk.
”That’s probably because you fucked me really hard last night.” Jack said.
”Well you said you wanted to feel me when you move so I think I have fulfilled that.” I said and Jack smiled shyly at me.
”Yeah you did.” Jack said shyly and I smiled and got of the bed and caught hold of Jacks hand.
”We Have Chinese to eat because I’m not eating it cold.” I said and dragged Jack to the sitting room where we had our Chinese and watched a film.

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