Jack’s POV

I was walking round school skipping French because I saw now point in wasting an hour of my life learning a language I wasn’t going to speak.
”Where’s your guard dog Barakat?” A voice said which made me freeze.
”Why the fuck would you care Patrick?” I asked as I turned round.
”Just wanted to know how my little pet was doing.” Patrick said.
”I don’t belong to you Patrick.” I said and I heard Patrick move forward which made me take a step back.
”But you’re still scared of me though, bless, wonder if you still have the dreams of how good I made you feel Jack.” Patrick said and I could feel his breath on my skin.
”What the fucking hell are you doing talking to him.” I heard Jasey say loudly and I felt myself being pulled behind her.
”Chill little Gaskarth, we was just catching up, wasn’t going to hurt him in anyway.” Patrick said.
”You have a restraining order for a reason. Or have you forgotten about that.” Jasey growled.
”I haven’t forgotten, I’ll see you around Jack.” Patrick said and I heard him walk off.
”You Okay Jack?” Jasey asked.
”I’m fine.” I said quietly.

”Can’t believe they let that bastard back in the school.” Jasey said.
”How long has he been back?” I asked.
Jasey took longer to reply than what she would normally do.
”Jasey, how long has he been back?” I asked seriously.
”Jack I was protecting you.” Jasey said.
”Fucking tell me Jasey Rae.” I growled and Jasey knew I was serious.
”He’s back for the last 4 weeks.” Jasey said quietly.
”4 weeks and you don’t even fucking think about telling me that he’s back! What the fuck is wrong with you Jasey.” I said loudly.
”Jack I was only trying to protect you. You haven’t exactly been a good mind set these days.” Jasey said.
”If you was fucking protecting me then you would of fucking told me he was back. But no I happened to thought I was fucking safe walking around the school but I’m not, I haven’t been safe for the last 4 weeks! Well I’m sorry if my little ray of sunshine isn’t shining right now.” I said seriously and I turned around and walked off.
”Jack please, let’s talk this out please.” Jasey said and caught hold of my hand.
”Get the fuck off me. I do not want to fucking talk to you right now .” I growled and Jasey let go of my hand.
”Where you going Jack? “ Jasey asked.
”Do not fucking talk to me Jasey Rae.” I growled and walked off and went somewhere to calm down.
I managed to get myself to the park where I just sat down and listened to the world and just imagined what the world actually looked like.

I have no idea how long I have been at the park for but I’m guessing with was getting dark since it was now getting cold outside, which sucked as I only had Alex’s t-shirt on .
”I’ve been worried sick about you Jack.” I heard Alex say as I felt him sit next to me.
”I’m fine.” I sniffed and I felt Alex take his jacket off and putting it over my shoulders.
”You’ll catch a cold if we don’t move and go inside.” Alex said and I moved and lent into his side and Alex kissed the top of my head as I felt his arm wrap around me.
”Did you know that Patrick was out and was back at school?” I asked quietly as I looked down.
”No I didn’t know Jack.” Alex said and I looked at him and I couldn’t work out if he was lying to me or not.
”Don’t lie to me Alex please whatever you do don’t lie to me.” I said quietly.
I felt Alex kiss me which I returned.
”I would never lie to you. I had no idea that this Patrick dude was out and was back at your school.” Alex said and I could tell by his voice that he wasn’t lying to me.
”Jasey is worried sick about you.” Alex said.
”I don’t want to talk to her right now, I’m so cross with her, I even called her Jasey Rae which is something I never do.” I said.
”Jasey phoned me when you walked out of school saying something but I couldn’t make much sense of it because she was really upset.” Alex said.
”I don’t want to talk about it.” I whispered and Alex kissed the side of my head.
”Okay, Shell we go home and chill for the evening?” Alex said and I nodded.
“Come on then.” Alex said and I felt him move and I felt Alex caught hold of both my hands and he helped me stand up and Alex linked his hand with mine which made me smile.
“Do you have my cane?” I asked and Alex chuckled.
“Yes I do. Do you want it?” Alex asked and I nodded and Alex gave me my cane and I felt someone stare at the back of my head which made me turn round and I felt Alex do the same.
“Is there someone looking at us?” I asked Alex.
“No babe, we’re literally the only people here.” Alex said and I nodded and we walked home, but I couldn’t help but feeling on edge.

“I’m in the bath if you want me.” I said as I took my shirt off and I felt Alex move on the bed and him sitting behind me and kissing between my shoulder blades.
“Are You Okay?” Alex asked and I nodded.
“I’m okay Alex.” I said quietly.
“You sure? Because you can talk to me, I’m not going to judge you.” Alex said and I sighed loudly.
“I’m sure. I know I can talk to you, but at the moment I just want a nice hot bath and just forget about today.” I said.
“Okay, but I’m just in here if you want me.” Alex said and I stood up and looked at him.
“You don’t trust me not to hurt myself do you?” I asked seriously.
“I trust you Jack but after today and you coming face to face with Patrick I don’t trust your mind right now.” Alex said and I scoffed.
“Is that you talking as my boyfriend or you talking as a nurse because I don’t want to hear either sides of it right now.” I said.
“I’m talking to you as you are my boyfriend but if you want me to talk to you as a nurse then I will, it’s internally up to you.” Alex said and I scoffed and rolled my eyes and walked to the bathroom and had a bath and after a good soak in the bath I returned back to the bedroom.
I felt Alex look at me.
“Want to check my arms and legs to see if I have cut myself or not?” I spat.
“Well considering you are stood naked at the bottom of the bed I can clearly see you haven’t self harmed.” Alex said.
“Well aren’t you lucky.” I said sarcastically and felt for some pants to put on.

“Your in a serious grump tonight. What’s got your cage rattled?” Alex said as I found some pants and I just on the bed.
“It’s nothing I can’t handle.” I said quietly.
“Jack, just listen to me okay don’t go flipping out okay. But I can clearly see that you are not okay.” Alex said and I felt him sit next to me.
“It’s just that I thought that I would never thought I would have to hear his voice again. To feel his breath near my face. Then Jasey keeping it to herself for 4 weeks and not telling me was just the icing on the cake.” I said quietly.
“Is this Patrick we’re talking about?” Alex asked and I nodded.
“He still thinks I’m his, he still thinks I’m his pet. He doesn’t think that what he did to me was wrong. He thinks that because I’m blind that means I’m stupid and that I don’t remember what he did to me but I do. I remember how his breath felt on my skin, I remember how his hands felt on my body, I remember living in fear of him. I remember the beatings he gave me just because I spoke my mind.” I said and sniffed.
“I’ve never seen you lose your cool before.” Alex said and I chuckled.
“I wasn’t even losing my cool, I was just being really grumpy.” I said and Alex chuckled and he kissed my cheek which made me look at him.
“Well I definitely don’t want to get on your bad side.” Alex said and I smiled.
“Do you want me to do anything?” Alex asked.
“Fuck me.” I said quietly.
“You sure you want that?” Alex asked and I nodded.
“Speak Jack, verbal consent remember what we agreed on.” Alex said and I smiled and moved and sat on Alex and kissed him hard.
“I want it Alex, please. I still want to feel you when I move.” I said quietly.
I felt Alex smirk against my neck as he kissed my neck and I felt him nip my neck.
“Let’s see what I can do then.” Alex said and kissed me roughly as I felt his hands on my ass and him moving and I felt my back on the bed and Alex’s clothe body against my skin on which I tried to undress him but was stopped by Alex.
“No, just use your senses and leave the rest to me.” Alex said and I whined out of need.
“I always use my senses though.” I pouted and Alex chuckled and kissed me.
“I’ll make sure that all your senses will get blown away.” Alex whispered in my ear which made my breath hitch and me wanting me more.

“Damn I feel well and truly fucked.” I said as Alex chuckled and he gently removed himself from me.
“Well I’m glad I managed to do that.” Alex said and kissed my forehead and I felt him get off the bed.
“Alex?” I said as I struggled to sit up and I heard the bath being run.
“It’s okay, I just went to run the bath so we can clean ourselves off.” Alex said as he sat next to me on the bed.
I heard Alex chuckle and I looked at him confused.
“If you could see you would kill me.” Alex said and I frowned at him.
“Why would I kill you?” I asked.
“Because I might of went a bit over the top with giving you hickies and I have literally covered you in hickies.” Alex said and if I wasn’t so tired I would of slapped Alex’s chest but I didn’t have any energy in me.
“Asshole.” I muttered as I rolled onto my side slowly falling asleep.
“No, no babe. You’ve got to have a bath first before you can fall asleep.” Alex said and I felt him roll me onto my back.
“But I just want to sleep, it’s like the middle of the night.” I muttered.
“I know you want to sleep and it is 3 in the morning and you’ve got school while I have to be at work for 8 but we’re going to smell otherwise.” Alex said.
“I’m not going to school tomorrow. I don’t care if I smell.” I mumbled falling back asleep again.
“Baby why? But you will care that your stiff in the morning.” Alex said.
“Don’t feel safe about the idea of Patrick being at the school and I really don’t care so just let me sleep asshole.” I said and rolled onto my side so my back was to Alex.
“Even if it was sharing the bath with me and it’s going to have lots of bubbles in.” Alex said as he creeped onto the bed and cuddled into my back.
The offer did sound really tempting but I was too tired to move.
“I’ll even carry you.” Alex said and I groaned loudly and rolled over.
“Fine, but only because you said you are going to carry me.” I said and Alex chuckled and kissed me again which I returned.
“Let’s go.” Alex said as he moved off the bed and he picked me up and carried me to the bathroom where he put me in the bath which felt really good.
Alex climbed in behind me and pulled me against his chest and I just hummed in contentment.

After a while we got out the bath and we both just crashed on the bed, Alex cuddling into my back like normal.
“You know, I’m not always bottom when it comes to sex.” I said as I messed with Alex’s hand.
“I know, I’m just taking care of you right now.” Alex mumbled slowly falling asleep.
“I know you are.” I said quietly as I moved closer to Alex.
“Stop moving, you will give me a boner otherwise and I don’t want that right now as I would like to sleep as it is 5 in the morning and I have to be up in 2 hours.” Alex muttered.
“I’m sorry, go to sleep. I’ll see you in the morning and I love you.” I said and I felt Alex smile into my back.
“I love you too.” Alex muttered and I felt his breaths even put and he was sound asleep.

I would of gone to sleep but every time I closed my eyes all I could feel over my body was Patrick which made me whimper and I rolled myself over and cuddled as close as I could to Alex and I just cried myself to sleep.

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