To the Moon and Back

Charlie's POV

When I wake up the next morning I turn around in bed to find Alex missing.

I sit up abruptly and look around worried, I relax when I hear the shower running in the bathroom, for a moment I thought that this had all been a dream but no, it's real and he is here with me and we are together.
Yes!
I smile and let myself fall back into the pillows but then the dark thoughts keep coming into my head again and my smile falters.

I turn around and hit my fist into the pillow then pull myself up and open his bedside drawer to search for something.

I find his wallet, his phone and his watch but that's not what I am looking for, I look around the room and my eyes fall on his travel bag.

I open it and quickly scan the inside, there, in the front pocket, that must be his ticket, I snatch it and flick through the pages, there that's his flight to Sydney and there that's the return flight, I look at the date and cover my mouth with my hand to stifle a sob, the return flight is in four days. Only four more days! No! Why?

I notice that the shower has stopped and quickly push the ticket back in place and close the zipper of his bag and jump back into bed.

I try to fake a smile for when he enters the room but I fail miserably, in fact I shiver and my breathing is ragged I am about to burst into tears but I can't let this happen. So I try to steady my breathing and pull myself together.

Alex comes back and jumps onto the bed with a wide smile he pulls me close and smacks his lips onto mine. "Good morning, gorgeous. You are so beautiful and I love you, what would you like to do today? Breakfast and then?"

He looks at me concerned because I don't respond and he snaps a finger in front of my face.

"Charlie are you with me? You look like you've seen a ghost, what's up, Baby?"

I clear my throat. "Nothing, I'm all good, Alex."

"Bullshit, don't lie to me, what's going on?" He holds me on arms length and looks into my eyes, I turn my head and look away, I just cannot face his eyes at the moment.

"Charlie? What is it? Talk to me please." He sounds alarmed and that stings even more because I never want to hurt him even though I feel so much pain right now.

But he does not give up and shakes me lightly to get me to look at him. I can't hold this back any longer, so I look him straight in the eye and ask a question whose answer I already know.

"Alex, when do you have to leave me again?"

He looks shocked for a moment and let's go of me burying his face in his hands.

"Okay Charlie, I did not want to spoil this day but you are right we cannot run away from things. My flight is booked in four days. The band and I are supposed to go on a west coast tour right when I come back." He looks at me with sad eyes.

"Alex, you are aware that I can't come with you, my visa was revoked, I will not be allowed back in the US." I tell him.

"That's what I have been guessing, yes." He answers defeated.

Then he takes a deep breath and grabs me and together we fall back onto the bed.

"Baby, I booked this before I knew if I would even find you, I am in love with you and I don't want to leave you again. I have never been so happy before. You are all that I need so I will not go back to LA but stay here with you." He kisses me and just rests his cheek onto mine slowly breathing in.

I let the news sink in for a moment until I fully get what he was just saying, that's when I push myself away from him and start to get angry. I jump out of bed pacing the room.

"You can't be serious right now, this is not what I just heard you say. Alex, I will not let this happen, you have a life over there you have a career, you have a business running, you've got friends that depend on you. And even if it rips out my heart to have you leave me, you are not throwing it all away for me because at some point in time you will hate me for this. No, Alex, just no!"

While I was talking he had gotten up as well and stopped my pacing by gripping my arm. Now his eyes turned darker as he shot me an angry glare.

"Excuse me, Charlie, I am a full grown man, I can make my own decisions and I wasn't aware that I need your permission to do so." he growled.

"Oh, okay, is that what a relationship with you looks like? You making decisions for the both of us without me having a say in it? Fucking brilliant." I yell, fuming with anger at that point.

Why could he not understand that I did this because I love him and didn't want to just make a selfish decision.

He had started to get dressed and I could see he was furious, I wanted to run to him and cuddle into his arms and make this all good again but that would just not work.

"I have to make a few phone calls and organise some things, Charlie. It shouldn't take too long. See you later." He told me with a cold voice and grabbed the keys from the table and just left without awaiting my reply.

I was shocked and only came to my senses minutes after he was gone.

We are not even 24 hours into our relationship and we just had our first fight. Why did he just leave? How could he be so cold and hard towards me?

That wasn't the Alex I thought I knew. Maybe he didn't love me that much after all. Maybe he expected more or something better, something that I wasn't or that I couldn't give him.

All of these thoughts flooded me and caused a physical pain in my stomach that made me bend over with cramps and only the fact that I didn't have breakfast yet stopped me from getting sick.

I felt so bad, I think I fucked it up, who could love somebody like me anyway?

Notes

Oh poor Sharky! The good times didn't last too long. :0