I pulled the duvet cover over my head as I heard voices outside of my bunk, I could hear my name being mentioned a few times, it sounded like Roxy and Jack speaking. Jack hadn't spoken to me since about five days ago when the whole situation exploded about me cheating on Alex. I knew Jack didn't want to speak to me right now and I couldn't blame him, I didn't know why Roxy was trying to get him to speak to me it wasn't going to work. Roxy had been there for me so much the past week or so, she's stuck with me and stayed my friend even after everything, Jordan tried speaking to me a few times but I just ignored him so I think he got the hint. As for Alex, he was a wreck. I hadn't spoken to him or even seen him but Roxy had told me that'd he'd been getting drunk every night, crying a lot, wasn't talking to anyone and this was all because of me, it was all my fault.

"I don't want to speak to her Roxy, I'm so mad at her, if I go near her I'll say something I regret. I'm so dissapointed in her." I heard Jack whisper from outside my bunk.

My stomuch dropped, my own brother didn't want to see me, he was 'so dissapointed' in me. I felt fresh, salty tears prick my eyes but I wiped them away quickly, I wasn't going to cry again, I'd cried too much recently.

"She's your sister Jack! She needs you! Don't you think that she knows she screwed up? You're an idiot if you don't think that she's in love with Alex, she's cried herself to sleep every single night since they broke up, she's told me countless times about how bad she feels and how much she misses him. Haven't you ever done something that you've regreted in your life, that you wish you could just take back? Because if you have, she would never have ignored you she would have been there for you because you are her brother, she wouldn't even be dissapointed in you and you know that." Roxy said a little louder getting irritated.

"I don't need a lecture from you, Alex is my bestfriend he's fucking messed up inside now because of her my sister she's done that too him. You might all be able to act like everything's fine but its not, I never wanted them to date in the first place, I knew that it would end bad but I thought that if they did break up it would be because Alex has fucked up not because of my sister, I thought she knew better."

I couldn't listen to him anymore, he might not have wanted to see me but at the end of the day I was still his sister, if he had screwed up I would never have been this harsh on him, I would have been there for him because I know that whatever he had done he would be regretting it, he'd be beating himself up about it ten times more than anyone else. I felt horrible for what I did to Alex because he deserves so much better and I felt awful for what I did to him but it was me who was going to have to live with it not Jack, Alex would eventually get over it but me? I was going to have to live with being a cheater for the rest of my life, it was me who suffered the concequences in the long term no one else, I hated myself enough for this, I didn't need my brother to hate me as well.

I pulled my duvet off of myself, sitting up and pulling the curtain across and getting out of the bunk. I stood up and Jack and Roxy turned their heads to face me. As soon as Jack saw me he started to walk away towards the back of the bus but I wasn't going to let him go that easy.

"Jack!" I shouted.

He stopped still for a second but didn't turn around, I called his name again and this time he just walked to the door pulling it open then rushing out and letting the door slam behind him. I quickly shoved some flip flops on following him outside in my pjs. I saw a glimpse of his body go straight onto the All Time Low tour bus the door swinging shut behind him, I knew that Alex was properly going to be on the bus and he wouldn't want too see me but I had to speak to Jack, he was my brother, I wasn't going too fall out with him over a boy, it just wasn't going too happen. I pushed the door open going inside to see Jack sitting on the sofa with Zack eyes stuck onto the TV.

I made myself known by coughing loudly, both Zack and Jack's heads turned around quickly to stare at me. Zack stood up quickly, giving me a quick nod and walking into the bunk area. I heard Jack let out a loud sigh and he gave me a quick glare before rolling his eyes, obviously he wasn't going to start this conversation.

"Jack, c'mon! I don't want to fall out with you!" I said almost pleading.

"Well you should have thought of that before you cheated on Alex. You're the one who fucked that up Georgia not me, why don't you take the blae for once in your fucking life." Jack said angrily.

This was a side I very rarely saw of Jack, he was usually so nice and cheerful to everyone and he'd never been this nasty to me. We'd always been so close but I guess everything was about to change.

"Don't you think I hate myself enough already without knowing that my own brother hates me too!?" I shot back.

"You know that I don't hate you! Why are you making this all about you!? I don't know you anymore Georgia, the Georgia I knew would never have cheated on someone else when she had a boyfriend, the Georgia I knew was better than that."

"How the fuck am I making this all about me! I know how much I've hurt Alex and I hate myself for what I did but I can't do anything to change it, no matter how many times I say sorry nothing is ever going to fix what I have done and I am the one who has to live with that so just fuck off!" I shouted at him.

I felt the tears spill down my cheeks, he was being complety unfair, I hated myself enough I really didn't need him too hate me aswell. I heard someone get out of there bunk as the curtain was pulled back angrily making a loud noise, a couple of seconds later an angry Alex appeared in the doorway. I could feel his eyes looking me up and down with disgust, which made me almost burst out into tears again.

"Wash my top and give it back would you." He said bluntly.

I looked down at what I was wearing and realised that I was wearing one of Alex's t-shirt's that he had leant me and some booty shorts. I nodded my head, looking down at the floor to avoid his gaze.

"Well why are you still here? Go." Alex said rudely.

That was it I was done. I wasn't wanted here, there was no point me staying on this tour I might as well just go home. Yeah I'd be letting down Roxy and the rest of Levels but I honestly couldn't deal with this no more, I was at breaking point.

"Don't worry, I'm leaving. I'll get the next flight out of here and go home then you won't ever have to see me again. Why don't you have a fucking party while you're at it!" I said glaring at Alex.

I knew that I had hurt him, but this was getting ridiculous. He didn't have to act like a complete dick just to get his point across, I knew that he hated me, I got that, he didn't need to try and prove it anymore.

"Good." Alex replied harshly before walking off.

I looked at Jack who had regret in his eyes, he actually looked guilty.

"Don't go Georgia, I told mum I'd look after you, everything will be fine." Jack said softly.

Really? After the way he just acted towards me he thought I was just going to forgive him that easily? No, I was leaving and I wasn't coming back to this tour, it was a huge mistake coming in the first place.

"Fuck off Jack, seriously just fuck off." I said before turning around and exiting the bus.

I was done, I was so done with all the bullshit in my life. I just needed to go home and get things sorted back out there again, I needed to move on and just forget about this tour and act as if it never happened. There was nothing I could do to change everything that had happened and there was no point dwelling on it either since it just made me feel even worse, it was time too move on.

All I had to do now was tell Roxy that I was leaving and that was going to be hard.

Notes

sooo I stayed up late just writing this chapter for you guys because I knew that I needed to get something up since I've got exams for the next week now so it'll properly be about another week before I update again! anyway I hope you're enjoying this, thanks for reading, I'd love to know what you're thinking so please comment :)