Paint You Wings
Chapter Ten
"Please sweetie just eat this." My mum said handing me a sandwich.
I nodded my head as I watched her walk out of my bedroom shutting the door behind her. I placed the sandwich on the side, then ran my hands through my hair. I'd been back in Baltimore for about a week and a half and I hadn't left my house at all. When I left the house I was filled with constant reminders about what I had done, people would come up to me unknowingly and ask me how Jack was and how the rest of them was doing, even Alex's parents came round the other day for dinner and I couldn't even be in the same room as them because I didn't know if Alex had told them what I had done. My mum had been very 'supportive' of me because she knew that it was a mistake and she could tell how much I regreted it even my older sister May had been in contact with Jack about it having a go at him and apparently he was 'sorry' and wanted to make up but right now I just didn't want anything to do with him.
I grabbed my sandwich taking a large bite then putting it back on the side, I hadn't been eating much recently but that was mostly because I was either crying or asleep. I'd discovered a lot since I had been home mostly that I still wanted to be friends with Jordan after all this wasn't all of his fault, I pratically led him on and made him believe that we were going to be together just because I was confused about my own feelings which was totally unfair on him. I needed to make things right with him then Jack and then finally Alex. I didn't expect Alex to ever forgive me all I wanted is for us to be able to be in the same room and for us both to be okay, neither of us getting upset or angry.
I grabbed my phone scrolling through my contacts until I found Jordan's name, I clicked his name then brang the phone to my ear listening to the ringing tone. I almost thought that he wasn't going to answer but he did and you could tell that he was suprised.
"Georgia? Are you alright?" Jordan rushed out.
"I'm fine. I'm just calling to say sorry, I've been a bitch and I didn't even realise how much I must have hurt you, I was only thinking about how I had hurt Alex. I didn't mean too lead you on honestly, I just wasn't sure of my own feelings and I should have made that clear too you. I really do want to be friends Jordan honestly you were a really good friends before all of this-" I paused not sure of what to say next.
"It's okay Georgia, I forgive you. I'm sorry for blackmailing you into telling Alex about the kiss I was a complete douche I should have let you tell him in your own time when you were ready. I can't lie I do still have feelings for you but I want to be friends even if we can't be anything else." Jordan said.
"Let's be friends then and see how it goes from there?"
"That sounds really good, look Jack's sitting next to me and he really wants to talk to you so should I hand you over?" Jordan asked.
"No. I don't want to talk too him, I should go now cya." I said quickly ending the call.
I'd sorted things out with Jordan so I should sort things out with Jack now but I just wasn't ready too. I couldn't forget everything he had said, it wasn't that easy. I took a few more bites of my sandwich then took the empty plate downstairs into the kitchen. My mum was standing there doing the washing up whilst my dad sat at the kitchen table with a newspaper. I handed her my plate and she shoved it into the soapy water, scrubbing at it with a sponge.
I started to make my way out of the room but stopped when I heard my dad shout.
"For god's sake Georgia you are not going back inside your room! You can't keep locking yourself away from the world because you screwed up everyone makes mistakes but nothing gets fixed by hiding away!" He shouted.
I flinched at his words, I wasn't used to him being mad with me, usually he was shouting at Jack. I turned around to face him not quite sure of what I should say I didn't want to make him even more mad.
"Your dad's right Georgia, we love you, we hate seeing you like this. Shutting yourself away from everyone isn't helping, take Benji for a walk or something you need to get out. Just get out for half an hour, trust me you'll feel so much better afterwards go have a coffee with some friends just do something... please." My mum said.
I didn't say anything, I didn't know what too say. I felt like I was letting everyone down, it was simple enough to just go out and see some friends but then I'd have to tell them why I was back so early and there was only really one person I trusted and that was Adam. He'd been my bestfriend for years, he'd told me everything, confided everything in me, I was the first person to find out he was gay so if he could trust me with that then I could trust him with this.
I went upstairs back into my bedroom changing into some denim shorts and a white tanktop with some brown gladiator sandles. I shoved a $10 bill into the back of my shorts and grabbed my phone rushing back downstairs. I grabbed Benji's lead off of the hook calling Benji's name and he ran over excitedly, I clipped the lead onto his collar and opened the front door the fresh, summer's breeze hitting me.
"Do you want me and your dad to come?" My mum asked suddenly appearing behind me.
"It's fine, I'm gonna go and meet Adam." I said half smiling.
I started walking holding onto Benji's lead tightly, he was only a puppy but he was still strong for his little size. We'd only gotten him a few months ago and he was no doubt the cutest cocker spaniel I had ever seen, he had beautiful golden fur and floppy ears. I made my way to the sweet shop Adam worked at, I knew that he would been working today because it was a Friday and he worked at mon-fri week.I tied Benji up outside and went into the shop, the bell ringing as I opened the door. There wasn't many people in today but most of the customers were usually school kids and they would be at school right now.
"Georgia what are you doing here!?" A famillar voice shouted as I felt myself be lifted off of the floor and be spinned around.
When my feet landed back on the ground I felt a laugh erupt from my lips. Adam looked exactly the same as when I had left except his hair was now maybe a bit shorter but it still flicked across his face.
"When's your lunch break? I have a lot to tell you."
"In about fifteen minutes, what's going on I thought you weren't meant to be back for ages!?" Adam asked confused.
"Me too haha. I'll tell you over coffee? I'll go get a seat outside at the starbucks down the road and wait for you there okay?"
"Do we have to sit outside? There's this really cute guy who works on the coffee machines now, unfortunatly he's straight." Adam moaned.
"Yes we do, I've got Benji so I should properly get going now I'll see you soon!" I said quickly wrapping my arms around Adam's neck for a hug. He hugged me tighter before letting me go.
I gave him a quick wave goodbye, exiting the shop and untiying Benji from the pole outside. I started walking to Starbucks, sitting down on a free table outside then letting Benji of the lead where he just sat down next to my chair. He was pretty tame for a puppy. A few minutes later a very attractive guy came outside to take my order, properly the guy Adam was talking about earlier. I asked him for two coffee's and he shot me a cute smile and walked back inside.
Adam eventually came just as the two coffee's were place in front of me, he sat down in the seat opposite me and called Benji over, stroking his head. I wrapped my hands around the warm coffee cup, bringing it to my lips and taking a sip burning my tounge. I put the coffee cup back down quickly, the coffee splashing onto the table.
"Fuck!" I cursed.
"Typical Georgia." Adam said laughing tears coming out of the corner of his eyes.
"It's not even funny." I said moodily.
"It is a bit though, anyway let's talk about the real reason why we're here I only half an hour till I have to go back to the shop."
I explained everything to him from start to finish and he didn't interupt once which made it a lot easier to tell him, once I had finished he leant back in his chair absorbing the information.
"You need to talk to Alex, both of you just on your own, no arguing just talking. From what I've heard you guys seemed happy together yeah you made a mistake but no one's perfect. This Jordan guy sounds a bit like a twat, he knew you had a boyfriend he could have backed off of you a little but what's done is done and if you are fine being friends with him then that's your decision."
"I really want too talk to Alex it's just he hates me, not that I blame him. He looks at me with such disgust he'll never sit in a bloody room alone with me and if he did we would both end up arguing and nothing would get sorted out." I sighed picking up my coffee cup and sipping at it since it was a little cooler.
"You've got to sit down and talk to him at some point, when is he next going to be back in Baltimore?"
"They get a few days of next week and they're coming back. I don't think I'm ready to talk to him yet Adam not when I know how much he hates me he's made that clear."
"He doesn't hate you, he's properly still in love with you. He's bound to be hurt and upset over this, if I was shocked that you'd cheated then your own boyfriends is going to have been shocked too, he properly thinks he wasn't good enough or something."
I had never really thought about why he thought I did it, I just assumed that he was angry and upset because I had done it too him not because maybe he's doubting how good he is for anyone especially not me. When he came back to Baltimore, I don't care if he doesn't want too see me I was going to talk to him he needed to understand that what I did was my own stupid fault not his. It would never be his fault.
Me and Adam finished the rest of the drinks, hugged goodbye then I made my way back too my house. As soon as I got back I let Benji off of his lead and filled up his water bowl and he drunk thirstly. I went into the front room which was empty, sitting down and flicking the TV on. I scrolled through the channel's putting on a music channel and pulling my vibrating phone out from the back of my shorts. I stared at the contact I.D, my stomuch dropping.
Alex.
I nodded my head as I watched her walk out of my bedroom shutting the door behind her. I placed the sandwich on the side, then ran my hands through my hair. I'd been back in Baltimore for about a week and a half and I hadn't left my house at all. When I left the house I was filled with constant reminders about what I had done, people would come up to me unknowingly and ask me how Jack was and how the rest of them was doing, even Alex's parents came round the other day for dinner and I couldn't even be in the same room as them because I didn't know if Alex had told them what I had done. My mum had been very 'supportive' of me because she knew that it was a mistake and she could tell how much I regreted it even my older sister May had been in contact with Jack about it having a go at him and apparently he was 'sorry' and wanted to make up but right now I just didn't want anything to do with him.
I grabbed my sandwich taking a large bite then putting it back on the side, I hadn't been eating much recently but that was mostly because I was either crying or asleep. I'd discovered a lot since I had been home mostly that I still wanted to be friends with Jordan after all this wasn't all of his fault, I pratically led him on and made him believe that we were going to be together just because I was confused about my own feelings which was totally unfair on him. I needed to make things right with him then Jack and then finally Alex. I didn't expect Alex to ever forgive me all I wanted is for us to be able to be in the same room and for us both to be okay, neither of us getting upset or angry.
I grabbed my phone scrolling through my contacts until I found Jordan's name, I clicked his name then brang the phone to my ear listening to the ringing tone. I almost thought that he wasn't going to answer but he did and you could tell that he was suprised.
"Georgia? Are you alright?" Jordan rushed out.
"I'm fine. I'm just calling to say sorry, I've been a bitch and I didn't even realise how much I must have hurt you, I was only thinking about how I had hurt Alex. I didn't mean too lead you on honestly, I just wasn't sure of my own feelings and I should have made that clear too you. I really do want to be friends Jordan honestly you were a really good friends before all of this-" I paused not sure of what to say next.
"It's okay Georgia, I forgive you. I'm sorry for blackmailing you into telling Alex about the kiss I was a complete douche I should have let you tell him in your own time when you were ready. I can't lie I do still have feelings for you but I want to be friends even if we can't be anything else." Jordan said.
"Let's be friends then and see how it goes from there?"
"That sounds really good, look Jack's sitting next to me and he really wants to talk to you so should I hand you over?" Jordan asked.
"No. I don't want to talk too him, I should go now cya." I said quickly ending the call.
I'd sorted things out with Jordan so I should sort things out with Jack now but I just wasn't ready too. I couldn't forget everything he had said, it wasn't that easy. I took a few more bites of my sandwich then took the empty plate downstairs into the kitchen. My mum was standing there doing the washing up whilst my dad sat at the kitchen table with a newspaper. I handed her my plate and she shoved it into the soapy water, scrubbing at it with a sponge.
I started to make my way out of the room but stopped when I heard my dad shout.
"For god's sake Georgia you are not going back inside your room! You can't keep locking yourself away from the world because you screwed up everyone makes mistakes but nothing gets fixed by hiding away!" He shouted.
I flinched at his words, I wasn't used to him being mad with me, usually he was shouting at Jack. I turned around to face him not quite sure of what I should say I didn't want to make him even more mad.
"Your dad's right Georgia, we love you, we hate seeing you like this. Shutting yourself away from everyone isn't helping, take Benji for a walk or something you need to get out. Just get out for half an hour, trust me you'll feel so much better afterwards go have a coffee with some friends just do something... please." My mum said.
I didn't say anything, I didn't know what too say. I felt like I was letting everyone down, it was simple enough to just go out and see some friends but then I'd have to tell them why I was back so early and there was only really one person I trusted and that was Adam. He'd been my bestfriend for years, he'd told me everything, confided everything in me, I was the first person to find out he was gay so if he could trust me with that then I could trust him with this.
I went upstairs back into my bedroom changing into some denim shorts and a white tanktop with some brown gladiator sandles. I shoved a $10 bill into the back of my shorts and grabbed my phone rushing back downstairs. I grabbed Benji's lead off of the hook calling Benji's name and he ran over excitedly, I clipped the lead onto his collar and opened the front door the fresh, summer's breeze hitting me.
"Do you want me and your dad to come?" My mum asked suddenly appearing behind me.
"It's fine, I'm gonna go and meet Adam." I said half smiling.
I started walking holding onto Benji's lead tightly, he was only a puppy but he was still strong for his little size. We'd only gotten him a few months ago and he was no doubt the cutest cocker spaniel I had ever seen, he had beautiful golden fur and floppy ears. I made my way to the sweet shop Adam worked at, I knew that he would been working today because it was a Friday and he worked at mon-fri week.I tied Benji up outside and went into the shop, the bell ringing as I opened the door. There wasn't many people in today but most of the customers were usually school kids and they would be at school right now.
"Georgia what are you doing here!?" A famillar voice shouted as I felt myself be lifted off of the floor and be spinned around.
When my feet landed back on the ground I felt a laugh erupt from my lips. Adam looked exactly the same as when I had left except his hair was now maybe a bit shorter but it still flicked across his face.
"When's your lunch break? I have a lot to tell you."
"In about fifteen minutes, what's going on I thought you weren't meant to be back for ages!?" Adam asked confused.
"Me too haha. I'll tell you over coffee? I'll go get a seat outside at the starbucks down the road and wait for you there okay?"
"Do we have to sit outside? There's this really cute guy who works on the coffee machines now, unfortunatly he's straight." Adam moaned.
"Yes we do, I've got Benji so I should properly get going now I'll see you soon!" I said quickly wrapping my arms around Adam's neck for a hug. He hugged me tighter before letting me go.
I gave him a quick wave goodbye, exiting the shop and untiying Benji from the pole outside. I started walking to Starbucks, sitting down on a free table outside then letting Benji of the lead where he just sat down next to my chair. He was pretty tame for a puppy. A few minutes later a very attractive guy came outside to take my order, properly the guy Adam was talking about earlier. I asked him for two coffee's and he shot me a cute smile and walked back inside.
Adam eventually came just as the two coffee's were place in front of me, he sat down in the seat opposite me and called Benji over, stroking his head. I wrapped my hands around the warm coffee cup, bringing it to my lips and taking a sip burning my tounge. I put the coffee cup back down quickly, the coffee splashing onto the table.
"Fuck!" I cursed.
"Typical Georgia." Adam said laughing tears coming out of the corner of his eyes.
"It's not even funny." I said moodily.
"It is a bit though, anyway let's talk about the real reason why we're here I only half an hour till I have to go back to the shop."
I explained everything to him from start to finish and he didn't interupt once which made it a lot easier to tell him, once I had finished he leant back in his chair absorbing the information.
"You need to talk to Alex, both of you just on your own, no arguing just talking. From what I've heard you guys seemed happy together yeah you made a mistake but no one's perfect. This Jordan guy sounds a bit like a twat, he knew you had a boyfriend he could have backed off of you a little but what's done is done and if you are fine being friends with him then that's your decision."
"I really want too talk to Alex it's just he hates me, not that I blame him. He looks at me with such disgust he'll never sit in a bloody room alone with me and if he did we would both end up arguing and nothing would get sorted out." I sighed picking up my coffee cup and sipping at it since it was a little cooler.
"You've got to sit down and talk to him at some point, when is he next going to be back in Baltimore?"
"They get a few days of next week and they're coming back. I don't think I'm ready to talk to him yet Adam not when I know how much he hates me he's made that clear."
"He doesn't hate you, he's properly still in love with you. He's bound to be hurt and upset over this, if I was shocked that you'd cheated then your own boyfriends is going to have been shocked too, he properly thinks he wasn't good enough or something."
I had never really thought about why he thought I did it, I just assumed that he was angry and upset because I had done it too him not because maybe he's doubting how good he is for anyone especially not me. When he came back to Baltimore, I don't care if he doesn't want too see me I was going to talk to him he needed to understand that what I did was my own stupid fault not his. It would never be his fault.
Me and Adam finished the rest of the drinks, hugged goodbye then I made my way back too my house. As soon as I got back I let Benji off of his lead and filled up his water bowl and he drunk thirstly. I went into the front room which was empty, sitting down and flicking the TV on. I scrolled through the channel's putting on a music channel and pulling my vibrating phone out from the back of my shorts. I stared at the contact I.D, my stomuch dropping.
Alex.
Hmm, so I just stumbled across this and I'm sad to see it was never finished. I've read what you have so far and I just wanted to leave a comment letting you know I think you're a great writer. :)
If you ever choose to finish this, I will be here to read, because I think it's a great story. I really think it deserves an ending. :') Georgia and Alex have been through a lot; I think they deserve a happy ending, but that's just me. :P
Maybe this comment will inspire you to finish the story. :)
2/22/16