Me and Alex had been together for two weeks, two amazing weeks. It might not seem long to some people but for me just being with him was weird because it was what I had always wanted. We still acted like we usually did, just like bestfriends but a little more now, obviously we would kiss and do other couply stuff we'd even been on a few dates which I would of thought was impossible to do since we were meant to be on tour but somehow Alex could swing it so we could go out during the day when they weren't performing or in the evenings.

Things were going good and that's all that really mattered, we were still in the """honeymoon""" period so we hadn't argued as of yet and Jack was actually pretty happy when me and Alex came back and told him that we had got together which was a relief because I was expecting his huge, long, lecture on how we shouldn't be together and it would muck up our friendship etc etc but he didn't say anything like that all he said was that he was happy for us.

Today had been a busy day, I had been on the merch tent all day in the ridiculously hot weather, it was unbearable luckily Levels weren't performing today so Jordan and Roxy hanged out with me whilst I was selling merch which brang in even more customers since they were there. Things between me and Jordan were okay, they weren't how they used to be mostly because I was now with Alex and I spent the majority of my time with him rather than Jordan like I used too, plus since Jordan had feelings for me I thought it would be better to keep my distance for a while so he could get over them feelings and move on, even though I knew that it was easier said that done.

Once I had finished packing up all of the leftover merch into boxes and packing it into the back of Levels' truck, I went into Levels tour bus to get ready for tonight. We were all going out to this club to hang out and let 'loose'. I climbed onto a pretty silent bus, Roxy was playing video games against Luke and Max, I wasn't too sure where Jordan was. I went over to my bunk and underneath I grabbed some tight, light blue, skinny jeans out of the box slipping them on quickly since no one was around then grabbing a white boob tube and putting it on. I went into the shoe box grabbing my favourite pair of red high heels and shoving them onto my feet. All I needed to do now was my makeup and hair then I was ready, I fished around in my makeup bag going into the small bathroom and pulling out some eyeliner and mascara applying it to my eyes, then grabbing some lipgloss and applying it generously, I didn't bother with foundation because it would only run in the club since it would be so hot, making it all patchy. I pulled my straight hair all onto one side letting it hang loose.

The bathroom door opened and Jordan stood there. He was wearing some black skinny jeans and a white top with some white converses. He looked really good. He scratched the back of his neck before speaking.

"Sorry I didn't realise anyone was in here." Jordan said quickly.

"It's fine. I'm finished now." I replied smiling at him.

"Uh okay, I just wanted to put some gel in my hair for tonight."

"Don't put any in, it looks good without it." I said walking closer to him and pushing his hair to the side.

I rested my hand on his cheek, which was burning up, my heart was thumping ten times faster than usual in my chest. Jordan stared directly into my eyes and I did the same to his, I was lost in his ocean, blue eyes, his eyes kept flickering to my lips then back to my eyes, it was almost as if he was silently asking if he could kiss me and for some reason I wanted him too. I had Alex, I didn't even know what I was doing when I nodded my head. Jordan smiled leaning in closer until his lips pressed against mine, this kiss became pretty heated quickly, Jordan shoved me against the wall his tounge exploring my mouth, my hands were messing up all of his hair. He bit my lip before pulling away with a smile on his face, my breathing was uneven so I stayed quiet for a second trying to get it back to normal. What had I done? Alex was my boyfriend not Jordan, I'd just cheated on Alex. I felt sick, I felt even worse that I had enjoyed it, how was I going to tell Alex he was going to hate me, he would break up with me, I didn't want too lose him, I was such an idiot. I felt the tears brim in my eyes, threating to spill over. Jordan placed his hand on the side of my cheek 'shhing' me.

"It's okay, don't cry." Jordan said softly.

"I just cheated on Alex. Oh my god, I am the worst person ever." I said the tears spilling over my cheeks.

"You're not trust me there are worse people, everything will be okay just tell Alex then we can be together."

I wasn't even sure on my feelings, I didn't know if I wanted to be with Jordan or if I wanted to be with Alex. I was pretty sure I was in love with Alex and what I felt for Jordan was nothing more than a crush, but if it was only a crush why did I let him kiss me? Why didn't I push him away and tell him that the only guy I wanted was Alex? Why did I have to go and make things even more complicated for myself and fuck everything up?

"Please don't tell Alex." I rushed out.

"I won't, you tell him maybe not tonight because everyone's gonna try and have a good time tonight but tomorrow?"

I nodded my head quickly, wiping my eyes with the back of my hand. I had to tell him, I couldn't lie to him. It wouldn't be right. Jordan pulled me into a hug which made me cry even more, I'd never felt so guilty in my entire life. Jordan pulled away and I saw that I had left a mascara stain on his top from crying so much, he saw it in the mirror and chuckled to himself.

"It's fine, I'll go change it. Look you go ahead to All Time Low's bus and I'll see you at the club tonight yeah?" He said pressing his lips to mine before walking away.

I took a final look at myself in the mirror, fixing up my makeup then rushing past Roxy, Luke and Max who were still playing video games. I went straight onto All Time Low's bus, taking a deep breath before going on. Jack, Zack and Rian were all sitting down on the couch watching the televison but Alex wasn't there. Jack noticed me first getting up and giving me a huge hug which made me feel like crying again. He was going to hate me aswell when he found out that me and Jordan had kissed because I would have hurt his bestfriend.

"Alex is in his bunk if you're looking for him." Rian said.

I shot him a smile walking over to Alex's bunk. I pulled the curtain back and sure enough Alex was sitting there on his phone tapping away at twitter. When he saw me he gave me a massive smile, moving up so there was space for me to sit. I sat down next to him and he instantly wrapped his arm around me, so I rested my head on his chest.

"I've missed you all day." Alex said.

"I've missed you too." I replied honestly.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

"Mhm, I'm fine." I lied.

"We're gonna have so much fun tonight and you're not leaving my side not once."

"What about if I need to go to the bathroom?" I joked.

"I'll come with you then." He said quickly kissing my forehead.

"Are you ready to go?" I asked him.

"Nope, I'll go get ready now!" He said climbing out of the bunk and flashing me a smile.

I felt even more guilty now, I had the perfect boyfriend, someone who would never hurt me and I've just screwed everything up.

*

The club was packed, I'd never seen so many people in one place before, Alex didn't lie when he said he wasn't going to leave my side all night, currently we were sitting at a table with a group of people I didn't even know drinking beer. I decided that I wasn't going to get drunk tonight, I didn't want to accidently tell Alex about the kiss me and Jordan had, I wanted to tell him when I was sober. Suprisingly Alex told me that if I wasn't going to drink much then neither would he, whether he'd actually keep to that I wasn't too sure.

I gulped the remaining few bits of my beer down, coughing loudly then saying that I'd go and get the next round of drinks. I don't know why I even said that because I wasn't even twenty-one the legal age to buy alcohol and I didn't even have any fake I.D. I went up to the barman who had just finished serving and asked for five beers and to my suprise he just nodded his head asked for the money and went and got them. It was properly because I was a girl, sometimes being a girl was very handy. I tried to balance the drinks in my hand having two beer's in each hand but there wasn't space for the fifth.

"Need some help?" Someone breathed in my ear.

I turned around quickly to see Jordan standing there with a smug smile on his face as my heart started thumping quickly again in my chest. I looked over at Alex but he wasn't even looking this way he was too involved in whatever conversation he was having with Jack. I nodded my head quickly not wanting to talk to him and he grabbed the bottle and followed me over to the table. I sat down next to Alex again passing him a beer, then putting the remaining ones on the table. Jordan sat on the opposite side of the table smirking at me whilst he opened a bottle of beer, that was until Alex wrapped one of his arms around my shoulder, pulling me closer to him. I was certain in my head that I only wanted to be with Alex, in fact I was positive of it which made me never want to tell Alex what happened between me and Jordan because that would only fuck things up.

"Are you okay babe?" Alex asked.

"Mhm, I'm just tired." I lied.

"You wanna go? I'm knackered too, we can go back to the bus watch some films cuddle?" Alex said smiling.

I almost felt like crying again, he was honestly the best boyfriend I'd even had, the best boyfriend I'd properly ever have and I was just taking him for a mug. I looked over at Jordan who wasn't smiling anymore, his eyes were narrowed at Alex and I could tell that he wanted to tell Alex what had happened just to ruin the night, which meant we needed to leave now.

"Let's go." I said grabbing Alex's hand and heading outside.

A cab came pretty quickly taking us back to where our buses were parked, we went to All Time Low's tour bus going inside and cuddling up on the sofa with a blanket wrapped around us. Alex had put the film 'The Notebook' on for us too watch, which made him even cuter even though he did fall asleep half way through the film. I had decided to not tell Alex about the kiss because I didn't want to screw everything up, I was finally with him, I wasn't going to loose him. At least that was what I was planning to do until I got a text through on my phone from Jordan.

Text From: Jordan
either you tell him or I will.

Fuck.

Notes

lots of drama in this chapter, please lemme know what you think comments really do mean a lot :-) hope you all had a good christmas btw! x